Cat Scratch Fever

Jaspers | 17 | he/him (203): I think I'm at a stage of my life where I subconsciously purposefully fuck everything up just to see if I can find a way out of it. ((ic blog for Jaspers Lalonde))

[perpetualpique]

[perpetualpique]

I just can't see it happening. You're... a decent kid. Thanks for... worrying I guess.

[perpetualpique]

[perpetualpique]

It was a rhetorical question. I’m well aware I couldn’t reach you. What would you suggest I do then huh? Cry?? No.

[carefulcamisades]

Oh Uh Well I mean You could uh I don’t know, find an enjoyable activity that’s less… harmful? You could play video games?

[perpetualpique]

I could do that. I don't know if I want to. Look. I'm really glad you have it good but I won't ever have it beyond decent. So the whole "try to do better" thing doesn't work woth me.

[perpetualpique]

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It was a rhetorical question. I'm well aware I couldn't reach you. What would you suggest I do then huh? Cry?? No.

[perpetualpique]

[perpetualpique]

They’re not my friends. Haven’t been for years. Kid. You have no idea what I did. You wouldn’t be so polite to me if you did know. So shove it. I can’t apologize. I can’t explain. There’s no going back and apologizing. Ugh I’m going to drink. I’m not dealing with this.

[carefulcamisades]

Oh. Sorry. I didn’t mean to upset you.

Well… you could always… make new friends? If you really believe you can’t restart things with your old… um. Acquaintances.

Uh. I don’t think that’s a very healthy way to um… deal with problems.

[perpetualpique]

Holy shit kid I'm not upset with you. Quit being such a baby. Would you rather I kick your ass then? Because either I drink or I fight.

[perpetualpique]

[perpetualpique]

They're not my friends. Haven't been for years. Kid. You have no idea what I did. You wouldn't be so polite to me if you did know. So shove it. I can't apologize. I can't explain. There's no going back and apologizing. Ugh I'm going to drink. I'm not dealing with this.

[perpetualpique]

Didn't know I could still cry. That's a thing.

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I don’t know. Most people would judge right off the bat. Okay. Look. I’ve put a lot of effort into it. Tried once. Couldn’t do it. So don’t tell ME to “put more effort” into it if you have no fucking clue what I’ve done. Hard to keep friends when you impulsively tell them you hate them and slam the door in their face. Look unless you want to be depressed for the rest of the night I suggest you don’t press on with this. If you’re really that curious go ahead.

[carefulcamisades]

Um well. Why do you tell your friends that you hate them and slam the door in their faces…?

[perpetualpique]

The key word there was "impulsive" bucko. I didn't want to. I wasn't right when I did it. It was like a movie, you know? Watched myself rip all my friends apart and shove them away.

[perpetualpique]

[perpetualpique]

I don't know. Most people would judge right off the bat. Okay. Look. I've put a lot of effort into it. Tried once. Couldn't do it. So don't tell ME to "put more effort" into it if you have no fucking clue what I've done. Hard to keep friends when you impulsively tell them you hate them and slam the door in their face. Look unless you want to be depressed for the rest of the night I suggest you don't press on with this. If you're really that curious go ahead.

[perpetualpique]

Friends. Huh. Didn’t think anyone with the names Jaspers and Frigglish could actually make friends. Congrats for telling the universe to suck your dick I guess.

[carefulcamisades]

Do you not have any friends?

[perpetualpique]

Do I sound like type to have friends? No. I don't. Not out of choice but what can I do? My only "friends" are my stress relievers.

[perpetualpique]

Friends. Huh. Didn’t think anyone with the names Jaspers and Frigglish could actually make friends. Congrats for telling the universe to suck your dick I guess.

[perpetualpique]

carefulcamisades Becquerel?? Ohh that kid. The Becquerel I know (knew) was a Harley like you I guess. Haven't talked to his pathetic ass in a few years. Loser still tries to talk to me on Pesterchum. Don't get it really. "Jaspers why push your friends away?" Because I hate them? I don't know what they want from me. What about you? Are you "buddies" with your Bec?

[carefulcamisades]

Hey. We have the same name. What's the deal nerd?

Um.

I don’t know. There is a limited amount of names in the world, I suppose it’s only natural to have at least a couple people with the same name!

You’re Jaspers Frigglish Harley too?

[perpetualpique]

Not a Harley. I'm a Lalonde but seems we have the same first and middle name. Doesn't change the fact you're the nerd here. Seems you're a fucked product of the multiverse.

[pinmedownandtakemybreathaway]

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[g0thtrash-deactivated20141114]

id take bets on it being hal

[perpetualpique]

You can’t even insult the Cathoclique. You could tell one of them to shove a statue of Jesus up their ass and at least one of them would do it.

[iguanamouth]

my roommate and i are temporarily taking care of a Very Small Tiny Kitten that her aunt found in a boarded up shed and shes GONE and its just me in the house with the kitten and its Too Small i cant handle this

[iguanamouth]

too small