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Daily thoughts & some of my loves Jen:) ♥Super Junior ♥Makeup ♥Music ♥Singing ♥✞ ♥믿음. 희망. 사랑. 용기.

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Being a PK.

Finally, I’m openly talking about this. Recently, quite a few of my conversations were about PKs. Those who are one just like me will know what PK means. On Facebook, people post about PK. At retreat even the guest pastor is a PK. Also at dinner, people discuss about PK.

Honestly, sometimes, I feel that there is nothing to feel happy about being a PK. Not that I'm not happy or proud to be one. However, there's more stress, more unwanted attention, and you can't go MIA from anyone's radar no matter how hard you try. Just like being celebrity (just using it as a comparison), everything that you do, people seem to amplify your actions, purpose or intentions(or they think they know the purpose or intentions), they things that you say, and ESPECIALLY your mistakes, many folds. When you make a mistake, people view it as though you have committed a crime, and when you did some thing well, no one bothers to even bat an eyelash. There's always higher expectations and people judge you faster than you know.

Being a PK, people know about you (and they act and judge you like they know you), but you don't and won't know half of the people that do. People hear about you, be it good or bad, and they judge you before they've even gotten a chance to breathe a word to you. And what sucks the most? People think you are supposed to be the most holy person around, and when you don't live up to their expectations, they judge you harder. You might think that, oh this Phuisee ah PK still talk like that on facebook. Sure or not. Why PK like that one. But hey, let me tell you something, I'm still human, just like you! That's why sometimes, I don't like to BROADCAST to the whole world that I'm a PK or my bro's a PK. When people introduce me to someone else as a PK instead of Phuisee, I really don't like the feeling. I would entertain, and then slowly find my way out of the conversation. I want to be who I am, and not under the shadow of a PK, my own identity.

I'm not saying being a PK is bad, but it's not all that good and glorious either. We are Christians, but we are human. We are PKs, and we are still human. So what is the difference being a normal average Christian, and a PK? Absolutely nothing. Ugly truth la hah. P or PK or PW or not, everyone is the same. We make mistakes, we create office politics(yes, even in church), we have a hard time forgiving people, we sin. But you and I, we are still saved by the blood of Jesus. And to me, that's all that matters.

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Breakfast before a busy day! It's raining out today! Stay warm and cozy and dry! #firstdayofwork #goodlifeisgood #ihavethebestbossonearth

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With my group mates, Mr. Thomas(my instructor) and George, our dummy who has been super cooperative during our practical test. Though it's just a short time that we got to know each other, but we overcame nervousness together, supported each other, and encouraged each other throughout BCLS. See you gals in 2 years! Yay! I can now do CPR and give aid to people who are choking! Infants included~ #butdontcomeandlookformeplease

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Was looking through my gallery and i found this picture of TOP. Had a funny incident with a little girl and this picture. I was eating dinner at G2 before we set off for caroling during Christmas week. Then this little girl was sitting next to me and listening to us talk and she suddenly saw my wallpaper. She then said to me cheekily, "Hey! Is that your boyfriend in your phone?" Oh boy. In my heart I was like wah do I deserve such a perfect creature as my boyf. I wish he is. Lol! So I said to her, "Yes. He's handsome right?" And she said yes. And our whole table burst out in laughter. Good times good times. Made my day that day. Now thinking about it, I still feel amused by that incident. But it makes me happy. Pretty girls deserve handsome boyfriends right? Hahah. JUST KIDDING~ 👸 #TOPiwishyouaremyboyfriend

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Precious bunch of people♡ We are the 内幕 people! 3 more weeks to #rekindle15

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More or less sums up my Saturday. Great day, great company, great music, and the great Big Bang♡

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BANG BANG BANG! Here we comeeeee! TOP wait for ussssss! #bigbangMADEtour

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Hot from my stove! Can't seem to get back to sleep, so I got up and made some of these. #fruitypebblestreats #onlyforthesweettooth

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Brunch with the famz! ♡

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Loving my new cup that I got from spending too much at Etude House yesterday! #oppsmydinnerbeawesome #pinktumblr

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https://soundcloud.com/phuisee/flashlight-jessie-jpitch-perfect-2-barden-bellas-cover

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They say etude house is too cheap to be good. But that's just because you haven't found the gems at the store. As someone who once worked at etude house, I dare say some of our products, especially makeup, is better than other korean brand makeup in SG. #continuedfrommypreviousphoto #ibuytoomanythingsatetudehouse #nowthatimaroyalpinkmember #lol #永远买不完 #짱이다

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This is a result of spending too much money at Sephora. Lol! It's like the VIB member in the U.S. Now from a white card member, I've become a black card member. #spendingtoomuchatsephora #makeupcrazt #speakingofmakeup #iboughtawholelotmorestufftodayfrom #etudehouse #永远买不完

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Jay Chou. Can you be kinder towards meeeee. :'( Have mercy. #problemswithsingingballadsallthetime #icantrapfornuts #thisisforthegodsconcert :P

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YESUNG IS BACKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!! #imissedyousomuch #itsanemergency #yesungmylove #kimjongwoonkimjongwoonkimjongwoon

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Heenimmmm. Where are you?? You say you will come to my room tonight???!!! I am waiting. ♡ #postconcertblues