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22, f, 5’11

sw: 186 lbs

cw: 137.8 lbs

gw: 135 lbs

ugw: 125 lbs

lbs to go til gw is reached: 2.8

lbs to go til ugw is reached: 12.8

lbs lost: 48.2

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posting on here where no one knows what i look like bc i’ll sound conceited if i vent to my friends;

feeling very distraught rn like the most ugly goblin of all time and it’s so frustrating bc probably like at least once a day a stranger will come up to me and call me pretty or gorgeous or beautiful

and im so grateful but i just do not get it at all. like i’m so full of myself sometimes, but other times like rn i don’t understand how anyone can think i’m attractive

i have very nordic features; i’m tall with a wide frame, wide jaw, pale skin, etc. and i just think it looks hideous on me.

it’s probably the situation where like i’ve seen myself so much that i can only see my flaws now as opposed to a stranger seeing me for the first time. but i rlly wish i could see what they see when i look at myself

cuz i’m siiiick of wanting to shave my bones down with a file

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relapsed so hard it sent me into a depressive episode and my bf wants to cheer me up by taking me to an expensive steakhouse 😔 quite literally not at all what i need right now

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I’m a fat fucking pig and I deserve to never eat again

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the cure to hating how i look bc i’ve lost weight and my now-visible bone structure reveals that i’m built like a beluga whale? idk probably lose more weight

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what if i looked better when i weighed more :(

my face was kinda cute when it was fuller but now it kinda looks like yzma’s face

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how is it that i’m the lowest i’ve ever weighed but i feel like i look bigger than when i was at my hw

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y’all i finally made it into the 130s

i am absolutely beside myself. this is the lowest weight i’ve been probably since like 3rd grade.

didn’t expect it to take me until senior year of college to get here but whatever better late than never 😝

i have 14 lbs to go until i’m 125. id like to be there by my birthday in 2 months and if i keep doing what i’m doing i think i can do it!!!

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i wouldn’t wish my worst enemy or bestest friend to have an ed because what if they’re better at it then me

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considered recovery for like 2 minutes last night

but like ana has been part of my identity for 8 years idk who id be if i didn’t have this little secret all the time

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to take a laxative or not to take a laxative… that is the question

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okay being around my bf is lowkey so trigging now

tell me how this man has lost SEVEN POUNDS in like TWO WEEKS and i’ve been gaining and losing the same 4lbs for the past year 😭😭😭

he doesn’t even have ana and he’s still better at it than me 🥲🔪

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great news guys

my bf is going on a cut and is taking it super seriously. which means i can go on a cut with him too

it’s been so hard to stay within my cal limit around him bc we’d go out to eat/get fast food/etc but now we’re like doing this together

and he keeps saying like “you don’t need to lose weight” “your cut doesn’t need to be that low” etc etc which makes me feel good 🥰

and he’s going on a trip for 6 weeks over the summer and i’ll miss him terribly but when he comes back i’ll be super skinny and hot and everything is gonna be perfect

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has anyone here gone from thinks-about-food-24/7 to forgets-to-eat and if so, how did you do it??

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when you're in a normal weight but your bone structure makes u WIDE AF BRO I HATE THIS SHIT GET ME OUT OF THIS FLESH PRISON

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freshman year of college i was rlly fat and broke so i like never ate because i was too anxious to go to the dining hall alone & too broke to buy food and groceries & i also didn’t have a car so i couldn’t drive anywhere without my friends taking me

moral of the story is i lost like 40lbs in a 5 month span so i’m gonna channel my inner freshman and pretend to be broke & physically unable to eat

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i feel like i’m gaining weight bc my pants feel tighter around my thighs than normal

idk why bc i haven’t been eating more than i normally do & im so so so so scared guys wtf help meeee

also anytime i eat ANYTHING my stomach bloats like crazy like i ate like 3 bites of chicken on an empty stomach the other day and it looked like i ate a full fckn meal it’s SO ANNOYING