stay what you are

hi i'm marisa, i'm twenty seven and i like music (links)

[thetommmoarchives]

how to livestream by one direction

[sunbathe]

me revisiting my scene phase playlist

[i124you]

me having a depressive episode

[danger]

One Hour Photo (2002)

[staraptor]

i hate it when u stop being friends w someone or u break up w someone cos uve got all this information about them like at the back of ur mind like their birthday or their favorite game or whatever, and even years later things will come up and you’ll think about that person and its like. oh. and it never really Stops

[pseudo-comfort]

there’s truly nothing that will fuck your brain up more than having someone you made a life with start dating someone 2 months after you break up.

it’s like, did our relationship mean anything? did everything we ever did together mean anything? did he know this person while we were dating?

I try really hard to push these thoughts OUT of my brain but they come back when I try to rsvp to an event on fb and I see he’s interested or one of our friends posts a photo or status and his gf comments or likes it. Ph*lly is big, but it’s not big enough times like these.

[pseudo-comfort]

the new ovl*v came out and within seconds of the first song on the album playing, I started crying. I have such an ache in my chest and it hurts.

all I can think about is all the times I listened to them. driving in the mountains with the windows down, feeling blissful. and laying in bed looking up at the red and blue lights on the ceiling while so high I couldn’t move. I think of brian and how he isn’t here to hear the songs. and steve sitting cross legged on the floor singing his songs for brian’s memorial.

i am pretty sure i had heard these songs before - way before the album came out. they sound too familiar to me. it’s the strangest feeling I’ve felt in a really long time.

[theboyfriendstagram]

Text posts relatable for directioners part 21?

[visualtraining-deactivated20240]

do i believe in romance…not sure. am i obsessed with it…absolutely

[unchildhood]

AZRA TABASSUM (or @5000letters)

from My Heart is Full of Open Windows;

original photos and edit

[uvparadise]

[pinklucozadeee-deactivated20190]

Harry asking permission to read fans’ signs/sharing their news

[pseudo-comfort]

i wish i didn’t let my guard down to people who have proved time and time again that they do not care about me™

[harrv]

Harry introducing SOTT New York City Two, NY (06/22)

[whiteknightonasteed]

Eyes closed, a private smile behind the flag.  MAKE AMERICA GAY AGAIN 🌈 

 Philadelphia. 15th June, 2018. Edit of original by EMILY PIXELS (top) Edit of original by BMINOR PHOTOGRAPHY (below)

[letsmakesomeonehappytoday]

“The boys and the girls are in, I mess around with him”, Hershey, 14/06/2018

[pseudo-comfort]

Sometimes I just ache from missing so many things.

[pseudo-comfort]

since it’s warm out it’s making me miss laying on my roof every day listening to music, and drinking cheap beer with all my friends. spending 3 summers doing that will make ya feel a type of way.

caelinn invited me to visit her in lbi this summer and I was like, honestly that may hurt me. it was our place, and thinking about him sharing it with someone else hurts. it’s okay though, I am doing really really really well. the only time I have thought of him in a way was when I quit my job last week - because it made me think that he’d be proud of me probably. he used to beg me to because it made me feel so badly all the time, until it became my literal home.

after I got home that night I sobbed for over an hour, I couldn’t stop. I know everyone will still be my friend, but to not see my people every day anymore is scary and it’s a big change. It didn’t really hit me until then. It’s okay though.