I want to be Loved
I want to be Loved.
Is myself rotten Inside? (Part 1)
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There was a time when I was like
I'm sick, I’m sick of it,
I’m sick of fake people, fake friends, fake love and fake me,..
I’m sick of everything..
Someone well said: The world is cruel. Cruel worse than you think..
But yeah, Life Goes On…
Wounds will heal with time. Yes wounds will heal with time. But the pain from that wounds remains same.
I was dying behind that smile on my face. I was screaming for help. I was screaming out loud inside but no one listened. I wanted to ask for help that these wounds giving me a lot of pain that I can not handle on my own.
Yes I can not handle my pain that was why I decided to run away. Yes Run away from that pain.
I kept running and running and running on a dark road where I can’t even saw properly without any goal, carrying that fake smile on my face. And I was like ‘Yes, I am Fine’.
But deep inside I was not really fine. At some point I was tired of keep running I wanted to stop but I can’t.
Am I never be my self I used to be? Can I ever smile again?
I was thinking that am I really rotten inside?
(Part - 2)
Yes even I’m not real me..all of me is fake..the smile, the living, the love, every is fake in me..i don’t know when was I last got really happy..i want to feel that again..the happiness..i don’t know when was my heart last beated for someone…
I think even if the death is near me…I will feel nothing…I want to feel emotions like I used to
Now I’m start to realize its okay to not feel anything…the emotions makes you weak…