For anyone left following this wasteland of a blog
I started this blog in November of 2011 (I deleted posts a long time ago from then a long time ago). I was 12 years old at that point, getting asked to join tumblr from a friend of mine on stardoll. I joined, thinking it was just a place to share pretty pictures. I slowly but surely gained followers on this blog, after making a few buzzfeed-featured 100k note posts. When I was 12, I remember the main joke of the website was “12.9 years old”, and I never said my age, even after my birthday. I remember someone sent me an ask that said “HAPPY 12TH BIRTHDAY!!” and I just replied “it’s actually my 13th birthday”. From then on, this website had a big impact on me.
When I was 13, I had one of those “pro-ana” blogs. I wasn’t anorexic, but I guess you could say I was bulimic. I was depressed and I cut myself, but I almost feel like it was subconsciously because I reblogged all the content telling me that everything is hopeless. (By the way, “8th grade jenna” is one of the longest running jokes about me. 3 years running.)
I went through a phase on tumblr where I realized that I wasn’t a girl. I went by some ridiculous nicknames like “mudsocks”. I went by Charlie, J, and some I probably don’t want to remember. I got my hair cut short (a bowlcut, more or less). I started dressing like a “guy”. Mind you, this was a little bit short of when they/them pronouns and various genders floated around tumblr. It made me feel good about myself, because I felt like I belonged in some group.
I went through my weeaboo phase on here. The first anime I ever watched was soul eater, and the second one was ouran high school host club. Madoka Magica and evangelion were my favorite anime shows during my phase (and I still kinda like evangelion, honestly.)
I went through my /mu/ phase too, and i objectively am still in it. i love you, jeff mangum. and you too, jesus christ.
What I’m trying to say is, tumblr watched me grow up and go through all my phases. I’m almost thankful for it, but i’m not thankful for the fact that all of my embarrassing posts are probably archived somewhere on the internet.
