I over think and it goes something like this.
To begin at a point where it all began
I’ve never felt recently that I sank or swam
Recently nothing even touches me
Ive become numb to certainty
Senses reach hypersensitivity
Memories cause more pain for me
Each second I’m standing
Stuck in a position where I haven't changed even slightly
Trapped mentally in a memory
Something that shouldn't be so big to me
I cant even bare to be in my house
I’m just scratching away at reality
Fingertips are brittle by it
Im dehydrating myself by how much i take from me
People don't understand this is not purposefully
it comes across so unnecessary
But if i had a positive outcome for every situation
It would need probably take some part of me
I have some thoughts which are so real i feel like it makes sense
Theres good reason why i focus on past tense
Everything is a consequence of an action
When your position in life is not quite best
Go back to the start and try again