December 2017â January 2018, New York & Washington, D.C.
It was a family vacation.
January 2018, Tallinn
I donât feel cared for and when I remember, itâs exhausting.
February 2018, Amsterdam
tfw you really hate the afterparty and just want it to end but itâs ok, because once it does you and your best friend talk for seven hours straight.
March 2018, Tallinn
Iâve suddenly grown resentful and mean and my dreams increasingly violent. There is genuine terror in my sleep; I am aware itâs only nightmares, yet when I open my eyes I donât stop dreaming. I look into both worlds at once and the violence seeps through.
March 2018, Berlin & Dresden
âOne of the most painfully difficult aspects to grasp and live with in this respect, is that life goes on at a different pace in the place you have temporarily left behind when you travel to work. With an abundance of experience, a two-week journey may feel like a single long day. On returning, however, you may come to realise that someone who stayed at home experienced this period in its âactualâ length as two long weeks. An apparent gap of thirteen days thus opens up between the two economies of time. What happened to this time? The space of circulation absorbed it. Such time-lags can cause even the most intimate long-term relationships to fall apart. As progressively more people can, want or have to circulate to keep up with the pace of high performance, just as many people cannot or do not want to circulate.â
Reading this in some German train with no designated seat on a Sunday evening: âHuh yea I donât know man...thatâs making me feel anxious...â
