My own brother said I was "cancelled" and that he wanted nothing to do with me because of an argument he got into with my boyfriend that had nothing to do with me. Now my boyfriend is back to being upset with me as well and threatening to leave again and said he doesn't want to spend Christmas with me this year even though we've spent the last 5 together. So basically my life is falling apart and I feel more alone than ever. I honestly do want to die. I don't even care about putting it out there anymore, it's true. If two of the people I care most about, including one my closest family members, can just cut me off or move away, I must not be worth much. I'm just so tired of life, what's the point? Everyone is going to leave eventually and I feel like I'm currently just living for other people anyway.
