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I… hate when I’m in the mood to *siren sounds*

Virga, the phenomenon of rain not reaching the ground. Virga is produced when rain is falling from the base of the cloud but evaporates in dry air before reaching the ground surface.

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FINAL DESTINATION (2000) dir. James Wong

#final destination #fave

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So… what’s it mean when you post the above image to your IG story and your crush likes it right before it disappears?

Asking for me because… my crush is him and my dumb oblivious ass can’t imagine the feeling being mutual.

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It doesn’t mean anything. Thanks for coming to my TED talk.

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But it is DIFFERENT.

#this will eventually pass #I promise

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#RM #RM Nuts #rpwp #music #fave #Spotify

I keep getting told to tell this man I like him and to ask him to hang out.

I would rather swallow glass.

#doesn’t matter anyway #I’ve put myself in the friend zone #that’s all I’m good for anyway

Ever say something you think is emotionally profound for you and person you say it to has no reaction whatsoever?

#again I am here saying the only person who has me is me

I want to be one of the soft girls in her lover girl era. Receptive and reciprocal.

But I’m a sad girl. In her I don’t know if I’ll ever be healed enough to ever let anyone close to me.

I’m an obsessive girl who can even beat the very thing she wants into the ground until it’s bloody and unrecognizable.

And suddenly I’m 17 again.

And 24.

But I’m 35 now and still trying for whatever fuck all reason, to just make sense of it all.

#Am I worthy?#me #random #thoughts #my writing

It’s really endearing and sweet when people want to cheer you up about shitty situations but they say the most broad and stereotypical shit.

“You just haven’t met the right person.”

“You just haven’t met the right type of person.”

“You’re gonna break the cycle.”

“It’ll happen when you least expect it.”

I get what you’re trying to do and I’m grateful but like maybe… Just maybe, I’m supposed to just endure the longing. Maybe I’m supposed to make it without that kind of connection to anyone. Because for more than half my life it’s all I’ve wanted and it hasn’t happened. Despite my efforts.

Maybe I’m tired of fucking waiting and stupid ass trial and error.

Maybe I’m just a fucking horrible unworthy undeserving person.

Maybe I’m too fucking desperate.

Maybe I’m too fucking damaged. Too fucking sad. Too fucking fat. Maybe I’m as fucking ugly as I feel all the fucking time.

I don’t have any answers but I feel empty and dead inside.

#who gives a fuck #who gives a shit #I’m just gonna wake up tomorrow and go to work #that’s all I’ve got going for me #and I don’t even like that #whatever nobody is gonna read this shit anyway