She's the King. My life. My thoughts. You're reading it now.

Keziah Keren Nemeño, EcT. Philippines. BS in Electronics Engineering Graduate of 2016. Lover of life, hopes and love. Christian.

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Happy birthday, Megs! Wishing you all the happiness and all the best. 💕 (at Dasureco Hilltop, Cogon, Digos City)

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I wonder what homework did I store inside.. 😕 #oldschool #forkeeps 💾

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Garaa jud this guy oy! 😍 #LRJ #blessed (at Rustic Café)

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Whae? Saranghae. Byane. Omma. Oppa. 😂 Salamat ate @hahahaohhannah! Daghan mi'g bringhome pra sa imoha. ✌ (at Jinbin Korean Grill and BBQ)

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No chocolates or flowers. Just us. And good food. 👫 #2ndvalentinestogether (at Backyard Burgers South Main)

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WTF, Sara Bareilles!!! WTF

I just had this “ugh, stop me” afternoon. That afternoon where you do nothing, so you just watch videos and browse the internet... But then, there’s someone who ruined your afternoon. When all along you thought that he already understood and is already on the same page as you. But then, you get this side comments ending in “SO THIS IS HOW IT ENDS?” 

Hearing that from him... I want to fight back, say “I’VE BEEN TELLING YOU ALL THIS TIME YOU’RE NOT EVEN LISTENING TO ME.. OH WAIT, HAVE YOU ASKED ME ALREADY WHAT DO I WANT OR HOW AM I DOING?” But I just can’t say this... I don’t know how to, even I make up situations in my head just to tell them everything that’s been wanting to burst out from me for so long. 

Most of the time, I am not the kind of person where when I was just a little bit hurt, I would tell you right away. I think I’m like a plastic bag... When you put too many things inside, I would just burst out. There’s so many issues inside me that I would want to speak out to the persons involved. I want to tell them about how anxious I was couple of weeks ago just because I couldn’t get my mind off of what I am going through that time... Well, I am still in “that” situation right now, but I’m beginning to accept things and instead, divert my energy into something that would make me feel productive or useful. Ooh, wait, maybe you’re wondering WHAT is the situation that I was/am in? 

You ever felt like you’re almost hopeless or faithless? Like when you thought you already had a goal, and would want to achieve that goal but then, bummer, IT DID NOT HAPPEN or maybe IT HAS NOT HAPPENED. So I failed on my Electronics Engineer Licensure Examination. I decided, oh well, I’ll give it a shot again this April. But my father wouldn’t want to send me again to a Review Center to continue my review... Honestly, I couldn’t get his wisdom at first, but as weeks pass, I learned to accept that I’ll just be self-reviewing (Thank God, my boyfriend helped me as he got into a review center.) Until January happened. My father came back here in the Philippines after working abroad. To sum it all up, I got distracted because of the so-many-happenings in our house. We got our van and truck repaired and running, so that meant having strangers into our house when it’s just my father and I who’s in the house. I don’t like that. I want privacy. And so I battled with myself, saying “I want to have my own place already, I want silence... I don’t want strangers in my house.” Keeping my focus when studying has been VERY HARD for me. Oo, naka-bold and capslock yan para intense! But I want to study, so I decided to adapt to my environment with all those chores that’s expected of me to do.

After battling for how many days, with wanting to sleep even having difficulty in breathing, (which I heard was one of the symptoms for anxiety) I gave up. I let it all go... I surrendered it to God. I can’t hold it off anymore. Since I realized that it already has affected my relationship with my parents by not talking to them that much, I let it go. And by doing that, I felt free. 

I’m sorry, by the way, about how mean you may think the title is... But we’re getting to the reason behind the title. 

As I was saying, I just had this “afternoon”. So I did the dishes and bathed with a background music to help me calm my nerves. Haha. While combing my hair, Sara Bareilles’ song Brave randomly came up.

You can be amazing  -humming to the 1st parts of the song.. You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug You can be the outcast Or be the backlash of somebody's lack of love Or you can start speaking up  -sang this part Nothing's gonna hurt you the way that words do  -listening to the lyrics... And they settle 'neath your skin  -listening..  Kept on the inside and no sunlight Sometimes a shadow wins But I wonder what would happen if you  -still listening.. 

Say what you wanna say  -sang this part  And let the words fall out Honestly I wanna see you be brave -shouted EVERY PART OF THE LYRICS HAVING THESE WORDS

With what you want to say And let the words fall out Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you I just wanna see you I just wanna see you I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you I just wanna see you I just wanna see you I wanna see you be brave

Everybody's been there, everybody's been stared down  -listening again..  By the enemy Fallen for the fear and done some disappearing Bow down to the mighty Don't run, stop holding your tongue  -STOP HOLDING MY TONGUE? Maybe there's a way out of the cage where you live  -holding back tears.. Maybe one of these days you can let the light in Show me how big your brave is

Say what you wanna say And let the words fall out Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say And let the words fall out  -STILL HOLDING BACK MY TEARS Honestly I wanna see you be brave

Innocence, your history of silence Won't do you any good  -YAS! RIGHT, SARA GURL! Did you think it would? Let your words be anything but empty Why don't you tell them the truth?  -but I don’t have the courage.. :( *was a little bit teary-eyed*

Say what you wanna say And let the words fall out Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say And let the words fall out Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you I just wanna see you   I just wanna see you I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you I just wanna see you I just wanna see you See you be brave

I just wanna see you I just wanna see you  -starts to realize like how brave other people are.. I just wanna see you  -good thing they’re good at expressing their feelings

I just wanna see you I just wanna see you I just wanna see you

Read more:

Sara Bareilles - Brave Lyrics | MetroLyrics

So, yeah. WTF, SARA BAREILLES, YOUR WORDS ARE ON POINT AND ARE HURTING MY FEELINGS!!! But I want to sincerely thank you for this song though. It was just a song to me, I never imagined it would be THE SONG that would totally put to words what I should be doing. Thank God for these songs... 

K. 

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TAKE ME OUT OF HERE!!!

Love is sweet, but love is painful.

I am weak, you make it awful.

K.

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YES, LORD! 

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c11ngy as in clingy. 😄

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Zumba sa Paraiso (at Dasureco Hilltop, Cogon, Digos City)

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Sus, mura ju'g angayan. 😂 imy, bb.

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Helloooo. I miss you, te! 😘 (at Starbucks Abreeza Mall)

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☕ (at Rustic Café)

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Into the deep blue sea. (at Bluejazz Beach Resort - Samal Island)

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Flex those muscles.

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