December 2017ā January 2018, New York & Washington, D.C.
It was a family vacation.
January 2018, Tallinn
I donāt feel cared for and when I remember, itās exhausting.
February 2018, Amsterdam
tfw you really hate the afterparty and just want it to end but itās ok, because once it does you and your best friend talk for seven hours straight.
March 2018, Tallinn
Iāve suddenly grown resentful and mean and my dreams increasingly violent. There is genuine terror in my sleep; I am aware itās only nightmares, yet when I open my eyes I donāt stop dreaming. I look into both worlds at once and the violence seeps through.
March 2018, Berlin & Dresden
āOne of the most painfully difficult aspects to grasp and live with in this respect, is that life goes on at a different pace in the place you have temporarily left behind when you travel to work. With an abundance of experience, a two-week journey may feel like a single long day. On returning, however, you may come to realise that someone who stayed at home experienced this period in its āactualā length as two long weeks. An apparent gap of thirteen days thus opens up between the two economies of time. What happened to this time? The space of circulation absorbed it. Such time-lags can cause even the most intimate long-term relationships to fall apart. As progressively more people can, want or have to circulate to keep up with the pace of high performance, just as many people cannot or do not want to circulate.ā
Reading this in some German train with no designated seat on a Sunday evening: āHuh yea I donāt know man...thatās making me feel anxious...ā
