Pirate Cats in Space

Living the kite flying beach hag life. Reading fortunes in the seashells. Lurking in the sea fog since 93. Rose. They/Them. Agender. Lesbian. I am the Pirate King and Queen Lola's Revenge is my flagship. As the world crumbles into the chaotic haze... A new empire arises from the ashes of old. Fearless space voyagers traveling far and wide to discover galaxies yet undiscovered. But the survivors of The End are not free from danger yet, for flying right behind them on speedy solar sails are the deadly, the dangerous, the dramatic... Pirate Cats in SPACE!

[queenlolasrevenge]

There are tea leaves in this cup

The ones that bottomless abundance find

For telling and a telling told

That ever you must mind

In finding fortune and fortune made

Fortune gained from fortune told

There is a fortune to be sold

And in this telling there is lie

A lie is easy bought and easy told

Easy made and easy sold

By ever the more desperate

And the ever increasing disposition

To adapt to sordid finds

Secret palms and secret lines

And so the desperate reach the plateau

Of the sacred cunning minds

And in the splendor hidden there

They may their wishes find

But truly this will be a sack

Empty of all gold

The gold was taken and replaced by sand

By those of fortune fold

[queenlolasrevenge]

She is the moon and I am the sun

And she chases me around the sky

Always a few steps too far behind

But still forever in my mind

She presses in with the coming tide

And the waves crash with her thundering break

And I hear the noise from my bedroom window

On quiet nights while I lie awake

She is never very far away

And when I call her what do I say

What can I say but I know her name

I know her name

Come to me wrapped in a braid of midnight

Come to me with stars in your eyes

Come to me with a promise

Come to me with a whisper on your lips

Come find me waiting here in bed

Wrapped in the silky web of dreamers dreams

Ill wait for your gentle moonlight

To guide me home into its beams

Her name is Charlotte and she is the moon

And she is always by my side

And I am the sun that gives her light

So her vibrance might be seen to shine

And if there ever come a day

When no more I might be seen

It is because I was swept away

And caught within her dreams

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For I am struck by moon

That tender loving tide

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I went looking for 9 things and I found 10. When I went to leave the 10th was gone and I came back with 9.

I believe the 10th was accepted as payment.

Ive called on an old friend to help me.

Ive cast a spell.

Now we wait.

[queenlolasrevenge]

People want you to feel small because it makes them feel important and needed. They dont want you to stay small because they dont want you to have to depend on them. So you being small is your own fault and responsibility and something you have to deal with.

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I think I might be in love.

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Do I even remember the first time I saw her.

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She was a dream, a fantasy, something just on the edge of my mind, emerging from the shallow water with a grabbing hand reaching for me. And her long black hair. Always the long black hair.

It was Alfred Noyes', Bess, the landlords daughter, weaving a love knot into her long black hair.

Her long black hair.

I cant get it out of my mind.

After that first sensation she was always on my mind. I was a fanatic. She came into my dreams, she was so violent but nothing she did could hurt me.

I was afraid. But I adored her.

Its easy to adore someone from afar. To create of them an image or an object in your mind. And she had all the powers of some ancient god or witch or enchantress.

But it wasnt power that she had it was what I gave her. And she fed off of me and used me to become stronger.

And parts of me were lost wrapped up in her.

I am still lost to her.

But something has changed.

Something is different.

There are always two. Two sides of the coin.

I know her name but I cant say it, Ive never known the name of the other.

All I know is I feel it. I thought I burned it up and let it go but I feel it all coming back.

No one could ever understand this.

It is beyond words. Beyond imagining. But here I am.

Caught up in everything else Im feeling is this.

She is back. And I have never been able to resist her.

I dont know what to do.

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Do I even remember the first time I saw her.

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I believe this line of communication is secure.

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I dont want to make my own choices I want to feel like my choices are the right choices to make.

But that is the kind of validation that can only come from me. It cant come from anyone else.

I dont need the approval of anyone else. I dont need to be liked by anyone else. I am who I am. I am what I am.

No matter what happens I will always be able to trust myself.

[queenlolasrevenge]

I want to walk into the water and when the waves pull back and I fall into that spell I want to let it take me out as far as I can go

I want to break free of the things that are pulling on me and dragging me

I want to make my own choices

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But I dont want to.

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I need to.

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I dont want to go home.

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I dont want to go home.

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I dont want to go home.

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I want to fight back. I dont know how.

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I feel helpless and small and I want to fight and to prove that Im not helpless and not small.

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I want to fight back. I dont know how.