nick mulvey // first mind // i don’t want to go home
i feel so gross. i think that recently i’ve been having a lot of trouble deciphering between sexual love and actual friendship love. it sounds so mom of me tbh, i kind of hate it. maybe i’m realizing that what i want isn’t a one night thing and maybe i need to assert myself as a more dominant person in a relationship because otherwise i falter and don’t express what i need.Â
i had sex with a guy named zack and i liked him a lot but there was nothing there that screamed relationship to me. 10/10 would sleep with him again but he’s blocked me and i can’t figure out why. i think i’m okay with it but its just been bugging me.












