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Perfection is a disease of a nation I might be a muse; I’m definitely magic TikTok/IG/Threads: @oliveblueee__

[javarisx-fightingthosedemons]

[phuckyouropinions]

Purged

I caved with you

Allowed my past trauma to hide the flags

My intuition became foreign

Trust was a fantasy

Your words were the veil

Convinced myself that I would only see green

But

I caved with you

Allowed my past demons to dictate my moves

My body detected the hints

Lust was the drug

Your tongue was the needle

Convinced myself that I would only seek cum

But

I caved with you

Allowed my past desires to create a future

My body detected the lies

Truth was the requirement

Your habit was the antidote

Convinced myself that I would die if I stayed

But

You tried to convince me I’d be nothing if I left

You tried to snuff out the very God in me

my

Light will always attract the darkness in you because you only know how to consume

Destroy

Take advantage, break souls to make them malleable for your manipulation. How do you sleep? You lack self love so you tried to take mine you must have me twisted

I built this, breath by breath, tear after tear, moonlight rituals, candle light baths, love so deep it’s rooted from inside me you thought you could possess this

never.

I let you taste because I was chasing something that needed to be drained out of me

But since I caved with you I can leave you there

Dry, with no light, just the memories of me and enough rope to help yourself

live or die.

Old notes that never saw the light of day

[phuckyouropinions]

Wanting to spill every one of my feelings in an Olivia Pope fashion and staying completely silent is incredibly exhausting

[moshimoshibe]

seiko

[thoughtkick]

“i think it’s attractive when someone texts you after hanging out just to say they had fun with you”

— Unknown

[phuckyouropinions]

Welp, account on threads was disabled because they said I wasn’t a real person. Deleted twitter because it’s a dumpster fire - it seems as though it’s time to return to the original canvas for my thoughts

[scorpionlafemme]

[javarisx-fightingthosedemons]

[perfectquote]

“Go on with what your heart tells you, or you will lose all.”

— Rick Riordan, The Lightning Thief

[phuckyouropinions]

See my problem is my heart holds hope…

Is the potential I see a projection or is it real? Will it manifest something fruitful or toxic? Am I better off leaving it alone? And if I do leave it alone…is it a mistake? Should I at least try?

Thoughts of a lover girl during retrograde.

[perfectquote]

“Having a soulmate is not always about love. You can find your soulmate in a friendship too.”

— Unknown

[fatimazainab]

Margaret Atwood, The Blind Assassin

[phuckyouropinions]

Definitely the absence…one was not meant to be existentially numb

[perfectfeelings]

“They say a person needs just three things to be truly happy in this world: Someone to love, something to do, and something to hope for.”

— Tom Bodett

[halflifesk666]

Is your soul okay?

[belmasworld]

no, next question

[ariesfeed-deactivated20201122]

[perfectfeelings]

“Repeat this until you understand it: I do not need people who do not need me.”

— Unknown

[phuckyouropinions]

Here me out

No it doesn’t. Not always;

Princess treatment was foreign to me outside of a relationship until it wasn’t. After a few years of seeing people do the most without actual love as the intention this statement doesn’t hit the same. Some people are performative and that feeds their ego. Some people allow their actions to dictate their entitlement. Some people don’t mind spending the effort on you because they have nothing else to do. All of these things make my heart weary because I want to believe in the effort more than I do the words. I also want to believe the words. I’m kind of rambling now but I don’t think people realize how much damage they’re doing by moving without sincerely harmless and selfless intention. In my opinion anyway.

[javarisx-fightingthosedemons]