Words I couldn’t say to you

[poetrywrittenforyou]

I thought I was over you...

But you crashed me again,

you’re running in my head again

Fuck

You hurt me, too many times

I’m losing again

[poetrywrittenforyou]

Why couldn’t I just love her?

Why did I have to have you?

[poetrywrittenforyou]

What happened to everything you said

[poetrywrittenforyou]

I still want and love you

[poetrywrittenforyou]

I trusted you when you told me that you would only want me.

[poetrywrittenforyou]

I start over and over again

Trying to think of something

And deleting everything again

Like I just did with this text

[poetrywrittenforyou]

I wish I would be kissing you right now,

your eyes are like star constellations in the sky.

But tonight it doesn’t show

and this time I can’t even cry.

Because all I’m feeling is a heavy emptiness,

without any clearness.

Please take these clouds away,

so I can be okay...

[poetrywrittenforyou]

I miss you more and more, but I feel broken from the inside. I don’t know if I can ever express affection this way again. But I love you...

[poetrywrittenforyou]

There’s a god damn lot going on in my head, but I can’t find any words for it.

[poetrywrittenforyou]

I’m not okay baby. I keep listening to our song. I keep feeling your lips on mine and your hand on my neck. I can still smell you. I can still see your face in the morning after you’ve slept the whole night with your head on my chest. Your smile was what was keeping me alive. I don’t know what to do anymore. Please don’t go

[poetrywrittenforyou]

“I want to wake up

From a trauma I can’t escape

But I just cut

And keep to escalate.”

-me

[poetrywrittenforyou]

“I’m feeling helpless,

Like a huge mess.

Being without you,

And you being this way.

By your side I want to lay.

Can we turn back time,

Just for one last day?”

-depressed boy

[poetrywrittenforyou]

“I’m searching for a reason to stay,

But all my motivation is gone.

Can’t I just lay,

I’m done.”

-me

[poetrywrittenforyou]

“I can’t say what

I feel

Or what I think

Because everything is empty”

-me

[poetrywrittenforyou]

“Take me far

In my old car

Let all the bad thoughts disappear

And dry every tear.”

-me

[poetrywrittenforyou]

“You know

It’s one of these nights

When you’re sick of the fights

Inside your own head

And all of it screams

I wish I was dead”

-me

[poetrywrittenforyou]

“I want to throw my phone against the wall

Crash my head against everything I can find

Let me fall

I don’t wanna be kind”

-me