more than my own mind

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I’ve always believed the most effective method of passing knowledge is through the telling of experience. Writing always came from somewhere deep and yet beyond the understanding of myself, almost as if I was learning as each word was formed. The ideas would burn like a fever until I purged them, it never mattered if they were ever read, only that the fever cooled for a short time.

As I began to awake, as the barrier between worlds began to open within me, I slowly became aware of the mechanics of life through the sensuality of the subtle forces, the importance of mental discernment and non judgement. Learning to trust my intuition no matter how against the grain it seemed st the time, letting go of material posessions, understanding the importance of communication through the heart space, the designed limitations of language and the poison that is the herd mentality residing in all culture.

It is now possible to be here and now of our own free will, those carrying a vibration high enough to see the world differently will be confronted with a dilemma, perhaps the dilemma that will be their defining moment. The acceptance that your personal reality is not shared, nor accepted by those around you, friends and family. You may be faced with the decision to walk away from those you love in order to search for those you love time and time again. This is the sweet sadness, layers upon layers of purpose in constantly arriving, not just in location, but how you choose to define the present moment, and you in it.

I’m slipping into poetic license here so I will drive through a point because I have laundry to fold before another journey. This individual existence of self seeking is predicated on the desire and declaration through whatever expression available of your sovereignty of mind, body and spirit. Rejection of the herd mentality and the belief you determine your ideas of self fulfillment based on your greatest excitement, not the expectation of other individuals nor of societal norms. Ultimately becoming a co creator in the ever present moment, which is all there ever is!

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there is no empath owners manual

When I really began to awake, feeling everything else was completely overwhelming. Its as if I was being forced to process all this information, all this energy at once, add communication from the spirit relms and, well to be honest im a bit suprised im still sane. Apparently im very adaptable because my life and my understanding of life is completely, completely diffrent than before. I felt it was necessary to step away form people very importiant in my life for a complete understanding of what this new understanding was. With each experience though I have creeped closer to a deeper understanding, all my preconceptions all my anticipations on what to expect..it all turned out to be something diffrent. I feel like im rambling, because I just write and wait for something to inspire me, then I imagine you reading and I begin to question what I am trying to say to you, anyways, empaths.. its great when vibrations are high and it feels like the wave will last forever, time slows down and there is just this perfect moment that cannot be imporved upon. Inevitably it drops off and life seems less because its not up there. Then you pick up some of that dense vibration, its pain and it hurts you. If you feel your sheilds aren't strong enough, they wont be and you let all that pain in and make it yours, and suddenly this gifted perception becomes a curse and you don't want it anymore, this isn't what you signed up for. The challenges presented to you are challanges with no definite solution, no tech support, no empath owners manual. Sometimes you just have to remind yourself the pain doesn't belong to you, learn to move those dense energies deep into the earth, breathe it in and out, pick a mantra, learn to ask for help. After a little practice the pain may pass through you but it will not stick. Remember you want this, you came here for this perception in this age of transformation. You can feel the pain of others and absorb it, learn to despense with it and you are on the path of the healer and we will change this world together.

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Internet: thought energy?

Once upon a time my mind was a carefully selected series of ideas, neatly stacked and orderly. My notions and opinions of myself and the world around me, my sanctuary inside the relative chaos of life. A proverbial wind of change through an inexplicable experience would displace one or two of these ideas at one time, and the slow dance to a greater understanding is underway as I readjust my reality to compensate. However, lately, too many of the fundamentals sunk deeply into the foundations of my beliefs have blown over and scattered themselves. There is now a severe challenge to find words to describe something that is pure feeling, to intellectualize concepts and imagery where words can't go, challenging especially when I've invested so much of myself into words, language and this internal voice. Its all going away now, and I feel myself dissolving. I actually had a point to this post, something I've thought about a lot lately, and possibly the reason why I've been avoiding divulging thoughts lately. Ever ponder the allure of the internet and social media through the wonder that is this interweb. What a great technology right? Connectivity that spans the globe, I assume the words I am writing right now will exist forever in a information vault forever, somewhere. However having the ability to perceive over multiple frequencies tells me more. I've mentioned after posting thoughts being audience to cords of others. So how is this possible? Do I imprint my thought energy. Do these words hold something specific so that as these thoughts are absorbed, I sense that on some level. Why are large corporations purchasing these websites where we only exchange ideas? Anybody with half a mind would be able to tell you advertising kills websites, but it happens anyways. My theory is this internet in a thought energy matrix, in which we transmit and receive. Its why we flip and flip over thoughts and start reading for seeming no reason. Its our reason for connections despite never meeting that person, this it not just words on a screen, it is a thought energy matrix, think about it for a while.

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feeling the moon tonight

I swear the full moon comes through when I really need it, well want it. Its hard to open up to people when feeling so deeply. Not completely trusting the emotions or the reasons, but the bond is unmistakable and impossible at the same time, then one morning you reach out for it. And its closed off. Im as confused putting it to words as it is to read most likely. So there is a definate void until the moon rises and boom this amazing feeling of sweetness and intoxication sweeps through and blankets me, I pass in and out of conciousness for about 3 hours. Then of course decide to drive up to my cabin near tahoe for a little tree time.

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So much, and I mean so much has been happenning lately. The spaces of time between life altering perceptions have been occuring so rapidly I haven't been able to deconstruct and therefore elaborate the experience. The earth is crazy awake right now, for lack of a better term. Earth conciousness is ramping up, humanity, our bodies, belong to this earth. I connect in a very simple way...triangle pointed downward, that simple. You can go upward too, but i higly suggest down. The codes in our human dna are activating. Did you really believe science when they claimed something like 70 percent of our dna was junk? Actual terminology, junk. Well its not junk, everything within us has a purpose. Most dna is etherial, remember we are multi dimensional beings. Its all available, right. Now. If you have any sort of future intention for self improvement, any dream you wish see fullfilled, now is the perfect time! So basically I've spent much of my free time spanning the etherial planes, I've been locked out for so long its like learning to walk again after being in a coma. Some things I can't explane, language can only go so far, that's why you just have to make the plunge and devote yourself to the path of your choosing. One last thing before I go witness what's left of this Sunday.there are so many diffrent divisons in understandings right now, that's great, I celebrate that. But after a while I am this and that, I am from this tribe, group, planet, star system if fun, but within the framework of a unity conciousness, this will become a hinderance. In my humble opinion its nessessary to abandon these ideas, for now anyways. I am something more and I am free, but I don't care where my home used to be. Beauty is everywhere and in all eyes I see family.

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What are you doing to change the world? What will others say you have accomplished? How are you saving others? These are all loaded questions, these are story lines we feel we have to act out, because its what we observe in popular culture. The good guys and bad guys going at it, good guy wins at the end, or does he? Life is not so black and white, a multi layered existence isn't color at all, its not time nor space but once you get that far perspective fades so where is the balance? Balance is that equal measure, that perfect tension between two opposing forces. My true nature is the neutral perspective and it is through this, I am what needs to be to create balance, it just happens. If there is enough lower vibration energy, my crown will open in response, enough pain and my heart chakra illuminates, too much revelry and merriment and I grow introverted. Another way to see it is if the bathwater has become too cold, add hot enough water and the bath becomes warm. Be your nature but remember there are always more than two choices.you may also create a silent change that heal the earth

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Can you feel it?

Its close to noon here in central california and I should be sleeping, but I can't. I've been working all night, but its not what you think. Its not any kind of pain or suffering keeping me from slumber but an incredible lightness in the air today, a powerful love. I never thought I would have to shield myself from such an beautiful feeling. This world truly is changing, what an amazing time to be alive!

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Cords

Every living being on this planet is connected, in some way to everything else on this planet and beyond. Animals simply know what to do the moment they exist, this is because they are connected to a conciousness matrix. Humans and other mammals are no diffrent, we just function on a higher plane. The level we experience on this connective plain varys, but in order to survive we must be connected in some way. Cords are the very connections that bind us to everything. From a neutral perspective I see cords as white or indigo colored pin of light, at times they burn for a up to 90 seconds, but usually only 3 or 4 sec. After I publish a post, I can observe clusters of cords, so really, who needs silly little hearts to justify our perspective. Its the cord that reveals a preminision, or you think of someone, THEN you immediately get the text or phone call from that person. However, These same cords or connections can become overwelming or painful, many of you are becoming sick. You have to teach yourself to clense and/or sever these cords when necessary. Don't be afraid to ask for help from whatever source you choose. An angel, a loved one passed on. Perhaps an obscure diety. The only requirement is you believe in what you are asking for and not expect an immediate reaction.

Personally, the method I use to clense myself is based on a technique called blowing roses, except i began substituting roses for a stack of photographs. Relax yourself and let go of any immediate concerns. Invite all spirit guides to remove themselves from your aura. Now visualize strings or threads entering into your body, cut them all, don't worry, the good ones will grow back. Feel, them falling away, feel yourself getting lighter. Now, Using to power of imagination begin to flip through a stack of photographs, pull one at random, no expectation. It may be something from your childhood or something from a completely diffrent lifetime in a completely diffrent world, now that's the good stuff right there, that means your digging deep into your lightbody. Now feel that picture disolve or melt or burn, the importiant thing is you are, through your own free will letting go and forgiving so that you may transform.

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The attainable state of being

I have never looked up the word truth in the dictionary, at times it seems confused with fact. Truth for me means the perspective based on experience. However when one is experiencing on multiple vibrational planes simultaneously, perspective has the tendency to get lost. I’ve spoke of the light and the dark, the perspective of duality in all things. Dark is certianly a struggle, however necessary. Light is equally a struggle. For one to exist so must the other, the only question is where can these two polaritys find the balance. By balance I am refering to the opportunity for the most efficient return to source, the answer: neutrality. Neutrality is a higher state of being than the other two combined.

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There is always a greater perspective

The last month has been a total game changer for this blogger. I've devoted a great deal of thought as to why others could not break these cycles of destructive behavior, how others can be led like sheep, feed into lies and fear, over and over. I get it now, in short the game has been rigged on the asteral planes. This planet has been taken hostage for more lifetimes than you can count.

In the begining the dynamics of coming into this world was great. Born a blank slate, coming to a more perfect understanding of ourselves through experience. Eventually, over many lifetimes through a multitude of experiences, we would ascend to the next vibratory realm. Each one coming closer to becoming co- creators. Unfortunately this system was highjacked, and a blessing turned into a curse.

The systems of astral control are unraveling as you read this. In desperate response come the many comedy of errors, designed to keep people stuck, but its all in vein. They lose, the game is over.all their strongest players have been ejected. Now comes all the true work in rebuilding the upper structures and soon this one. But imagine a chance to actually go to work, for the first time making efforts to improve the whole of existance, not just laboring simply to exist. Its moments like this I'm just so grateful to be right here, right now so I may witness this great awakening. Not only witness that percise moment in anothers eyes but be able to immediately hold out my hand and say welcome, now let's get to work.

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I'm sitting under a 300 foot sequoia tree. The air is cold and the sky is covered in drifting clouds. I sit there and feel, while others, many others walk up snap a photo or two then walk away. I sit and listen to all the diffrent languages being spoken. Peoples faces and scents. 15, 25, 35 mins pass and finally a drifting patch of blue sky let's the suns golden rays through. Blinded by white heat and contentment, my eyelids become likestained glass, and after one min of bliss the clouds return and I wait, again.

If there is anything I have learned in this life it is to know when to stop. To stop and do nothing but observe and in doing so reveal to yourself an ancient contentment and understanding

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welcome to today

i guess the greatest misconception when it comes to beyond of what we can see or know is we are apart from it, because we have been conditioned to believe we apart from it. take a moment and look around you, so many things exist, so many ideas have been repeated over and over again in order to make you believe you are separate from every other person, condition, situation, and result. well the world is changing, life is changing, the way we see this world is changing, for the better and guess what, you are apart of it all. not only are you apart of it, we cannot do it without your efforts, yes you. what effort you ask? simply know we are winning. if you are feeling the overwhelming desire to search, by all means search. keep in mind though, what you are really looking for is not out there, but within. finding your own strength while others play out the roles of your inner projections. of course i had to search, i left what i called home so many times i lost the idea of home, now i find home in the eyes of strangers, and i feel life, i feel connections in jolts, ringing, vibration, thoughts, and emotions just to name a few. this is our world, our life and until the final human being finds peace we will all carry at times, heavy loads.

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Etheric

I'm sure there are volumes on this subject, I'm no expert mind you, but I am getting quite good at using this unseen force, just to give myself a bit of a pat on the back. When I first awakened, that is to say when I first became aware of a force within my body, I immediately began to play with, uh, myself. I would take this energy, or force, or sensation and swing it from the front of my solar plexus out about a foot i front of my solar plexus( out of my body) then behind me. After playing that game for a month or so I would teach myself to bring energy up from the earth, this energy is somewhat dense, up through my body. Meanwhile I would bring down energy from above my head, this energy is of a higher vibration. I knew I was doing it right when my heart center would begin to illuminate, from my heart a combination of the two frequencies, of two worlds meet here to create something that is quite beautiful and amazing, sweeter and more intoxicating than anything you could imagine. For some this is the threshold of what a psychic is, one able to differentiate between earth and cosmic energies. It's this joining from which a healer is born and one is able to shield which is important for those living with multiple perceptive abilities including empathy.

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It's just an observation, but I couldn't help but notice the indigo child tag is a bit dried up lately. In all honesty I've never been 100 percent on board with that label. I haven't been huge on the list of abilities either. Generalizations can be dangerous for lazy people like me, we'll maybe not completely lazy but I'm definitely laid back. What I'm trying to say is try not to completely feed into others interpretations of what is. I try real hard not to label myself because I feel to label something is to diminish the miracle of spirit to become anything without limits but we become limited because we are too content to just fit in, even if it is within the framework of an evolutionary evolvement, it's still a rigid structure and those suck! Now that that tidy little rant is out of the way and I feel anything I talk about after is going to be a complete contradiction, I've been contemplating where to take this blog. Well it's always been about me and my experiences but I want to begin talking about the etheric. Ether is a lot like a black hole in space, I can't prove it's there but I can observe its influence on everything surrounding it. I can feel its influence on me certainly and foremost, it's there, trust me. Think of either as the force from Star Wars. It surrounds us, enfolds us we are it, it is us. It is what makes all psychic phenomon possible. It carried emotion, information and memory. It transcends our concepts of time and space. It can be gathered and dispersed using the power of the mind and the power of imagination. When it comes to the unseen there is no more importiant tool than imagination, save what we call unconditional love.

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3rd eye

I'm in a well lit room with a large window, outside is dark. The window reflects the interior light like a mirror, all I see is myself and my immediate surroundings. I pace to a dimmer switch and slowly begin to dial down the luminance, the outer world previously hidden under my own reflections become definable. I reach an equilibrium where both my outer and inner vision attain focus. I continue to dim until the room is completely dark, now I inhabit the empty space and it is the outside view that is given life in motion. I am constantly living this process in one form or another. The lighted room is all the distraction, experience, searching, finding, losing, winning....well you get the point. The outside contains what I can't fit inside. Everything I am not ready to admit or not ready to understand. Deprive the senses long enough and you will see I close my eyes, there is never nothing. First there is static Next, A photo negative like image of whatever I was just staring at Then, a dense Forest of eyelashes An eye appears From within the eye appears what needs to appear Maybe birds in flight Or a face Or a symbol If you think about what you see for even a moment it will disappear, and your going to think about it, because there is a dream happening and you are not sleeping Because there is a face and you want so badly to know why See enough and you will begin to realize we want it all to mean more than it actually does Maybe I just get bored easily By now you see the dimmer switch is the mind Begin to perceive and not think about or understand, I realize its counter intuitive to the rationale Of intelligence, I have yet to develop a method to think my way into spirit

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when i write its because i don't want to forget. I know how to be weak and when to be strong. In the ways we are all on some kind of borrowed time. In the ways we all watch our hair turn to silver. It's the same place we ask the questions, who am I or what am I for? I write because I don't want to forget feeling small, and I love to dream.

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just thinking

ever stood at the edge of the ocean. watching the land and water gently trade. i choose to believe in flow. just when it seems complications reach a critical point, pressure is released and we let go. thats what i choose, the active release. i can let go and allow what remains unseen and unexplained to pass through. when its time to strengthen up, establish borders so its just me again, i look for the love of self, my identity and its just me again. knowing the difference between love and fear is essential. love can open and close the door from within, fear kicks the door in from outside, making it difficult to close again. one perspective i found helpful, when you feel a presence, especially see. that energy in which you perceive is already from within you, projected out. there is in fact no you and it, but simply y'all. see all experience as one and theres nothing to fear. don't know if that came across, but, hey. 

i walk or drive down the street and i am able to connect with some peoples feelings. as if i carry an invisible lasso. its a life where everybody carries a bowl of jellybeans and likes to share. some people protect themselves, or maybe they're on a frequency i cant detect, or not meant to, or whatever, its all just for the purpose of experience. learning while living in happiness.