discharged from treatment!

🍓anwen•18•atypical anorexia•wlw🍓

[pot8-is-okay]

Hey. I'm not sure what to say, really. I had no idea that this blog was still up. It's been years. I won't be continuing to post here consistently. But I felt like i wanted to close the chapter on this blog. It's 2026, I'm 24 years old.

I am living with Long-covid and chronic fatigue. I cannot exercise anymore and I do not look the way I used to. But I believe that my weight is like, the least interesting thing about me. Truly.

I got married in 2024.

I live independently with my wife.

I don't think about food in any unhealthy way anymore. A lot of my thoughts from this blog, frankly, shock me today. I never thought i would be so healed as to look back and see someone else in these posts, but I am truly not her anymore.

I am still under mental health services, but I have never had another admission to a unit. It's been many years since admission was even considered an option for me. I have PTSD after what i went through during admissions.

I just got the letter that I don't qualify for DBT group therapy. I am simply put, "doing too well".

And i want to throw a fucking party about it.

I am no longer possessed by eating disorders.

I am learning who I truly am.

I want to start a family.

I want to travel.

Please know it does get better. It does suck and it does get better. Nothing is permanent. All suffering and all joy is transient. It is possible to be in a place of balance, and to learn to thrive amongst the chaos-feelings of everyday life

I don't miss who I used to be. I feel really sad for her. And excited that I get to be where I am today. Because many of the people who walked this path alongside me didn't get to continue. And I think of them everyday.

All the best. See you. Anwen.

[salemwitchtrials-deactivated202]

Invitation, Mary Oliver

[beamingsuggestion]

be patient with yourself – you’re traveling your own path, making strides one day at a time

[beamingsuggestion]

even when it feels like you have nothing, you always have yourself

[flourishingaims-deactivated2021]

‘It’s okay if all you did today was survive.’

[desultory-suggestions]

Reminder:

Eating is good

Three meals is not too much

It’s okay to eat “unhealthy” foods

You do not need to purge to feel better

Eating is healthy

You deserve to be healthy

Eating is good.

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

the person reading this is going to survive the rough patch they’re going through

[writhe]

HERE ON THIS BLOG WE GIVE A FUCK!! APATHY FEEDS THE MACHINE! WE ARE ALL ABOUT LOVING AND CARING DEEPLY FOR HUMANITY HERE!

[anniespositivity]

I know how hard it can be to tell yourself things like I will be okay or It will get better over and over again and not feel anything changing. I know how frustrating it can be to hold on when you feel like the pain does not seem to end. But trust me, one day you will be alright again and it is going to be so worth it, my love. You might not feel it tomorrow, in a week, in a month or even in a year but you will feel okay eventually. Please hang in there. You are doing so great and you can be so damn proud of yourself. Take it day by day, I know you can do this. I am rooting for you and I love you very much.

[cemeteryfauna-deactivated202105]

I am strong enough

I am brave enough

I am enough

[mostlycatsmostly]

(via balaam2012)

[softcngel-deactivated20181109]

@ everyone reading this: i hope with all my heart that you heal from whatever is causing you pain right now

[timelyreminder]

Relax

• Release the tension in your shoulders • Do some neck stretches • Stop holding tension in your jaw • Take a few deep breaths • Breathe and stretch if you are wearing a binder

Happy scrolling!

[3blush]

[phoebe-does]

Be mindful of how you criticise yourself. Adding on stress and anxiety through negative self talk for what you didn’t do or what you did won’t move you anywhere positive. Instead, choose instead to redirect those negative self thoughts into accepting for what today was and grateful for what tomorrow can be.

[naturalsceneries]

[clayhalo]