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lok'tar ogar Che; Colorado

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this is quite the dedication

should i be honoured? also why did the “hateful anons” show up before the reblogs? can we just leave me alone now, it’s been years and i’m still being brought up

[squaredreality]

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North Korea is clearly the best Korea.

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I can’t fucking wait to go to Blizzcon.

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Also, I believe that I may have an iron deficiency.

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I have come to realise that people are idiots.

[eddiedeanwrites-deactivated2016]

[bombisbomb]

Baphomet Backpack

£29.99

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“Every step you take

Every knee that aches

Every story you fake

Every chair you break

I'll be oppressing you”

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It’s interesting to look at all my posts in the last few months and watch my mental health slowly deteriorating. Some parts are better, other parts are worse.

[catticus-maximus-blog]

To those of you who self-diagnose

If you feel like there is something wrong with you, go to a professional and get a proper diagnosis.  If you don’t like what you hear the first time, seek a second opinion.  Self diagnosis isn’t treating or curing yourself.  And for all you know there could be something really bad wrong with you that mimics the symptoms of whatever it is you think you have.  

If it turns out you do have ADHD or Bipolar Disorder or whatever, there are treatments that will improve your quality of life, and make things so much easier for yourself.  It’s okay to be scared, but your mental health is top priority! Do what is best for you, and don’t wait until you have done harm to yourself or someone else. 

If it turns out that you don’t have a mental illness, then kindly fuck off because you are an attention seeking asshole who is doing more harm than good. 

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Can’t wait for winter. Bring on the snow and skiing.

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I want to do something completely different with my hair, so I think I’m gonna end up doing some sort of side cut dealio here when I finally stop being lazy and get a damn hair cut. 

Just so afraid to actually get my hair done, since last time it got fucked up.

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I really wish you reblogged more nsfw stuff and showed us more of your sex side, what gets you off and whatnot.

Nothing. I am asexual.

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I found your blog by happenstances. I just wanted to say you're a wonderful human and I'm glad your making improvements to better yourself. I'm so proud of you <3

I have relocated, just so you know! And thank you for the kind words c:

It’s a struggle some days, but I’m sure I’ll pull through. <3

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random post here, but;

you know, i may have my shortcomings, but i own up to them. i am a shitty person some times. BUT, i am also a good friend to those who are good to me. i’m there for the people in my life that need it, and i ask for little in return. hell, i don’t even ask for you to be there for me.

i was in the hospital a bit over a month ago for threatening suicide. shit sucks, my life sucks, but instead of complaining about it, i’m doing shit to make it better.

i’m sure as fuck not where i want to be, but i’m no longer at rock bottom. my medication is starting to work, i feel more human than ever, and i can actually think straight. my mind isn’t muddled by depressive thoughts. 

hell, i’ve started exercising. this is incredibly uncharacteristic of me. and you know what? i feel great.

and what’s next? i’ll keep getting better.

get off your ass, stop making excuses, and improve yourself. it’s worth it.

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my plan is to run a mile every other day until i can do it without so much stress on my lungs. i should probably get an inhaler..... >.>

after that, i’ll do two miles, and so on.

been at a damn plateau for way too long now. 109.1 this morning.