Kevin popping 3 ibuprofen every 6 hours and people think it’s bc he’s hurt his hand or his ankle but really he’s on his period and his cramps are killing him. 10x grumpier than usual and 100x more babyish. He’s a princess who gets everything he wants or is bitchy all day and everybody has to be Super nice to him or he’ll cry
Ah ha ha…anon don’t worry. Bc I have that. This is gonna get LONG bc I’ve been thinking about it a LOT.
Truly I don’t think Kevin gets diagnosed until he’s already graduated and in the pros. There are just more important matters at hand (playing exy, getting grief therapy for Riko’s death, therapyy for his undeniable ptsd, his studies, building a relationship w/ his father, etc etc etc).
He doesn’t realize that what he’s feeling is actually an Issue during his remaining college years because A) he’s been feeling it for so long that is feels instrinsic to him and B) he assumes that everybody feels that way, so he makes justifications for everything. He was raised in the Nest. The things he witnessed and experienced (while unaccceptable and he knows and acknowledges) are worse than the happenings in his own head. He’s a young man so of course he’ll have a high libido. So what if sometimes he feels like he’s going to die if he doesn’t fuck something, if he twists the most platonic touches into something grossly sexual? It’s weird, and makes him feel shameful, but when he throws himself into the game all of that melts away. There are more important things he needs to worry about.
Kevin is actually really good at just. Not acknowledging things by shoving attention into something else. He’s not compartmentalizing. He’s avoiding. See the alcoholism. He loves exy, and he’d put all his energy into it regardless! The fact that it helps tamp down on the weird tightness of his skin and the burning urge in his groin is just a bonus. (Kevin Day is a big perfunctory masturbator. He tries to do it at little as possible because when he does indulge in that urge it feels like he can’t stop)
The reason why he gets help when he goes Pro is because his violent sexual fantasies are getting worse. To the point they’re actively impeding his ability to focus from day-to-day because he can’t stop being sucked into them. He knows, logically, that he doesn’t actually Want any of these things he’s thinking of.
I believe that while Kevin may put away the task of bringing it up to his therapist for a little while (again, that shame), it slips into his sessions eventually. And he’s finally able to put a name to what he’s been feeling (which I feel is a common Kevin thing. He kind of needs people to tell him which things aren’t “normal” or common because he simply just doesn’t know and isn’t curious to find out unless it gets in the way of his game. His autism diagnosis is a coincidence)
Kevin has to develop like. Actual skills to cope with this. Part of his general therapy goals is finding things Other than exy to find comfort in — reading, movie analysis, history books, clubbing/dancing again (SAFELY). Another goal is having a healthier relationship with intimacy and sex, which the hypersexuality kind of struggles against, but he’s got good friends who look after him and make sure he doesn’t disappear with strangers/big groups of people and properly curates his hook ups so he isn’t inherently looking for trouble.
I think the fact that he orbited around Neil and Andrew for all of college kind of kept his feelings at bay because they always allowed him on the court and they rarely let him out of their sight whenever they went out or were around other teams (for general Kevin Safety reason). So it’s harder now. But he’s Kevin Day and he manages because he has no choice but to manage.
And ofc this can mean so much for Kevin’s romantic and sexual relationships as well. He’s doing a heavy introspection of every crush or romantic feeling he’s had and trying to separate it from the hypersexuality to make sense of it. And that’s a whole thing he has to deal with.
A Kevin who thinks all his thoughts and vaguely violent fantasies and are actually so normal and chill and not strange. And then he talks to a therapist and goes “oh!!! Huuuuuuh……”
And it puts SO many things into perspective for him but also makes him question every close relationship he’s ever had. And then ofc his subsequent attraction. Like does he actually wanna sleep with that person or is that the hypersexuality again
It’s definitely not fun and he has to take up journaling or verbally expressing his urges when he gets them to help process. Kevin has had many introspective conversations now with Andrew and Neil and Jean and Jeremy and even Nicky. And it helps bit by bit
Anon if you look at alll the subtext and also close your eyes and choose which option is more fun, then you can believe Kevin and Andrew had sex. Or even better - Kandrew mutual masturbation but never actually crossing the line
I think Kevin is actually so long overdue for a public-facing child star breakdown. Especially after facing literally years of abuse and then his subsequent alcoholism. When does he get on TV and say “FUCK tetsuji and FUCK Riko and FUCK Exy and FUCK THIS!”
After the Olympics...they've just won and Kevin is over the moon. And yet. The reporter shoves a mic in his face and asks:
Isn't this win bittersweet without Riko? The game was close. You really could have used Riko out there. What a star he would have been - we miss him every day. Would you like to dedicate this win to him?
And Kevin just stares at the reporter.
Then he laughs. He laughs like nobody has ever heard him laugh before. It is broken and jagged around the edges just like his mental health is. And he just snaps.
He goes on a Neil Josten you know I get it rant and it only ends because Andrew drags him off before he gets himself killed.
Kevin Day who is vehemently against getting another cat bc of the fur and he and his boyfriends already have TWO vs the little black kitten that literally walks into his hands when he opens his door to leave for practice. And he’s so small and well behaved and perfectly black all over. Ofc Kevin is still hesitant — it’s a cat off the streets and it doesn’t have a collar and it might have fleas, worms even — but Andrew books a vet apartment then and there, so they skip practice to get the kitten checked out. And on their way to the vets office the cat falls asleep in Kevin’s lap. He’s a goner.
Kevin Day who is vehemently against getting another cat bc of the fur and he and his boyfriends already have TWO vs the little black kitten that literally walks into his hands when he opens his door to leave for practice. And he’s so small and well behaved and perfectly black all over. Ofc Kevin is still hesitant — it’s a cat off the streets and it doesn’t have a collar and it might have fleas, worms even — but Andrew books a vet apartment then and there, so they skip practice to get the kitten checked out. And on their way to the vets office the cat falls asleep in Kevin’s lap. He’s a goner.
I think Kevin is actually so long overdue for a public-facing child star breakdown. Especially after facing literally years of abuse and then his subsequent alcoholism. When does he get on TV and say “FUCK tetsuji and FUCK Riko and FUCK Exy and FUCK THIS!”
AFTG AU where everything is the same but they’re working in the worst most annoying office space known to man so it’s not. The foxes are small shitty subsidiary office in some backwater town and the ravens are the main corporate head honchos.
Imagine Exy stock. Exy Bitcoin even. Kevin Day in tight fitted slacks. Neil Josten intern. Uuuuh. Imagine the most annoying most passive aggressive email chain known to man. Super annoying clients. The works.
I had a dream about watching haikyuu and immediately started imagining Kevin playing beach volley ball and well. I don’t think he’d excel at it but I think he’d have fun
Introduced Thea as a bad bitch and said she could hold her own against Matt in a fight. The onlt canonically on page black character in my bullshit fixation. And the public expects me to hate her. The public expects me to raise my pitchfork and my torch. And to that I say: Go to heeeeeeell omg go to hell!! Enough!!
“Oooh I’m Kevin Day. I’m neurotic and bossy and mean and I’m the best on the court and I’m 6ft tall and I have gorgeous hair and I’m the Queen of the court. I was on the Raven’s Perfect Court and I will make Court after graduation and despite by shitty attitude I have men willing to defend me in every corner.” Man fuck youuuuu
“Oooh I’m Kevin Day. I’m neurotic and bossy and mean and I’m the best on the court and I’m 6ft tall and I have gorgeous hair and I’m the Queen of the court. I was on the Raven’s Perfect Court and I will make Court after graduation and despite by shitty attitude I have men willing to defend me in every corner.” Man fuck youuuuu