☾ * ✶ * — right...

❝You can't w a k e up, this is not a d r e a m. You're part of a machine, you are not a human being With your face all made up, living on a s c r e e n Low on self esteem, so you run on gasoline.❞ ☾ * ✶ ｡ * — ellie montgomery, xix

[aspynsworld]

“Whatever call me dramatic I don’t fucking care.” Luke said since he really didn’t care that she was calling him dramatic. “You do do it behind my back since it’s always the most when I’m gone! You’re literally acting like a 15 year old right now.” Luke was growing more and more pissed off by the second. The fight shouldn’t have been this big and he knew it, it probably shouldn’t have been a fight in the first place. “Then why do you flirt with other guys? That’s the vibe I get from you whenever I see you flirting with other people.” Luke really didn’t understand why flirting around with him wasn’t enough for her. “I will, because I’m done with all this shit. Then don’t fucking tell me that you loved cheating with me.” 

[pngellie]

“You’re a fucking drama queen, my god. You’re blowing out if this out if proportion, Luke,” she said with a scowl on her face. “I do it behind your back, we already agreed that I’m going to stop doing it, just stop already. You fucking dickhead. And you’re acting like a freaking fuckboy, maybe that’s why you’re so afraid, because you know you would do the same if you had the chance,” Ellie was pissed off, she was mad and tired and she just wanted to sleep at the moment. If they continued down this path, he was going to sleep in the couch tonight. “Just stop, just fucking stop before we both start saying things we’re going to regret in the morning,” she was still pissed off but she was tired. “Go then. We were 16 at the time, stop being… ugh,” the girl didn’t finish the sentence and just threw herself back into the couch.

[pngellie]

thelukeashton:

Luke ran and jumped in the bed next to Ellie. “Babe you have to come down to the kitchen with me.” He said with a smile. “We’re going to make cookies because that sounds good right now. Cookies, then movie, then sex.” He said with a smirk. “That’s going to be our night tonight.”

@pngellie

Ellie had a pen between her lips, her laptop open at her lap, a book besides her. “I’m busy, babe,” she sighed deeply. Of course, the plan sounded better than having to be planted in the bed with a book and annotations. “You know what?” she said before closing her laptop and putting it on top of the book. “Yeah, let’s do that.”

[pngellie]

thelukeashton:

“How do I know that? You’ll flirt and flirt until that gets boring for you and then you’ll take it further!” Luke said shaking his head. “Finally! Because it pisses me off, you don’t see me going out all the time and flirting with a bunch girls because I think it’s fun or some shit.” He was frustrated that she didn’t get that it hurt him to see her flirting with other guys. “You flirting with other guys means you’re bored with me! And if you’re bored with me then why don’t we just end things now? I’m not forcing you to be with me. Whatever Ellie. I’m gonna go.” Luke said taking a step away from her. “And soon you’re going to do the same thing to me. You’re going to love cheating on me.”

“Are you actually serious? I won’t get bored because I’ll stop doing it. You’re are the most dramatic person I know, seriously,” she was pissed off to no end. Because he had no right to make accusations when nothing had really happened. At least no in Ellie’s mind, she had done nothing wrong and this was a stupid fight. “I wouldn’t be mad? I mean, better to it in my face than behind my back? This is just stupid and so are you,” she was throwing insults because why not? They were fighting and even if she hated it, she wouldn't go down without a fight. “I’m not bored with you! Never say that! I would never bored of you,” she stood this time, trying to get close to him, not touching him. “Go, then, see if I care,” she spited back. “I was a different girl back then if you haven’t noticed, Luke. I wouldn’t cheat on you, I’m not that low.”

[aspynsworld]

“If not him, then someone else. Everybody want’s sex, Ellie!” Luke said, clearly annoyed with her and her statements she was making. “You are doing this for yourself only. You know it pisses me off and you’ll keep doing it. You want me to leave? Then I’ll fucking leave. I have my stuff packed already.” Luke said, though he really didn’t want to leave. “I can’t trust you if the second I leave you go out and flirt with who knows how many guys! No you fucking didn’t.” Luke said shaking his head.

[pngellie]

"Not from me! I'm not going to take another step from flirting," Ellie kept the best straight face she could. She always cried when she got mad and she couldn't cry, not when she had him in front. "Then I'll stop fucking doing it! You're making such a bit shit fest about this! There's the door, what are you waiting for? It's not the end of the world," but it would be end of her carefully built world. And even if she didn't admit it, it was built around Luke. "I'll fucking stop, then!" she shook her head. "That's where you're wrong! I had a boyfriend and I loved every second of what I did," she had loved the thrill but now it was different more calm and domestic and she didn't mind it.

[aspynsworld]

“I fucking care if you’re flirty with him. Because he’ll think you want to sleep with him and then you would. Well then make new friends.” Luke said. “Fine be a selfish little bitch. See how long it’ll take for me to leave you.” He told her. Though he couldn’t ever leave her for this, he loved her way to much to lose her over something like this. “How am I supposed to know that? How do you not know that you flirting with other guys pissed me off? Are you really that stupid to think that I was okay with you doing it? You were flirty before you had a boyfriend and thats fine!”

[pngellie]

“No, I wouldn’t. No, I would not sleep with him. And he’s an ace! He does not want sex, believe me,” she was getting more pissed off by the second because this fight was stupid and made no sense at all. “Selfish little bitch? Really? Are you fucking serious right now, Luke? If that’s what you want, the door is right there, asshole,” she responded with no sense of remorse. Ellie wasn’t thinking straight and as soon if he did leave she would turn into a meds.“I thought you were fine with it because you trusted me. Um no, for your information I had a boyfriend before I meet you. I cheated with you and you didn’t even know it. Huh, how’s that for me being flirty benefiting you?”

[aspynsworld]

“Not what I fucking said. If you weren’t being so flirty with him then you wouldn’t be branded as dating him. They shouldn’t have to ask me if you have a new guy in the first place, Ellie.” Luke said shaking his head. She wasn’t getting what he was saying, which pissed him off even more. “It’s not fun for me! No you probably would take it further. You flirt with whoever you please, you don’t give a damn if it pisses me off. It’s not fucking harmless, because you piss me off whenever you do it.”

[pngellie]

“Oh my god, so what if I’m flirty with him? It’s my natural personality, I juts have fun with it. He’s the only person who I actually like of my friends!” she rolled her eyes. “Well, guess what? It’s supposed to be fun for me, not you, necessarily,” Ellie almost raised her hand, to slap him because he was an idiot and she need him to slap him out of it. “No I wouldn’t it! I didn’t know it pissed you off so much! In fact I had never even heard you didn’t like it! Plus it I wasn’t flirty, we! Me and you, Luke, would have never ever happened!”

[aspynsworld]

“Hmm. Maybe the fact that everyone believes you have some new guy? Or people texting me and asking if you and I broke up. And there’s the fact that you flirt with everyone. And I don’t get why you do it? Is it fucking fun for you?” Luke asked. He was mostly upset that this stuff was the topic of everyone’s gossip. “Not when you flirt with everyone. Even if I’m fucking standing right next to you.”

[pngellie]

“Oh, I’m not allowed to have friends now? I’m not allowed to have male friends because I get branded that I’m dating him. Well, then kindly tell them to fuck off, that we did not. Besides it’s gossip, come on, Luke, don’t be blindsided by them,” Ellie said simply, standing as soon as she started speaking because she was getting pissed off. “Of course, it’s fun! But it’s just that fun. I would never take another step further than that, please,” she rolled her eyes. “It’s harmless fun, Luke! Stop being dramatic, god!”

[aspynsworld]

Luke knew he got jealous easily and he didn’t know if Ellie knew that. Maybe flirting with everyone was just a ploy to get a rise out of him? The combination of jet lag and him being upset with her would not end well. Luke followed her voice and shook his head when he saw her sitting there. “Do I have to take you everywhere I go so I make sure you don’t start fucking someone else?” Luke asked her as he stood in front of her. 

[pngellie]

Ellie did not know why he was so upset. She did think of the headlines, one of them being ‘Montgomery heir with a new man? Could it be?’ But then decided that Luke wasn’t like that. Well, that was until he said standing in front of her and she scoffed once again. “Where did you get that idea? Seriously and you say I’m the crazy one,” she rolled her eyes, hiding her phone. “Do you not trust me, Luke? Is that it?” she returned the question.

[aspynsworld]

Luke was frustrated. He felt like whenever he was gone she went around and flirted with anyone who would flirt back. He had to go away for a few days to deal with his dad’s company, since eventually it would be his. Luke got an Uber back to their place and walked inside, throwing his bags to the side of the door. “Ellie where the hell are you?” Luke yelled, not knowing if she was home or not. 

@pngellie

[pngellie]

If Ellie was being honest, she felt as if flirting was a race and she would only win if she tried with everyone she meet and thought cute. Of course, she would never take it a step further from there. It was just flirting in her mind. She had been scrolling threw her timeline, talking with her brother when she heard Luke enter their place. And she was about to go and say hi to him when he yelled. “Dude, I am right here, no need to fucking yell,” she scoffed, sitting back down.

[grrlhood]

she was the one who showed me all the ( dark ) wonders of life, the real life, the life i’d only seen flickering from the corner of my eye. did i ever feel anything at all until she showed me what feeling meant? pushing at the corners of her cramped world with curled fists, she showed me what it meant to ( l i v e ).

[alina-aleksanders]

[wordsnquotes]

The greatest griefs are those we cause ourselves.

Sophocles, Oedipus Rex (via wordsnquotes)