Pensive Ponders and Musings

the secret musings of a half-born moth. this place is not for you, leave no marks. here is written the poetry and personal notes of a mind freed of concern from observation. If you visit, you may witness as you like, but do not Follow.

[pensiveponder]

beings, like us, descended from the earth, dirt and stone through long period that gained intelligence.

and beings too, descended from pure air. we might call them entities

[pensiveponder]

i can only use your toothbrush so many times

[weltenwellen]

Joy Harjo, from “Nandia”, She Had Some Horses

[pensiveponder]

Never to be looked at again. Never to be returned to. Left and then Gone

[pensiveponder]

at least i can know its still the same moon in the sky as the one you see

[virginiewoolf]

Fortesa Latifi, from The Truth About Grief.

[pensiveponder]

can you be strong while sad? is it possible to be insecure without being desperate?

[pensiveponder]

Gaining the ability to insist. Gaining an object of the ability to Insist. (A mirror)

[pensiveponder]

Make rift game more like a first person lantern kingdom game. You have to make decisions as a member of a group, but often you’re the tie breaker. Some decisions are randomly made.

characters have scripted places they visit, or do it randomly and simply. This gives you places to join for safety or areas to visit out of turn. Sometimes one wants to come with you anywhere.

[lapiz-nomada]

[pensiveponder]

There is one of me who wants everything charted out and safe and another of me who needs it not to be

[pensiveponder]

you can base your frame on someone else, you can invert that frame- freeing yourself into the defiance of that frame.

but what happens when youre just looking at yourself?

will you see simply

how small you are?

[pensiveponder]

Comic or story element thing writing where theres this ridiculous weird prismqtic beautiful monster thing thats like danced and worshipped around and every now and then it grabs one nearby and holds it up and comepletely and horrifyingly and beautifully alters it in this extremely bright on display way and then it gets put down and its treated differently

[pensiveponder]

a squirming desire to grant your wishes

[pensiveponder]

Pensive ponder timed events, that happen by day. Happens x + r days after.

Have each day draw a random event. Maybe don’t tell the player about it immediately.

When night happens, it gets dark. If not indoors, you go to a strange list dark place. I’d indoors you wake up in the bed.

[pensiveponder]

setting idea thats like, youre some girl in this like. english boarding school (or literally any other idea that has the same set in learned helplessness prison world.) and you slowly learn magic powers. and as you grow and use them more, you realize more and more that the world is kind of illusory. kind of like madoka rebellion and vampire gloaming. and the way you use magic doesnt get compensated for if she doesn't notice. and then it gets romantic because, its the move in a game that has been going on for a long time. - magic causes punishment, when it notices that you did it - its like Coraline but with Entity June as Coraline instead like how entity june always pretends to be coraline's mom (and she sort of is) but shes actually more like coraline (has to escape a mental imprison) - "I didnt realize that i was being mean to myself -> you"

[pensiveponder]

Game idea Vitreous : Tulsa creation spell that makes a thing which generates mania juice for you but can cause complications