I will never be perfect.

Seventh Year || Gryffindor Head Boy "The real act of marriage takes place in the heart, not in the ballroom or church or synagogue. It's a choice you make - not just on your wedding day, but over and over again - and that choice is reflected in the way you treat your husband or wife." — Barbara de Angelis

[flyaway-lily-blog]

Now that is new information. Well, if that makes you happy, that’s fine. Gets me to get more work done anyway. You just be the Philip that was there back in September.

[philipthelionboy]

I don't want to be that Philip again, and I don't want you to be the same Lily you were back in September either. That's the problem, we're holding onto past versions of ourselves and trying to love those. But we've changed, and that's okay. We'll keep changing, and growing. We just have to learn how to do it together.

[flyaway-lily-blog]

I will. Of course I will. Us two lions aren’t done yet Phil, don’t you worry about me. Head Girl duties will pass the time.

[philipthelionboy]

I'm stepping down as Head Boy for now, I only took it to be closer to you. 

[flyaway-lily-blog]

Go have fun. Love, dream, have flings, play quidditch, travel, kiss boys, kiss girls, laugh, joke, smile. Jump off cliffs, go bunjee jumping, blow all your money out in Diagon Alley. I don’t care! As long as it makes you happy, and so help me god..makes you come back t me.

[philipthelionboy]

I want you to do the same, Lily. Do anything that makes you happy, find yourself again. 

[flyaway-lily-blog]

No. I agree. I need to sort myself out, because me being a burden is not fair on you. You deserve happiness and fun….and when the time comes, and you’re ready, not me—You. I’ll be here. You know that…And if things happen and you don’t want to come back…I’ll still be here as your best-friend, cause that’s what I always was.

[philipthelionboy]

Lily, there is not a force on this earth that could stop me from coming back to you. And you were never a burden, don't ever think that. You are the great love of my life, but I lost myself. I need to find myself before I can ever be the man you need, the man you deserve. 

[flyaway-lily-blog]

You did everything you could to stop it. I didn’t stop it because I was foolish, stupid, a little girl. 

I need to know what you want to do.

[philipthelionboy]

I love you more than anything, and that's why I'm surrendering. We need to take time, be apart. Because if we continue on this way we'll break, and nothing will ever be able to put us back together again.

[flyaway-lily-blog]

How’s it your fault Phil? You have done nothing but help me.

[philipthelionboy]

I knew we were drifting, but I did nothing to stop it.

[flyaway-lily-blog]

No I don’t. I don’t make you happy.

I changed this relationship into something you bear Phil, not something you enjoy. And I’m so so sorry for making you feel lke this.

[philipthelionboy]

This isn't your fault Lily, it's both of us.

[flyaway-lily-blog]

I just want to make you happy.

[philipthelionboy]

You do make me happy, Lily. I love you so much...I just feel like somewhere long the way...we fell off track.

[flyaway-lily-blog]

Yeah me too.

[philipthelionboy]

I know you know about the letters. What you don't know is that I never talked to her because I wanted to be with her. I was just trying to do right by our daughter. But...I kept it secret. That was wrong...lately it feels like a lot of what we do is wrong...like we're...wrong.

[flyaway-lily-blog]

Lily finally finished putting the last pin in her hair. “Perfect.”

[philipthelionboy]

I think we need to talk.

[devilwears-pradax-blog]

To leave me alone and stop writing to me and to stop thinkng your Belles father when you’re not. If you can find her and be a proper dad to her, be my guest. But you’re not having me with the package.

[philipthelionboy]

Fine, I won't bother you again. Enjoy your lonely life, Pippa.

[devilwears-pradax-blog]

I want you to unfind her Philip! FOR GODS SAKE, I’M HER MOTHER. I GET A SAY IN IT!

No. Honestly, I don’t know why you pretend to love her. 

[philipthelionboy]

You gave up your right to have a say when you gave her up.

What will it take to get you to leave her alone?

[devilwears-pradax-blog]

I wanted to show you what you’ve been missing and I wanted to tell you in person to stop searching.

Oh..and maybe fuck off your wife a bit

[philipthelionboy]

Do you not get that I already found her?

Stay away from Lily.

[devilwears-pradax-blog]

The one you have been hiding things from for weeks? Oh wait..Forgot to say, her hand writing is truly beautiful isn’t it?

[philipthelionboy]

I should have known she'd find out. What do you want, Pippa?

[devilwears-pradax-blog]

You weren’t saying that to me before. How you wanted to be with me, you loved me.

[philipthelionboy]

Things I only say to one woman now.

[devilwears-pradax-blog]

So you just wrote to me because of our daughter? You fucking sly bastard.

[philipthelionboy]

We're over, Pippa. Have been for a long time.

[devilwears-pradax-blog]

Your letters didn’t say so. 

[philipthelionboy]

My letters spoke of out daughter. Never once did I ask you to come back.