[ojibwa]

tired of feeling everything i am going to take out my brain and rinse it in cold creek water

[prinsesaniya]

Life has been fantastic lately

[prinsesaniya]

So I did a thing with my hair

[prinsesaniya]

me documenting everytime i feel great part 8

[prinsesaniya]

Day 94 post breakup

I cannot believe it’s already been 3 months since Brendan and I broke up. I still have days where I breakdown and cry because I gave our relationship everything but it still wasn’t enough, I wasn’t enough. It doesn’t hurt as much as it used to though and I celebrate that everyday. I am beyond lucky that my friends are there to keep me company when the going gets tough and they have been making living everyday without him much easier. I would crumble to pieces without them.

A lot of things has changed since, I feel like I’m a new person but just a lot more trauma. One thing I noticed about myself is how I enjoy being on my own, I talk to a few people here and there but the freedom is addictive. But that’s not to say I don’t ever want to get into dating again, maybe just not as of now. I am still healing and I will be for awhile. I’ll know I’m ready when I no longer cry to songs because the pain hit too close to home. I’ll know I’m ready when I no longer get anxiety attacks at the thought of someone liking me and the possibility of me liking them and ruining the peace that I have found and come to love. I am terrified.

But I have plenty of hope that the day will come. When I’m ready. And I believe it’s going to be magical.

[prinsesaniya]

25 today ✨

[prinsesaniya]

new years eve with our exes 🙃

[prinsesaniya]

Gonna see my ex next week for the first time since the breakup and the thought is giving me mild anxiety attacks

[prinsesaniya]

me documenting everytime i feel great part 7

this healing was a lil bit expensive since i flew to barcelona for it

[glowithin-deactivated20220219]

2022 smells like success, healing, transformation, blessings and self love.

[sweetlikeacherry]

stop the self doubt and just decide that you are sexy. and then you will be

[prinsesaniya]

I am so annoyed cause when I’m starting to think I’m finally okay, all the memories come flooding back in and I’m crying again

[prinsesaniya]

me documenting everytime i feel great part 6

[prinsesaniya]

Day 52 post-breakup

me documenting everytime i feel great part 5

[amargedom]

“I was laying in bed one night and I thought ‘I’ll just quit— to hell with it.’ And another little voice inside me said ‘Don’t quit— save that tiny little ember of spark.’ And never give them that spark because as long as you have that spark, you can start the greatest fire again.”

—

[prinsesaniya]

Day 42 post breakup

I can’t believe I’m saying this or even doing this. It’s been more than a month now and I have found that I’m triggering myself intentionally just to feel the hurt again because I feel you slipping from my mind and I’m still not ready to let it all go.

This song describes exactly how I’m feeling and I should be happy that I’m not as sad as I used to be but it’s really hitting me that I’m moving on and happier that you’re no longer part of my life. I don’t think I can accept that just yet..

[prinsesaniya]

me documenting everytime i feel great part 4