Under A Cork Tree

In love with an idea.

[peaches-and-liimes]

not me

[peaches-and-liimes]

you smile like you’re concealing a secret but who’s to say the sun isn’t behind your teeth?

[peaches-and-liimes]

everywhere I go, I am elsewhere

sometimes

with you

I am present

but

mostly I'm a ghost

how do you hold me, darling?

when I've got no form to grab

even if I were human

I wouldn't understand

[peaches-and-liimes]

you told me that if I were a font, I’d be both bold and sharp

if you were a font, you’d be whatever the most beautiful font is

[peaches-and-liimes]

I don’t want to be a person

I’m not sure I know how

I don’t want to buy a car or a tv or a house

I don’t want to talk to others

for any given reason

Zero part of me cares about what Jane Doe believes in

[peaches-and-liimes]

I hate running into girls you wanted to fuck in high school at the grocery store

I hate running into everyone I fucked in college at the grocery store

and in grocery stores in most surrounding cities

I hate when you tell stories that allude to the girl you took too long to cut off when we started dating

I hate that I exist in the same city as her

I hate that she was very anti- us and you still kept her around for a while

I hate that I had to tell you to tell her to fuck off

I hate that I'm the more considerate partner

I hate that I didn't come first until I asked to

I hate that I've settled for all of these things that I hate

I am not a big fan of monogamy

[peaches-and-liimes]

you are a feeling

which is something I can't say about

anyone else

[peaches-and-liimes]

I guess

[peaches-and-liimes]

How I long to be

outside of myself

[peaches-and-liimes]

It could have been everything

we could have spent evenings

mornings

late nights

together

It could have been nothing at all

at least for a moment

spell

juncture

of time

it was something

[peaches-and-liimes]

I'M IN LOVE WITH LOVE I'VE NEVER KNOWN AND LIPS I'VE NEVER KISSED

THE LIPS I'VE NEVER TASTED ARE THE ONLY ONES I'LL MISS

[peaches-and-liimes]

early morning quarantine

I think I’ll probably always be in love with Logan

some love never ends

I have so many undone shoelaces in my past

somehow I manage to trip over them

time and time again

I’ll lust over nights spent with Victor

and fawn over days spent with Austin

I’ll probably always wonder about David Clements

and pick apart conversations I had with Cort Adkins

sometimes I think I’d like to be 18 again

so each lover and I could relive these moments

if I had known at the time that it wasn’t meant

I’d have held you a little tighter

[peaches-and-liimes]

and yet

the past is ever-present

[peaches-and-liimes]

is there a fire escape to my right or left side

from the utter sameness of everyday life

by any chance is there a raft under my seat

that I might use to lose myself at sea

are there perhaps exits beside the screen

that I could quietly cross during the movie

is there a life in which I win

are there reasons to continue

[peaches-and-liimes]

Tell me

is it always this lonely

?

[peaches-and-liimes]

We met at the wrong time

it took me no time

to fall into your eyes

but we met at the wrong time

we met at the wrong time

you were the purest tie I'd made in a long time

but we met at the wrong time

we met at the wrong time

you were life itself

there was no one else

we met at the wrong time

but we were right

[peaches-and-liimes]

The feeling comes back when I dream of you

the longing to simply be near to you

the ache in my heart and the gentle pangs

that coarsed through my veins when you said my name

I marvel the fact that you once were mine

I play it all back in three-quarter time

I gave you everything I had to give

I wait for the day you want it again