[qilins]

there is a huge void in my life and nobody else can fill it but me and im entirely incapable of being up to the task

[qilins]

i feel so anxious and i want to die

[qilins]

suicidal venting

im afraid i will take my life before i have the chance to be loved

my life is so nothing right now. my room is full of dumb hoarded crap that im not using or selling to make space and im tired of the pressure of not dealing with it. its such a dumb problem

i wish my most recent ex had actually wanted me like he always said he did but it was the most halfassed, pathetic show of lust i had ever seen. im completely alone now and i want to die

how am i supposed to help myself. everything is pointless its not like i ever invited anyone to my apartment but now it would be so embarrassing and uncomfortable because i dont even have a couch to sit on. i hate my life in every aspect. i need to get rid of all the dumb shit taking up space in my flat and then invest in a gun to kill my useless pathetic unlovable self

[glowcowboy]

holding my own hand again. it will not feel like this forever

[qilins]

how do i stop abandoning myself and understand that i need to be my own best friend

I currently just dont have any interest in being nice to myself

[rosieandthemoon]

eternal

[ardent-reflections]

There are times when I am convinced I am unfit for any human relationship.

Franz Kafka

[spacedstarz]

i lay my head , devoted to you .

[qilins]

a rainy day in georgia, december 2021

[thisisadigitaldiary]

it’s the smallest habits. how you spend your mornings. how you talk to yourself. what you read. what you watch. who you share your energy with. who has access to you. that will change your life.

[iluvmethemost]

[qilins]

dont you put that evil on me ricky bobby

[stalgivc]

The veil is thin

[nightmarereverie]

[qilins]

jacking off to the thought of my bright future

[carokoninjin]

[rivercreature]

faerie sightings