My Social Skills Got Ruined A Long Time Ago

[peopleskillsruined]

I’m so sick of how I am.

I have a really tiny friend group, like maybe 5 people not counting my boyfriend I speak to on a well.. pretty regular basis.

I feel so... disliked among basically all of them I don’t know what to do.

They don’t openly try and talk to me. I haven’t hung out with one of them outside of school and other extra activities in almost a year. I hate how my entire sophomore year I’ve felt so alone because no one talks to me. I don’t really know what I did, but I feel hated a lot.

I’d try meeting new people but I can’t do that either because I’m so socially awkward they think I’m weird, not mention I somehow relate everything back to me. I don’t have to be told or I know I do. I don’t know how to stop, everything goes awkward and silence if I don’t. But when I do they get silence like I’ve said something wrong.

I don’t know what to do.

I was supposed to have this big party for my 16th birthday but I don’t think it’s gonna be big at all.

Purely because I don’t think anyone likes me enough to show up

It sounds stupid but I needed to rant

[fanonical]

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[fanonical]

link to a black & white version of this post is here!!!

[peopleskillsruined]

Times like these i wish i could buy online.. smh..

[peopleskillsruined]

So I’m more than your Basic lesbian...

Yea I’m the basic lesbian.. almost? I guess? I don’t know. I’m dreaming of the day I move out and do all kinds of cutesy shit my girlfriend. You know?

I’ve confused myself a lot... I’ve dated either guys (yes I know I’m lesbian, I just recently realized it.. by recently I mean two years..yeaa) or Ive dated girls who are experimenting.. meaning I’m the top and the farthest we get is maybe a kiss. So I’ve never really experienced something other than a girl who just wants to sub.

so my current girlfriend...is an well experience. It’s not bad, not at all. I’ve just never had someone fight me for dominance... but also want me to call her babygirl..she’s a switch.. and I don’t know how I feel cause I’ve always know myself as a top..but now..just ah... so yea.. umm... my little rant? I’m not sure..

I’m slowly trying to achieve my physical dreams so I can achieve material dream and so forth. But...trying to get the f**king motivation is hard as f**k.

Anywho.. I have school in the morning... and a lot of shot due.. it’s 10:30 and my family is still 2 hours away from my place driving from Texas..

BuTcHaKnOW

[peopleskillsruined]

Watched the Elsa Trailer

I get we’re all ready for a lesbian princess and we want Elsa to be it because go girl! But you look at the trailer.. it’s almost as if there’s too much action to have her get romantically involved... it would be awesome if they introduced characters that could eventually lead to it... that be hella cool

[peopleskillsruined]

I’m Sitting Here...

Watching the Fosters and then all of the sudden I just get hit. I get hit with the fact that the stuff that Stef and Lena and Connor and Jude all deal with.. all of it I’ve felt with. I’m a Lesbian, and it took me forever to admit it because I hate the Lesbian stereotype. I don’t like the pink flag, It’s a lot of different stupid reasons. I’ve been dealing with my mom giving me so much hate because the fact of I liked this girl. I love her so freaking much, and I’ll never be able to give her proper date, won’t be able to truly support her till I can drive so I still have a year. I can’t go to anything pride related because my mom hates basically all of it, I can’t mange to walk around with a rainbow braclet!! on because my mom know what it means and she doesn’t like it and she’s tired of the sh*t. And I broke down, I realized I can’t get a binder till I can afford it and even then I have a huge risk. I won’t be able to go on t or her top surgery for a long time and it’s just... it’s tireing knowing I won’t be able to do anything that’ll help my mentality till I’m at least 19/20.. so yea. Sorry

[nii-neko-deactivated20160220]

[fuwaprince]

The month of May was horrible!

brace yourself, I talk about my dad who shares the same values as a trump supporter, death and abuse

Here’s the rundown

(5.20) good friend was lost to suicide. He fought the same battles, shared the same rusty spoons. As someone who already struggles with suicidal ideation it was HARD TO SWALLOW

(5.21-25) funeral planning and being triggered as shit totally not fucking okay. Contemplating hospitalization and questioning life. Bad bad bad

(5.26) mom tried to get me to talk to her (woohoo :D) but instead we were interrupted by sperm donor/dad’s abuse, homophobia and transphobia (D: boohoo guess who is homo and trans it’s me). He saw that I’m looking a lot more manly suddenly and screamed in my face and reacted… Well… Violently, inhumanely.

Can’t call the fucking cops cuz my dad is sheriff and well if you live here you know that we can’t trust them to not shoot us dead given the chance (and honestly knowing my dad he has joked about selling me to his friends and I’m sure he would be happy to joke about hinting that he’d be chill with them shooting me if I ever try to open my mouth about some shit so pls let’s not test this like last time).

Anyways he spends some time being an asshole while one of my partners sits next to me and is listening to this very triggering traumatic event unfold. Meanwhile I’m totally full fledge not ok PTSD out the ass I can’t even do anything but shake and scream at my mom for just watching it all happen and beg her for help. Bouncing from “please help me” and “you fucking bitch how dare you just turn a blind eye to this abuse AGAIN”

After more shit I finally start getting snarky just so he kicks us out instead of traps us there to get who knows what happened. He throws me the fuck out and my mom just locks herself in her room for some time knowing that I’m already suicidal and was there for comfort. I couldn’t hop in my partner’s car because my dad is fucking nuts and I don’t want to make any wrong moves. So I ran and screamed like a nut and then realized I had a half gram of weed in my pocket and should probably go away before dad sends cops and they somehow know that I a dirty medical marijuana pothead faking pain to get dRuGS, as my dad probably phrased it

So I run to Grandma’s to talk

Grandma offered to let me stay with her a few nights of the month bc honestly my dad is nuts and while I have no proof he’s going to use any excuse out there to kill my “faggot special snowflake self” he WILL kill me in front of his mom if he finds me using her home as a safe spot permanently (she’s disabled and can’t protect me, he has keys and can come in any time). Idek if I can trust GMa because her dementia is making her v forgetful and if she slips up by mentioning to dad I’m there I’m FUCKED. I love her tho

Also it feels like my partners are at risk just for being physically with me tbh… And I have nobody else irl besides professionals to help

(5.27) TODAY spent almost all of last night just on the street hiding out by some parking lot so I woke up TIRED. I’m kind of really considering bad things. It’s memorial day tho so hospitals next door are closed early. The clinics are also closed. My only choice is to get admitted through the ER and I literally have $1.54 left because I haven’t been able to properly function since 5.20 and have been using saved funds to pay for everything I had to up until now. Now next month is coming and I’m not sure….. I’m not sure idk…

Idk what I want to do. Yes I do. I just don’t know how I’ll be able to do it. My parents aren’t helping me. My insurance plan isn’t providing these services that I really don’t know if I can pass up. I need to get help. I don’t want to end up killing myself because of the mistreatment. I don’t want to fucking die by his hands either I just need to get stable and get a job and go to school and move the fuck away far the fuck away

The first baby step is getting the support I need to be okay. I’m sorry to write out all this triggering horrible stuff. Ik it wasn’t calmly put or nice to read… Maybe even painful

If you took the time to say anything nice or make sure I was okay I really appreciate it. I promise you if it wasn’t for the kindness I got online I would not be strong enough to push myself to get help. I’m scared of what it will cost. Idk what debt it like. Nobody else is going to help me feel safe tho so I have to go there’s no other choice

If you’re comfortable and able, I could really really really really REALLY use some $ support for when I’m out since I won’t be prepared to pay off ANYTHING… I’m sorry to ask and I hope this doesn’t warrant a bunch of hatefulness. Please help me climb out of this ditch, I need a hand

I hope that you all are safe. FUCK COPS BE GAY BE TRANS AND CUT YOUR HAIR

PS pls don’t add anything rude or triggering on this post rn isn’t a good time 👍 oh oh and if anyone could pls vouch saying that I Am Not A Bot that would be awesome help in case anyone isn’t sure idk man I’ve handled a lot of wack stuff lately so it’s worth mentioning

[fuwaprince]

Uhhh trans rights cat doodle in case this post wasn’t long enough ! Feel free to ask me for a doodle if you donated

[thererom-deactivated20191126]

Maaaan, if u cant donate at least reblpg, don’t just like

[fuwaprince]

please ignore my dead name! π ~ π signal boost this version of the post!! It has a helpful link!!!

PayPal

[the-moon-loves-the-sea]

Pride is our family history. Pride is taking on the weight of all that courage, realizing we are what they hoped for,

Pride is a group of girls in 1922 dancing in the basement of a Parisian gay bar,

Pride is Gavin Grimm standing in court day after day for the sake of all the trans kids who just want to use the bathroom at school,

Pride is Marsha P. Johnson walking down the street with flowers in her hair, wearing a dress that’s going to get her arrested,

Pride is all the lesbians in the pews at every gay kid’s funeral in 1982, 1983, 1984, 1985,

Pride is Harvey Milk repeating You gotta give em hope. Smiling at the cameras, waiting for that bullet to find its mark,

Pride is Magnus Hirschfield and the WhK showing up to lobby for gay rights day after day in 1898, getting the police to hand out gender passes to the trans kids in the streets, collecting 100,000 queer people’s stories for posterity, We were here,

Pride is a Victorian priest marrying two men in the sight of God and several dozen noisy friends. Pride is a dried bouquet kept on display in two men’s front parlor,

Pride is Edward Carpenter holding George’s hand while they walk around the garden and the village police refusing to give a damn about it because George and Edward are ours, they take care of us and we take care of them,

Pride is a hundred generations of indigenous queer tradition held onto in defiance while the colonials make straightness the way of the Lord,

Pride is Lili Elbe waiting in the hospital with her wife for a surgery brand-new to history,

Pride is a butch girl putting her arm around her girlfriend’s shoulders outside a drag show while the police kick and push people into the back of a van one by one,

Pride is identity, Pride is family history, Pride is holding onto other people’s memories, Pride is us.

[sleeplessangels-deactivated2025]

Pride is Dante writing gay fanfiction of him and his friend wandering through hell,,

[inferrance-deactivated20200120]

Candle Color Correspondences

RED - Energy, health, passion, sex, protection, fire, fertility, fast action, strength, potency, lust, blood. Element: Fire

PINK - Love, friendship, romance, honor, spiritual healing, caring, affection, forming partnerships, peace, emotional healing.

YELLOW - Action, inspiration and creativity, studying and intelligence, concentration, memory, logic, learning, attraction, confidence. Element: Sun/Fire

ORANGE - Happiness, business deals, attracting good things, success, career, goals, stimulation, attraction, power, luck, sudden changes.

GREEN - Plant magic, mother earth, earth worship, money, success, growth, wealth, physical healing, health, marriage, fertility, employment, balance. Element: Earth

BLUE - Peace, calm, loosing weight, wisdom, understanding, protection, harmony, inspiration, truth, patience, health and happiness, luck, communication, loyalty, occult power. Element: Water

DARK BLUE - Represents the subconscious, healing, psychism, slow change. Element: Water

PURPLE - Ancient wisdom, the third eye, psychic powers, meditation, spirituality, success, confidence, hidden knowledge, protection, divination, contact with spirit world, Element: Soul or the Spirit

BROWN - Home, friendships, balance, animal magic, earth magic, concentration and studying, wealth, success, intuition, psychic powers and ESP. Element: Earth

BLACK - Protection, hex-breaking, reversing, banishing, destroying evil or negativity, binding, and repelling. Also used for healing very powerful illnesses.

WHITE - Dawn, purification, peace, truth, protection, spirituality. White can be used in place of any other candle color and is suitable for any ritual. Element: All

MAGENTA - Quick change. Use this candle with other candles to initiate a quick response or fast changes.

INDIGO - Karma, balance, restoration of balance, meditation, stop another person’s spell against you.

GOLD - Sun-Worship, the God, success, wealth, money, masculinity, playfulness, luck, divination, victory.

(By AmberSkyfire)

[peopleskillsruined]

Witch Tips??

I’m new to the craft, as in i want to do it but no cause where to start. I’m Broke, and unable to ask for guidance, or to join a coven due to the fact I live in a very small town, that is especially close minded.

Any Tips on where to get stuff and where to start, and just how to connect to others???

[saintacephale]

reblog if your blog is safe for trans witches, non binary witches, bisexual witches, gay witches, pansexual witches, closet witches, mental ill witches and all type of witches 🔮🌿

[witch-vomit-deactivated20190906]

Also idk if y'all are dweebs about local legends and obscure historical facts and monuments and cool things in your city that are like…..unconventional I guess

But there’s this website called AtlasObscura.com where you can literally put in ur zip code or ur city or ur state and it’ll literally show you a map and list of a bunch big super cool interesting sometimes spooky things in ur area!!!

Like if you’re into crypts and catacombs and history and legends and unusual attractions….this is ur best bet

Especially if you’re visiting a city (like Boston cough) where you want to not solely do the popular overpriced and over packed typical tourist shit this summer!!!

[etsycult]

Witch’s Altar Set by HearthandCrow

[artisticlog-deactivated20231213]

Succulent crystal necklaces 💗🌿🔮

[peopleskillsruined]

Where do you or how do you make these?!? oml,

I’d never taken em off!!

[cecilia-the-mermaid-blog]

[shywitchiness]

✨🔮 witchy playlists 🔮✨

//playlists for each of the witches, playlists that, for me, hold their essence\ 

green witch 🌿🦌✨

urban witch 🏙🕯

tech witch 👾🕹

love witch 💖🥀🌸

moon witch 🌙🔮

sun witch ☀️🌻

cosmic witch 🛸💫🚀

sea witch 🐚🌊🧜‍♀️

[wxtches-energies]

For beginner witches ✨

Learn the phases of the moon and what each phase contributes for you. Also, search up “tonight’s moon phase” and it’ll tell you what moon is there that night and tell you when to expect other phases!

PHASE CORRESPONDENCES •full moon: love magick, charging, healing, banishing, cleansing, clarity •Waxing gibbous: motivation, attraction, success, good health •Dark/new moon: deconstructive magick, curses, banishing, soul searching, divination •waning crescent: balance, success, attaining wisdom, atonement, illness •last quarter: breaking bad habits, relinquishing, breaking curses, banishing •waning gibbous: relinquishing, undoing bindings, cleansing, undoing curses •Waxing crescent: constructive magick, attraction, wealth/success, luck & friendship

Use this for magick and making moon water. To make moon water you simply put some water under the moon, it’s okay if it’s cloudy, and you only need to put it out for an hour or more. Store it in a dark space.

Sun water: for ego, dignity, power, pride, self confidence and leader ship Just leave water under the sun and store in a light/open area.

SIGILS : https://wxtches-energies.tumblr.com/post/161188398036/the-sigil-wheel-is-a-really-good-method-decide

Candles! : buy them from the dollar store , it’s much cheaper there. I have a few witchy shops in my city as well and candles can be 60 cents each! Here’s a post for candle colour correspondences:

https://wxtches-energies.tumblr.com/post/162447536196/candle-color-correspondences

What type of witch are you? : Here’s a master post and it’s HUGE on types of witches with a detailed description:

https://wxtches-energies.tumblr.com/post/162495405231/lavenderwhisps-witch-types-master-post-jan-2016

No material spells: Here’s a few one word spells to get you started! :

https://wxtches-energies.tumblr.com/post/162295744726/one-word-spells

Secret witches master post:

https://wxtches-energies.tumblr.com/post/162517634026/master-post-for-secret-witches

Importance of salt in witchcraft:

https://wxtches-energies.tumblr.com/post/162295813361/the-importance-of-salt-in-witchcraft

How to cast a circle (many methods) :

https://wxtches-energies.tumblr.com/post/162283941001/a-pagan-path-now-that-ive-begun-working-more