Strong as the Mountain

Indie Zarya (Overwatch) RP blog. Not really selective. Multi-ship. NSFW in the form of gore, etc. (just not smut) is accepted (mun is underage). Tracking tag: pinkrussian

[pinkrussian-blog]

//i think i owe everyone an explanation. read more for info.

so basically what’s happened is i lost my muse for a while. it’s not really back yet. i’m struggling to find what to write, i want to write but i don’t really have anything to get out. so mostly it just ends up being garbage if i write anything at all, and i scrap it.

that’s not the real problem though.

as some of you may know, i am genderfluid, and i have, as of about a week, experienced the most severe, most continuous dysphoria i have ever felt in my entire life. it’s always bad. this isn’t bad. this is like, take period cramps plus the stress of finals and double the sum of that. then you’re getting there. i’ve had at least three major meltdowns in the last four days, and other times i’ve been in this massive pit of depression and exhaustion. i’ve tried taking my mind off it with overwatch, with pokemon go, with all these fun things, but it isn’t working. tomorrow i actually see my psychiatrist, who will update my medication and get me a referral to someone who may be able to start me on HRT (hormone replacement therapy). yes, i’m planning on doing that. it will be a big change for me, and it won’t be immediately massive - it will be small for a while, just putting me more in the middle, more hair, a little less boobs, etc. (i’m AFAB). I have binders, and those help, but they don’t do enough on their own, and when everyone still calls you by your birth name and don’t really care about learning pronouns that change a lot, the dysphoria stays strong even with a binder. i’m hoping the HRT will give me a better shot at passing.

anyway. there’s a lot of stuff i could say, but i won’t bore you. ask for my skype if you really wanna know more or chat with me. consolation is appreciated - this is a damn rough time for me. i’m resorting to headcanons about characters to make myself feel remotely sane and normal. i may end up fully transitioning to male someday, i may not. i hope when i get this sorted out and get my muse back i can continue this blog. until then, don’t expect any replies from me.

i’m sorry.

[pinkrussian-blog]

//i apologize so hard for not doing anything on here lately. a whole lot of stuff went down. i have to deal with a lot right now, and i’ve kinda lost my muse for zarya tbh. i hopefully can get her muse back, but until then this blog is on hiatus.

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reblog if you trust lucio

[pinkrussian-blog]

//I am legit freaking out. I can't scroll down on my dash, I can't make any posts, and I can't go to settings to log out and back in. Is anyone else having problems? I'm on mobile and it works fine but laptop is fucked. I don't want something to happen to this blog, and I'm kinda panicking because I use this as an outlet. In other words, if anyone knows what to do... Help.

[pinkrussian-blog]

//on mobile bc laptop tumblr is glitching and won't let me scroll past like the first 15 posts or something. It's bad. Gonna see what I can do, replies might be a bit wonky till I fix it

[pinkrussian-blog]

//I s2g I will get drafts done today but my fam is celebrating the Fourth of July so it might happen a bit later today

[pinkrussian-blog]

//well, the dog is gone. So that’s sad. Bye, Pharah! We found the owner BUT! Now I am more motivated than ever to get a dog EDIT: THE DOG IS BACK WRONG OWNER YAAAY

[pinkrussian-blog]

//my family found a dog. I want to keep her but we can't so... I named her Pharah. She already had a name since she had a shock collar but I am calling her Pharah and no one can stop me. I love her she is pure.

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Reblog this.

If you do not care what gender your roleplay partner identify themselves as.

Be they male, female, trans, or whatever else is out there.

If you are a friend, you are a friend. If we ship our muses together, we ship the heck out of our muses. I don’t care if you are a female playing male, a male playing female or whatever is inbetween.

You are precious no matter what you are. And I love you.

if u like this u are gay if u reblog this u are super deluxe gay

[meowarchived]

Send some hearts to tell my muse how yours feels about them.

❤️: Wants or is in a romantic relationship with them.

💛: Loves them platonically.

💚: Is a little jealous of them.

💙: Feels pretty indifferent towards them.

💜: Finds them sexually attractive.

💖: Finds them aesthetically attractive.

💗: Finds them romantically attractive.

💞: Feels attracted to them, but can’t work out if it’s platonic, sexual, or romantic attraction they’re feeling.

💝: Looks up to them as a role model.

💓: Is intimidated by them, but wants to be friends with them.

💔: Hates their guts.

💘: Doesn’t really like them, but doesn’t flat-out hate them either.

[cauchemaroix]

Another chance? (AU)

@pinkrussian

From the moment she had been overpowered and brought in by the Overwatch agents, she knew this wasn’t going to be easy. The job she was originally on hadn’t been easy to begin with, but this… this was just a real annoyance. They had disarmed her, blindfolded her, and brought her in to Overwatch HQ in which she had spend more days in a room with vanilla-white walls than she cared to count. There was a clock on the wall, so she had some sense of how much time had passed since her capture, though she did not know exactly how many days she’d been there. If she had to guess, between a week and nine days.

She was being heavily guarded since she would be deadly if she somehow got out. Sometimes regular guards was assigned to her room, standing just outside the locked door, looking strict. Still, she could hear them talk once in a while. Making jokes, regular chit-chat, and even discussing her. Not that she cared. They could discuss her as much as they wanted. Other times, experienced agents had the job of guarding her.

Three times a day she was served a meal. Usually a simple one, but of good quality. Hot food and a glass of water. She drank the water, left the food untouched. Trusting them was not something she would do easily. After all, they were enemies. Two times a day, usually in the morning and then again in the evening, someone would enter her room, questioning her about Talon. About anything she might know that could be of interest. So far she had held her tongue, not speaking a single word to anyone.

Now, the guards were to be changed. Through the blurred window in the door, Widowmaker couldn’t make out much, but she did notice something pink. Sitting on her bed, leaning casually against the wall, she raised an eyebrow slightly. Another one? Another agent sent to question her, to try to make her talk. They would have a hard time doing that. Widowmaker was not an easy nut to crack. She was tough, hidden behind an emotionless facade created by Talon. 

[pinkrussian-blog]

Zarya had heard many things about the woman they had captured. None of them seemed particularly positive, though she had heard something at one point about the Overwatch members having had ties to her before. She had taken the stance that regardless of what she heard, she’d form her own opinions of the woman when she was inevitably sent in to question her. And today, that day came where she would have to do so, and where she would be given a chance to form her own opinions.

She paced down the hall, unexpectedly nervous about the whole ordeal. This woman was dangerous. Sure, Zarya could take her, but she was still a threat, and there was not much she would be able to do if the woman didn’t want to talk. She wasn’t interested in torture, and the rest of Overwatch didn’t seem to be either, so that wasn’t a route they’d be taking. She wouldn’t have wanted to anyway. Zarya, while aggressive in questioning, didn’t hurt unless she had to. Well, with the exception of omnics, of course, but that was another story.

She was called by the guards end immediately went to them, knowing her duty. As they switched out, she was able to enter the small room, and quickly noticed a few things. One, Widowmaker - the name she’d been informed belonged to the agent from Talon - seemed as if she knew what was going on. She had been questioned before, after all. The second thing: she seemed calm about it. She appeared to have known this was coming as well as knowing that it would happen. This was a little unnerving to Zarya - usually her captives were afraid, but Widowmaker was completely calm.

Whatever. She cast the thoughts out of her mind and sat down in a chair on the opposite side of the room. “Hello, Widowmaker. Would you be willing to answer some of my questions?” She wouldn’t be. But it was worth a shot, no?

[pinkrussian-blog]

TAG 10 FOLLOWERS YOU WOULD LIKE TO GET TO KNOW BETTER

TAGGED BY: @dumpsterrodent​ TAGGING:  all of you idc

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NAME: Natalie. Or Matthew. NICKNAME: Matty, Scales (my bf calls me that), Liie GENDER:  genderfluid i guess ZODIAC:  taurus :3 HEIGHT:  5′7′’ approx. SEXUAL ORIENTATION: pansexual!!! HOGWARTS HOUSE:  slytherin/ravenclaw mix ILVERMORNY HOUSE:  wtf is this FAVORITE COLOR:  black!!! or silver. or green. actually pink is growing on me too.

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CURRENT TIME:  8:04 PM aka 20:04 i guess AVERAGE HOURS OF SLEEP:  either 5-7 or 10-12 depending on the day LUCKY NUMBER:  13 LAST THING I GOOGLED: redemption writing prompts! trying to get an idea for a thread FAVORITE FICTIONAL CHARACTER: my fav of all time is Jasper from Steven Universe, tied withTtauriel from the Hobbit movies. Then Zarya is very close. NUMBER OF BLANKETS I SLEEP UNDER:  i just have my comforter FAVORITE SINGER OR BAND:  ummm? i like estelle, nicki minaj, of monsters and men, lots of stuff really DREAM TRIP: I really wanna go to somewhere in Europe! Or Japan. DREAM JOB:  writer or singer/songwriter

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WHAT DO YOU POST?  rp stuff for zarya, random things my followers ask for in mun stuff WHO ARE YOUR MOST ACTIVE FOLLOWERS?  various rp’ers WHEN DID YOUR BLOG REACH ITS PEAK?:  idk???? it might not have yet. WHAT MADE YOU DECIDE TO MAKE A TUMBLR? i made one like 3 years ago and kept making rp blogs and now i’m here i guess DO YOU GET ASKS ON A DAILY BASIS? not really and i wish i had more people who’d send me them WHY DID YOU CHOOSE YOUR URL? because it wasn’t taken (i was really surprised tbh)

[riddlesregime-ops]

Memes

☹ My muse is visiting your muse on their death bed

♫ A drabble about our muses inspired by the next song that comes on shuffle

☻ A drabble of our muses on their wedding day

☺ my muse trying to piss yours off

ت our muses running into each other after not seeing each other for several years

ヅ for a situation that got both our muses arrested

シ my muse walks in on your naked

Ü your muse walks in on my muse naked

ϡ a goodbye letter from my muse to yours

♥ you muse suprises my muse with a kiss

۵ my muse kisses yours to shut them up

ღ a forehead kiss from my muse

웃 my muse torturing yours for information

유 my muse trying to seduce information from your muse

♈ a holiday drabble featuring our muses

♉ our muses are together when they get ambushed

≑ my muse wakes up in your muse’s body

?  my muse will ask your muse a question they always wanted to ask

+ my muse has died and your muse is included in their will

◈ my muse’s reaction to finding your muse beaten and bruised

♊ my muse will do something stupid to impress your muse

✃ your muse visiting mine in the psych ward

♋ my muse visiting yours in the psych ward

❅ my muse rescues yours

✪ my muse seeing the ghost of your muse

● my muse’s turn offs

○ my muse’s turn ons

△ our muse’s get in a playful wrestling match

⍢ my muse gives yours a hickey

✧ our muses having dinner together

☎ my muse drunk dials your muse

✈ our muses on a flight together

☼ my muse giving yours a massage

♡ my muse flirts with your mue

☣ your muse visiting my muse in prison

♌ your muse visiting mine in prison

X my muse doesn’t remember anything from the night before. They have blood on their hands, and your muse is beaten at their feet.

☁ our muses are trapped in a fire together

〰 our muses are at the beach together

❢ my muse has lost their memory, and at the sight of your muse starts to remember things

✑ my muses daily routine

❂ a new years eve memory from my muse

✬ our muses share a new years eve kiss

✆ your muses name, ringtone, and icon in the muse’s phone

◙ a christmas gift from my muse

♍ a sexual story from my muse

₩ our muses are caught in a thunder storm together

❊  a regret my muse has about your muse

♎ your muse tracing one of my muse’s scars

♏ my muse tracing a scar of your muse’s

♐ my muse hearing your muse scream

♑ our muses go out for coffee together

♒ my muse visit’s your muse’s grave

♓ my muse injures your muse

✄ your muse injures my muse

☩ a dream my muse has about your muse

☨ my muse searching for your muse

☦ my muse trying to cheer up your muse

✞ my muse taking care of a your muse while their sick

✛ my muse trying to calm your muse down

✜ my muse trying to get your muse to recover from amnesia

✝ a confession from my muse to yours

✙ our muses shopping together

✠ our muses watching the stars together

« a past memory with our muses

» a daydream my muse has about yours

✐ a mistletoe kiss

✎ our muses going to a costume ball together

✏ our muses are evil and out reaking havoc together

♔ a kiss on the cheek

♕ a kiss on the palms

♖ a kiss on the back of the hand

♗ a kiss on the nose

♘ a kiss on the eyelids

♙ a kiss on a bruise

[rppeaceinitiative-blog]

Send me ❤ on anon and I’ll compliment someone at random!

[whenrpmemesattack]

It’s H8terball time, put “🎱” in my inbox and my character will grill your character in a rant

Answers can be serious or nonserious!

[pinkrussian-blog]

//I LISTENED TO THAT OVERFEELS AUDIO POST AGAIN AND IM CRYING THE MUN NEEDS A HUG