My Deepest Thoughts

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i got fucked 3 times tonight <3

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Skrrrt

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I really miss him. But this is for the better

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I think maybe that the fact that my classmate got enganged and everyone are hyped about it kind of contributed to my weird mood. Like, most of them don’t even know I’m engaged. Idk, it kind of sucks. They want to celebrate and buy gifts... kind of bumps me out

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I don’t feel very happy recently

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I have such a hard time concentrating lately, it’s really hard to get anything done. After 20 min of doing something I become restless and uneasy. Good thing autumn vacation is coming up

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I don’t feel so good, it is at this time I must make my faith carry me through

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I took the paper roll to my bedside table in case I needed it for when I started crying. I haven’t cried yet. Good job

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I forgot to take my birthcontrol yesterday and I think I’m having cramps uff

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Honestly, i feel like i should just let americans deal with their problems in peace and stop getting upset. If they wanna be idiots, so be it

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Sometimes the best remedy is just to go to sleep

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im so desperate for love, someone please love me

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Honestly? I think getting a bf really helped me. He has helped me grow mentally and made me more mature and independent. I really grew up very fast, he’s honestly my rock and I should thank him for that. I really turned into an adult so fast since I met him & it really shows personality wise and mental health wise. I’m more confident and intelligent than I was just 3 years ago. This guy really changed me.

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But idk if it’s time to move on or not. It’s what I needed at that point in time but I’m not sure if we’re supposed to be together forever but he told me he’d kill himself if I ever leave him so I don’t even dare thinking about it

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met this dude and at first he was interesting and cool, we have a lot of things in common, but then he got really direct and as soon as I told him I’m taken he got distant and answer less frequently, kind of sucks because I was really looking forward to having a friend. Why can’t guys settle for friendships man

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I had a few minutes there were I really wanted to smoke. Who am i ugh

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I wish he would pay more attention, stop being so busy. I hate ldr sometimes, it’s so hard to maintain

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I know that what I am doing is naughty but goddamn it does it ignite me and excite me at the same time. Is it really wrong when nothing is physical and it’s someone who’s really close to me and would never hurt me?

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I’m so sex deprived it’s laughable