I wanna live forever

Poppy Smith, 16 Oxford, UK ❝Never stop screaming, playing and laughing, it's part of our childhood wich will always be with us.❝

[itsowendavis]

It’s fine – I’m sorry I bothered you, Poppy. I know you have a lot going on for yourself…

[poplike-poppyx]

You didn’t. Don’t worry. I’m okay...you guys worried enough about me. I’ll be ok. I want you to be ok, too.

[poplike-poppyx]

Oh god...

[hazel-ellis]

Well, I get that you want things to go back to normal and leave out the meds… But if these nightmares keep you from sleeping every day, that’s not healthy either. Memories? You are? I mean, I’m not a doctor but that could be. Those nightmares – what are they about?

[poplike-poppyx]

Nothing is healthy. I’m like a character from the walking dead. The nightmares...I see my dad. I think it’s the day he died...it’s the same nightmare...every night. It’s awful...like I’m standing there, watching him die and I can’t do anything. And then in the next moment he’s gone...and I’m standing at the middle of the street....it’s dark and I I’m alone. And the suitcase...I don’t know where I’m going, but it’s so quiet and dark and suddenly there is this bright light and someone screaming. And then I wake up...

[poplike-poppyx]

Oh god...

[hazel-ellis]

Shh—it’s okay. [she goes over to sit down on her bed] Have they given you sleeping meds? Can I do something to help?

[poplike-poppyx]

They did, but I don’t want to drink them...like I’m taking way too many meds after the accident. It can’t be healthy. No, I don’t think so...what if...it’s not a bad thing? What if I’m getting my memories back? Could that be possible?

[itsowendavis]

Uhm—no, I haven’t. I can try… [he sighs] I just want to get it over with, you know. 

[poplike-poppyx]

I’m sorry that I can’t help you with anything. But I’m sure you’ll figure it out. 

[declankeyes-blog]

“Well that’ll be where you know me from. Your brother wouldn’t happen to be a fan of boxing, would he?”

[poplike-poppyx]

He is, actually. Not that I approve, cause it’s scary seeing people doing this. Like there is blood and it’s just awful, but anyway... OH! Oh god...you’re boxer, aren’t you? So sorry, I didn’t mean to....

[dianna-brackenridge-blog]

Hey– it’s not time wasting if it helps you learn the material…right?

[poplike-poppyx]

Right...thank you Di.

[declankeyes-blog]

“Well it is actually very possible that you’ve seen me before, do you follow sports?”

[poplike-poppyx]

Follow? Not exactly, I’ve watched sport channels with my brother few times...

[dianna-brackenridge-blog]

Alright, fine– I’ll go over this one last time.

[poplike-poppyx]

Thank you. I really appreciate the fact that you’re wasting your time with me.

[poplike-poppyx]

Oh god...

[hazel-ellis]

Oh my god—Poppy, are you alright?

[poplike-poppyx]

Yes....no. I can’t stand these nightmares anymore. Like the last time I actually had a good sleep was in the hospital...like how twisted that is. And I still can’t figure out are these memories or dreams or something in between...

[poplike-poppyx]

Oh god...

[redquare]

 ––– ‘ Night terror ? ’ she dazedly questioned while trying to dismay her worries. ‘ Can I get you something ? ’

[poplike-poppyx]

"Yeah...it’s getting worse.” the girl said quietly. “I can’t even remember the last time I slept without having one of these.” Poppy looked down and nodded “Glass of water could help...”

[declankeyes-blog]

“You’ve been staring at me for like five minutes now, and it’s starting to freak me out… Can I help you with something, or is this just something you do?”

[poplike-poppyx]

I just think I’ve seen you before, but maybe I’m wrong. Sorry for...freaking you out.

[poplike-poppyx]

Oh god...

[cooperxjulia]

When Poppy jumped Julia tried to comfort her and sat down next to her, shooting her a soft smile. “Are you alright?” she asked, frowning lightly. “Do you want me to get you something?”

[poplike-poppyx]

"W - water...please.” Poppy said, trying to get her thoughts together. “I think i got something like a memory back...but I’m not sure if it was a memory or just a dream.” she tried to explain, but she wasn’t sure she was making much sense.

[poplike-poppyx]

Oh god...

[stirlingxav]

Seeing Poppy having a bad dream and waken up like that made Xav clueless of what to do. “Are you okay?—Do you want me to get you something? Like water or anything?” he asked, stumbling over his words.

[poplike-poppyx]

When she saw the boy that was standing next to her Poppy nodded "Yeah...water can help.” she said looking down. “I had a nightmare...or something like that. Hope I didn’t scare you or anything....” the girl said and looked at him again.

[poplike-poppyx]

Oh god...

[chrisxhemmings]

After the blonde sat straight up Chris handed her some water. “Here, take this.” he said, shooting her a soft kind smile. “Is everything alright?”

[poplike-poppyx]

When he handed her the water, Poppy smiled slightly and took a sip of the glass “Thank you...” she said and then placed the glass on the nightstand beside her. “I think I either had a nightmare or actually remembered something of my life before the accident...”

[poplike-poppyx]

Oh god...

[danielwestfield]

Taking something Daniel noticed the blonde wake up and not in a good way. “I didn’t wake you up, did I?” he asked, thinking that it was because of him, until he saw her sweating a little. “Are you okay?”

[poplike-poppyx]

Poppy was trying to breath slowly, cause she could feel her heart beating very fast and she couldn’t even look at the boy, who was talking to her. She was just staring at one point “I had a nightmare...” she whispered then looked at the boy “I’m sorry...”

[poplike-poppyx]

Oh god...

[finnxsmith-deactivated20160409]

Sitting down next to his sister, Finn frowned. “Hey—Are you alright?” he asked, silently while wrapping an arm around her and rested his head on hers.

[poplike-poppyx]

Poppy hugged him tight and shook her head, causing one tear to roll down her cheek “I think I remembered how dad died...”

[poplike-poppyx]

Oh god...

[noahxmiller]

“Poppy?” he asked, noticing her jump and took her into his arms after a moment. “Did you have a nightmare?”

[poplike-poppyx]

“I’m not sure what it was.” she said taking a deep breath. “M - my dad...it was my dad. I don’t know if it was a memory or just a dream, but it was so real...”