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Have you ever noticed

Have you ever noticed that ALL the books for family’s with a Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) family member put the BPD family member in such a negative light and demonize them. It just pisses me off and makes me sad.

tinylilbean

you might have bpd if you:

develop intensely passionate feelings for anybody who’s decent to you

go back and forth between deeply loving and severely hating the very same person

get really ecstatic and positive at the thought of a small pleasure

get dangerously low and pessimistic at a minor set back

put yourself in compromising and potentially harmful situations as a way to, either consciously or subconsciously, further punish or traumatize yourself

get unmanageably angry when witnessing someone hurt your loved one

have obsessive and intrusive thoughts about violently getting revenge on any perpetrator who has wronged you or someone dear to you

disassociate in a number of ways, including feeling like you’re stuck in a simulation, a movie, or a dream. this also includes “zoning out” completely and not feeling or thinking anything, but obtaining more of a sleeping-while-awake state of being

have white rage episodes that result from external stimuli triggering your fight or flight mode. within these you can also exhibit sociopathic [sic] tendencies and symptoms akin to paranoid-schizophrenia

have any kind of hallucinations, be it auditory, visual, or sensory

are deathly afraid of abandonment and isolation

constantly worry that everyone hates you and your friends are faking affection, thus driving you to seek constant validation and reassurance

often go back and forth between beating yourself up for not being good enough for your friends/partner and demonizing your friends/partner for not being good enough for you

and a lot, lot more

homojabi

The worst thing about being borderline is that you can actually watch and see the borderline behavior and recognize it for what it is but you can literally do nothing to stop it. You see yourself become a horrible monster and you just logically know that you can prevent a big explosion from happening if you just fucking stop but you physically cannot and that is one of the worst things: being victim of this monster that is even a separate being from you and destroying everyone else, including yourself.

pastelprincess03

Getting better at this!!!

#black and white

cryingismylatestfashion

You may mess up, but you’re not a mess up.

You may make a mistake, but you are not a mistake.

You may screw up, but you are not a screw up.

You may fail, but you are not a failure.

You are not your downfalls.

pastelprincess03

Love this

#black and white #Selflove

bpd--ghostie

someone: we shouldn’t expect relationships to last forever!

my bpd ass: Ok I Agree But i am very dependent+afraid of abandonment r u trying 2 ruin my life.

pastelprincess03

#truth #loveforever!

#bpd #truth #love

Bpd. Help....

Im so sick of being mental. I will be the most beautiful, passionate, loving and confident woman in the world and then bam. ... I'm an insecure jealous bitch. Today i drank two glasses of red and now im just out of surgery for broken fingers. I am going to lose the love of my life if i keep this up. I am so in love with him... it's like my fears of him going back to an ex or wanting another makes me psycho and its pathetic as i know he loves me. Any suggestions? ?? I'm sick of making him so unhappy. I want to give him the love he deserves. Help

#bpd #help #pyschobitch

I am not fat. I'm not ugly.

#iambeautiful #iamwhoiam #iamworthy

I love him. He never left me. He gets me and all my fucked up pieces. I'm going to keep doing my therapy and get rid of this bpd shit!!! he is my everything

#love #bpd #forever

Ha ha..

Over before it began

We were meant to be planting trees in our new house and putting deposits into the account tomorrow. It’s all gone.

Everyone has their own demons. I wanted to help him fight his and have him help me slay mine. Instead we fight against each other.

He has gone.

I’m not blaming myself anymore or trying to stop him. I love him and want him to be happy. If i make him so miserable then i can’t make him stay or chase him. No matter how much i want to. Im getting stronger everyday and am learning to love myself again. I deserve that.

This is all a fucking sad ending to what could of been a happy ending.

If only he could just once see things from my eyes. I’m never picking on him! I would of given him my everything. I thought i did.

I can never love or trust again and i will never ever ever tell anyone my past ever again.

#bpd #alone #hurting #itsover

#reallove #love #respect

Soul mates. We always fight and yet come back together. I want to believe it's cos of something bigger than us...

#soulmate #love

My head is in a vice

You know that feeling where your brain hurts so much that you just wish you could release it somehow? I feel like I’m constantly being squeezed in a big vice. I am tired. I’m tired of not feeling good enough. Im tired of not having someone love me enough to sit with me and tell me i will be OK. That im ok the way i am. I’m not hard work. Im just a girl that loves a lot. Maybe i live in a fantasy land thinking i could be enough for someone. I want to be loved so hard that when im having a depression day that i won’t be left. Then again i push ppl away and say leave but really i want them to stay. I want them to fight for me when ive ran out of fight.

All i want is security. All i want is trust. No secrets. I fucking hate being left out. I’m at the end. I really wish i could just sleep forever. I told everyone today about my #bpd

I am nothing I feel so good making ppl smile and helping others but i feel like a fake cos i am not happy a lot myself.

Im tired of living this way.

I want so much to be free from this. I’m always trying but I’m scared one day i will stop.

#bpd #alone #help #inlovebuthewillleavesoon