Named after a saint and the grandmother she never met. She cries over empty boxes of pizza, cancelled plans, and depressing YA fiction; obsesses over heartbreakers, Photoshop, and wishful thinking; has a thing or two for independence (films, music, personal), and art.
just stopping by to say that this is the last time u’re gonna see me here. no plans on coming back to tumblr anymore but i will still be keeping my posts alive ! this is so random, barging in like this in your dashboards with this needless goodbye note (??) but i will do miss some of yall ;-)
ps i wont be leaving blogging full-blown
i’ll be building a new home someplace else after this semester probs. but if u’re following me on twit/ig, noice!!
Hmmm okay pero sa lips ano gamit mo? Huhu malabo kase mata ko minsan di ko makita kung pantay ba or what kaya pulbo na lang tapos lipstick T.T I'm working na kase pero di ako marunong magmake up lahat sila nakamake up sa office tapos ako mukhang patatas. Thank You pia hihi
the one i’ve been using the most is a matte liquid lippie from ever bilena in the shade toast of new york :-) altho before i put it on, i swipe some lip balm first (any would do!) to make it last. awh that’s okayyy theres no age requirement to makeup application as long as u’re v willing to learn! grab a magazine or get on yt and u’ll see what i mean hehe♡
I've been meaning to post this and update you with all the stuff that's been going on in my life since the year started. I'm well aware that I've stopped posting my actual blog entries since that one I'd written about my 2018 goals (which aren't really coming through altogether but I'll get there!), and I'm sorry for that! The drive to be able to tell stories the way that I do seeped out of me and I'm sorry for it. But here I am now (finally posting before my laptop fails me again), and I'm all-out with my share of all the things I liked + loved these past two months.
Note: Kind of a long post ahead. So grab a bowl of mojos or something c:
beauty
Angle/Spoolie brush. I’ve been itching to get myself one when my makeup guru friend/classmate told me that this is purely the only magic wand she uses in doing her brows. I never really came around with it whenever I shopped but thankfully, I was just right around the makeup corner in the department store when I remembered this pending one on my invisible shopping list! I just don’t know what brand mine is but I got it from LA Girl. The angle brush is nice and soft and the spoolie’s bristles go against my brows perfectly. It’s the only thing I need + brow kit!
Maybelline strobing stick. Getting this was a spontaneous decision but so far, I’ve no regrets. Although, I’ve always wanted a highlighter ever since I got a grip around makeup application. I initially had shimmering powder in compact cases in mind. And I didn’t know highlighting sticks existed! But it was what I found right there, in the Maybelline stall and the lady’s sales talk did the work. This strobing stick gives my face moonbeam traces.
book/s
Walang Love by Rod Marmol. My best friend lent me this out on a whim so I didn’t really have the chance to do a background check other than skim through the back cover’s synopsis. It was intriguing. So the perusing starts... and I got hooked! I couldn’t put it down up until a few more chapters that led me to the middle. It was a book filled with hugot stories and even though I’m not entirely one to be thrown into keen zealots of the hugot culture, I thought this one’s written beautifully.
clothing
Black long sleeved shirt with white stripes + loose pink blouse with white stripes. Both were gifts from my tita from the states. Thank God they fit or else I would be leaving them unworn and cluttered peacefully in my closet waiting for someone else’s body to fit them well. I like striped shirts and both of these feel very comfortable against my skin.
Olive green button-up. I use this as standalone tops for when I need to go out of the house/on special occasions. Once this year, I tried to pair this with one of my ordinary shirts and it just looked really nice to me. It sort of resembles a vintage parka that I’ve always wanted. So yeah, I guess we could come to terms with me calling this a faux parka haha
app/s
Rad VHS. Most of the people close to me know that I’m an old soul. So old that I would usually prefer post-processing my photos looking like they were taken in the nineties than they were taken in the present. I love light leaks, grain and the little static noises in VHS films. I treasure anything that looks like they time travelled their way to modernism. That’s why I got so *~psyched~* when I discovered this app! It’s like Gudak but with filming capacities. By far, it’s the best faux VHS app I’ve ever tried and that’s mainly because I like how natural and nostalgic my videos look!
food
Go Thai. This place is slowly becoming a family favorite! I got introduced to pad thai for the first time and it’s been one of my favorite dishes ever since. Their shrimp rice is also delicious. And their chicken, man! UGH.
Taza Mia. Alright, I gotta admit. I spend my time here more than I’ve ever spent my moolah + day in Starbucks. I’m not a Taza Mia girl nor am I an SB frequent. I’m just a plain Jane glued to her phone in cafes Taza Mia (mostly). It’s all over my hometown! Super accessible. We have a branch in school, the closest mall and by the highway. I’m not really promoting the cafe here, but one of their signature snacks snatched my mouth and love for cheese fries + jalapenos. Their MWCO (based from my research, it’s an abbreviation for My Wife’s Cheesy Overload. *wuw*) is the absolute the. bomb. dot. com. Basically, it’s a wild party on a plate. You got a burger patty with cheese, some bread slices and of course, a rainstorm of cheese fries with jalapenos to top everything off. I dream of finishing a plate on my own someday but it’s definitely best to share with your (hindi patay-gutom) gang!
S&R. It’s been a great while since we’ve stuffed our mouths with S&R’s New York style pizza! Unpopular opinion: I like their pizza far better than the more famous pizza chains in town. Specifically we had cheese + pepperoni to feast on and it was deeeelightful! I love all pizzas in general, though. Any kind of pizza would do. Pizza could never do me wrong. Pizza never disappoints.
Homemade honey garlic chicken. So I cooked this with a little help from my nana in our little kitchen and I’m so proud of how it turned out. I thank Pinterest for having a ton of wonderful homey recipes and I’m glad I found the perfect one to follow. My chicken wasn’t a little too much of its flavors. It was balanced, just right. Enough sweetness, acidity and savory imbued into it. I also added a dollop of ranch on the side which complements it nicely! My family loved it and I can’t wait to make more of them.
Conti's. I had a slice. And then, boom. I found my birthday cake. That simple. I fell in love with this cake. I’m not even into cakes. I’m a pie lady. But this cake. AAAAAA. Goddamn this cake.
Yogi. These Korean mozzarella hotdogs are amazing. I love mozzarella cheese above all the other cheeses so when my sister handed me the bag, I peered inside and got intrigued the moment I took one out. It’s fried, looking like a crispy and longer version of a corn dog. And it’s drizzled with mayo + ketchup. When I took a bite and swallowed my first piece, that’s when I knew. I wanted to gobble the whole thing up. SO. GOOD.
tv series
The Good Doctor. I’m a fan of medical dramas. And I’m definitely counting on the fact that I’m going to be a fan of this one ever since I laid eyes on the first episode! The adaptation is beautiful, the characters are great, and I’m 100% sure that I’ll be needing a bucket for my tears and tissue boxes for my snots until the first season ends.
music
In this portion of the entry, I commonly really go for specific songs that I’ve listened to instead of the whole album. (It speaks about me as a person in a bird’s eye view!)
All at Once by John the Ghost. Melancholic and homesick. Those are the two things I felt despite the swarm of people I’m trapped with in our classroom. This was tears-stained-cheeks good.
Finesse by Bruno Mars + Cardi B. DEFINITELY A BOP! I’m also a fan of the music video. It looks like something the mini versions of my brothers and sister from a decade ago would catch on MTV.
Lemon Boy by Cavetown. Nonstop in my head with the lyrics ready to escape my mouth any time now. I love Cavetown and all his other works of art so much it wipes all the bitterness in my heart away :(
From the Dining Table by Harry Styles. I’ve never seen Harry in this lighting. He’s a beautiful boy built with a voice box that only knows how to release golden melodies. This is one of the best songs I’ve listened to this year. Claiming it!
hold on by flor. This song sounds like the kind of song that plays in the background the moment you enter a pub and you’re on your way to the dance floor. You’re looking around and you lock eyes with the brightest hues of hazel in the room. Well I don’t know about you but that’s what I felt.
Strawberries and Cigarettes by Troye Sivan. Like I’ve said before on a tweet, I think my heart was built for this song. I always feel so soft and fragile whenever I remember this. It’s so good. Too good to exist.
All the Lonely Nights in Your Life (a cover by Cavetown + Chloe). I have no words for this masterpiece. I suggest you get your ass over to Youtube right now and type the title in. This is the most beautiful cover you’ll ever hear and I hate to say this, but I find it absolutely more fascinating than the original vocals. It’s just perfect. I could die right now saying it.
film/s
Ferris Bueller's Day Off (dir. John Hughes). I consider the eighties and the nineties as the two golden eras for films. This one belonged to the former and it definitely ran across the lawn to sit next to one of my all-time faves The Breakfast Club! This was a feel-good type of film. No heavy conflicts whatsoever. But I liked how lightweight it was. I wish I had Ferris Bueller’s luck in life in general.
Call Me By Your Name (dir. Luca Guadagdnino). I cannot begin how beautiful this artwork of a film was. I cried and I feel so much for my boys Elio and Oliver. I love their love story. They proved that falling in love with a stranger so unanticipatedly in a country as lovely as Italia is, indeed, a work of art. Among all the other aspects in the film, I also have a profound love for Elio’s parents. I wish more people were as kind and wise and loving as they were. They stood out for me, too. Just perfect. Going back to the two main lads, I STILL THINK TIMMY DESERVED THE OSCAR and I THINK ARMIE IS THE SWEETEST CO-STAR EVER (have you seen that gif with him telling Timothee to go, shine, shine, shine!)
Lady Bird (dir. Greta Gerwig). Saoirse Ronan’s one of the greatest young actresses Hollywood has ever known. I, personally, was a witness to her extraordinary performance in this movie and I also think that Oscar looked better if it were in her shelf (hehe). The storyline’s a variation of coming-of-age. If it was turned into a book, I’d be the first to cop it. I see a lot of myself in Lady Bird. I want to escape my little motherland, too. The place I’ve known since birth and the place that homed me and the people I’ve loved longer than my existence. I want to grow outside its fences. This film showed me how to come terms with my self as a *~teen mayhem~* and the decisions I’ve been making and I’ve yet to make in life. This was genius. Kudos to ♡ Greta ♡ for this million-dollar concept and her mad filmmaking gifts. I’m expecting more of her works in the years to come! Can’t wait.
Congrats on making it to the end! You’re officially not dead. And this only signifies your love for me and what I do. Thank you for your support and your time, beautiful. You keep my planet spinning.
Sayang kung malapit lang ako sa inyo bibili ako sa bazaar nyo. Btw i love your artwork 💞 ganda ganda huhu san ka kumukuha ng idea ang artsy ng artwork mo. Hinihintay ko monthly fave post mo kase nakikita ko yung mga layout mo sa stories mo sa insta hihi
AWWW thank u so much! This is the sweetest thing huhu we reached our target in just a day and i feel amazed that u would’ve really been there as well 💕 and as for my art, my influences are Conan Gray, dodie, Connor Franta & Chloe Moriondo who all happen to be some of my fav youtubers!!! I will be posting my monthly favs this week na talaga ‼️ i’m thinking of making a joint FEB + MAR one HAHA hopefully that’ll work 🌟 anon thank u so much for ur lovely message u deserve this 💐 and this 🌙 ily!
Anong ibig sabihin ng "stellar boulevard"? a made up place or for aesthetic lang yun? haha
HAHA natawa ako sa made up place. i guess sa aesthetic lang? but i love the word stellar and i’ve been struggling to come up w a new title since last month so my friend could include it to the banner she’s making for me. so it’s kind of a last minute thought but hey, it has a good ring to it naman? haha but if ever i build a store, i could make that as the name
Hi Pea! Ano gamit mo sa pagdraw ng illustrations mo? Yung mga drawings like dun sa goals for 2018 mo na post.
i get this question a lot so i will be updating my faqs soon haha but im not using anything super grand other than photoshop cs4. /see, not even using the latest one bc katamaran/
side note: i’m not v pro w drawing so hehe some look kinda kindergarten but i think they’re cute anyhow!! matches well w the *~aestheticzz~*
All my life, I’ve always been one to try making to-do lists for the day, the week, the month and even the year. But of course, knowing myself and the philosophy I’ve always lived /eye roll/, I tend to overlook these lists and abandon them which absolutely results to my unwarranted idleness. I could barely forgive myself for having the capacity to start things and never finishing them.
The thing about lists though, is that they’d always seem too easy to do but the motivation to finish them gets harder by the minute until you no longer want to try. Until recently... As I’m trying to live up to my age and the things where I want to thrive in a little more, I finally think I’m on my way to crossing off a lot of things in my new list.
Clear skin. I gotta get rid of my face rashes and pimples for once and for all! I learned that drinking 6-8 glasses of water can really alleviate the pains of unclear skin so let me start with that and I'll just find my tracks along the way by watching skin care videos and reading more words of advice from friends/bloggers/experts on what products to use best for my type of skin.
Better grades. Well, let me just cut to the chase here. I’ve always been plainly contented with my grades every semester. They’re not low enough for my family and I to have constant cryfests about; but they also weren’t high enough to make me proud. So, big cheers to that because I know I could do so much better! /let’s keep the spirit flamin’ like Cheetos/
More savings. I’ve actually done this last year and I was pretty happy with the amount of money I ended up gathering from the beginning of the year until halfway through it. It was a tough one but it was so helpful and life-changing considering my trait of being a big spender on stuff I don’t even need. I’m only wise when it comes to books/makeup/food. So yes, I’m bringing this back again and hopefully I get to finish it until December 31st!
More books to read. I gotta admit that I do have a collection of young adult novels and I do love to read contemporaries, romances and anything that’s total swoonsville. But I would also wanna work out on perusing a wider range of plots with classics, mystery and even dystopian. I want to expand my imagination and understanding of things.
More films to see. Out of all the things I couldn’t wait to do, this would probably be one of the first ones. I regret that I didn’t see much films as I had when I was 13 /that was my film geek year/ last year so I’m crossing all the fingers that I can for 2018 to be eventful with my toilet paper roll list of movies that I cannot wait to see!
Healthier lifestyle. I’m conscious of my body in so many angles. And I’ve always been that junk food junkie hating on everyone minding my own business. I got to say, I’ve been trying so hard to sacrifice the food I shouldn’t eat anymore and the stuff I couldn’t do anymore. But I’d always flop. It’d always seem like I’m not taking my diet seriously. I want to get myself back in the game with the new year here and the 300+ more days I can prove myself wrong. I want to look good and feel good without needing to be ashamed of anything that involves with my figure. This is a huge step for me because I want to stare at the mirror and feel genuine bliss at the sight of myself. I want to be comfortable in my own skin because I love my body and I have to love it more by becoming disciplined and having self-control.
Inspiration to write more. These past few months, I’ve been stalling with my writings. I would think of concepts and then words would drip out of my fingertips. And then I’ll just stop until the inspiration drains out. I would continue my progress with the novel I want to publish but until now, I’m still stuck with Chapter 5 /although, I know it’s not an effortless process/. But this year, I’m also aiming to get back on track with my notes and my documents. I know they’ve missed me as I have missed the thunderbolt icon above my head when I write.
A great freshman year. I want to try being intrepid with my first year in college. I want to sign up for as much organizations as I can. That would be the publication + my course’s own troop. Hopefully, I’ll be taking up Psych! I don’t know what I want to do with my college life yet other than getting better at note-taking, curing my attention span of a goldfish, socializing more with other people and just surviving the whole thing itself. I know it’s going to be a wild ride. But I guess, I’m ready.
Yeah i really hope so. Because she's the only true friend i have and i dont want to lose her. Anyways thank you for listening(?) and for your kind words Piaaa! Bless your beautiful mind and soul 💞
you’re always welcome, anon!! Merry Christmas btw and Godspeed ♡
