whatever.

don't do love, don't do friends, i'm only after success.

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we need to talk - naomi ft. quinn

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“I know, I know, I wish things weren’t as complicated.” Naomi brushed strands of her hair behind her ears. “I think she said she’s going to hang with her family overseas for a while. I think she needs some time away.” She shrugged. Naomi wished it didn’t have to come to this. “To be honest, I don’t know what I want. I-I don’t want this to be my last memory of you though.”

“Naomi, pick. Just pick. What do you want? Just tell me. Because you aren’t being clear.” Quinn wasn’t even sure of what she wanted. But -- if she knew what page Naomi was on .. maybe if would make her decision easier. “You’re not making any of this easy for me. You’re mad at me, then you’re not. You’re disappointed in me, then you’re not. Tell me what you want.”

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we need to talk - naomi ft. quinn

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“I-I- yeah…” Naomi felt stupid for having such an exaggerated reaction but in the moment, she couldn’t help it. “I know, you don’t have to apologize, it’s fine.” She shook her head. “I guess I came here to explain myself. I’m really sorry, Quinn. I just– I overreacted, I did.” She finaly laid her eyes on Quinn, hoping to other would accept her apology. Maybe she wouldn’t but at least she tried. “I’d understand if you didn’t want to talk to me or be my friend or whatever. I did say some awful things. I didn’t mean any of it, I promise.”

You couldn’t really hate someone, or be mad at them when you were in love with them. It was incredibly hard. Quinn could only sigh at Naomi, wondering what sort of game she was playing at. Things were going well. It was all Quinn’s fault anyway. She should have just left Jack’s place sooner ... “Naomi ... I don’t know. That’s entirely up to you. You could lose your friend over this. I wouldn’t want you to end up in some predicament where she asks you to choose. Or maybe she doesn’t. Maybe she doesn’t even want to be your friend anymore because you know me. Is that something you want? This isn’t just me or about me, Naomi.”

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we need to talk - naomi ft. quinn

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“I know, I know. I didn’t mean to… I didn’t mean to react the way I did. I just.” Naomi tried to give herself some time, hoping she’d be able to say what she had in mind. “You were there when I got cheated on. You knew how much it hurt me but you still– I mean, that’s what I don’t get. That’s why I got mad. It was partially about Melissa but also about me.” She sighed, unable to look at Quinn in her eyes. “I don’t know. I was being stupid, I’m sorry." 

Oh. So that’s what Naomi’s reaction was about. “That’s what this is about?” Quinn shook her head. “Naomi, I --” Quinn sighed. “I never cheated on you. I never would have either. Because I was content with you. I wanted you, nobody else. We ... drifted apart. But ... Naomi ....” Quinn bit at her lip. “I can’t ... apologize for bringing up a bad memory. I can’t apologize because I should k now how you feel because I happened to be someone that Jack cheated with. God knows if there was someone else.” She’d never considered that until now. But she figured it would take some of the heat off of her. 

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we need to talk - naomi ft. quinn

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Naomi sighed as she stood there. She didn’t really know how she’d go about expressing herself. She didn’t even know what to say. “I don’t know.” She shrugged, as she looked at the ground. This felt strange. “I just– I don’t like this. I don’t like being mad at you even when I should be.”

Quinn sighed. Naomi was being incredibly confusing. Quinn shrugged, her face mirroring her thoughts. “Then -- what?” Quinn didn’t know, and all she could do was ask Naomi. If she didn’t know either. Then they weren’t about to get anywhere with this. “Then what, Naomi? Nobody’s perfect. No one is. Especially me.” Quinn shrugged again. “If Jack and his fiancee’s relationship was strong enough in the first place, this never would have happened.” She probably shouldn’t have said that. But she could only say what was on her mind if this conversation was going to be an honest one.

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we need to talk - naomi ft. quinn

Naomi took a deep breath as she arrived to her destination. She hadn’t really thought of what she was going to say to Quinn. All she knew was that they were back into each other’s lives and it wasn’t meant to be like this. “It’s me. Open up.”

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Quinn opened the door, rolling her eyes as she did so. She stepped aside to allow Naomi to walk in, then closed the door behind her. Why did she even come? She was making things a lot harder than they had to be. “I don’t see what you coming here is going to change or fix about the situation, Naomi. What’s done is done. I can’t change it. Neither can Jack. You found out about it. It happened. Shit happens. What else do you want me to say?”

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text - nomi

naomi: fuck no

naomi: im coming to your place and we are going to work this out somehow

quinn: [read]

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text - nomi

naomi: well i dont know what to do. it wouldn't make sense for me to be buddies with the person who her ex-fiancé cheated on her with.

naomi: i need you to tell me what you want from me.

naomi: fuck. you can't always walk away quinn

quinn: you just said it wouldn't make sense to "be buddies" with me.

quinn: i dont know okay just forget it please honestly just forget it forget about me just forget it

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text - nomi

naomi: whatever you say, quinn. you're more concerned with me calling you out than understanding how much you AND jack hurt my friend.

naomi: if you don't care, why did you text me asking me what i wanted?

quinn: because i care more about you than your fucking friend.

quinn: just forget it.

quinn: bye

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text - nomi

naomi: well even if im not with you and we're barely even friends, you still hurt my best friend and ruin her potential marriage so i think my reaction was appropriate.

naomi: what do you want from me quinn? you want me to be on your side? you want me to not be mad? or to tell you that i was wrong for overreacting?

quinn: so it's my fault her fiance decided to cheat on her? because you seem to be casting full blame on me. i didn't ruin anyone's marriage. jack fucked up his own life. not me.

quinn: i don't care what you do.

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naomi: jack doesn't owe me shit. thats his issue with his now ex-fiancé. i dont have a past history with jack. he is not my ex, he isn't anything to me.

naomi: im not saying you owe me anything either. its just i dont know, i didn't think you'd do such a thing

naomi: i get that this is harsh but how am i supposed to react quinn?

quinn: uh????????????????????

quinn: i mean i'm not your girlfriend, we're barely even friends, so i think your reaction probably should have been staying out ofit.

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naomi: i don't see how i could be friends with someone who's causing so much pain to my best friend

naomi: i just thought you would be better than this

naomi: i dont regret falling in love with you, i have to agree that saying that was awful. but still, i didn't think you'd do something like this. i don't know what to do with us and i don't know what i want. all i know is that caring about you is stronger than me. its like natural to me. even if you hurt me or my best friend, i will always care about you, i cant help it.

quinn: did you give jack that speech too?

quinn: or is all the blame on me?

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quinn: what do you really want, naomi? bc i can't seem to figure it out. you tell me that you regret fallin gin love with me but you're pissed off because of my realtionship choices? you don't get to do that. all right? just so we're clear. if you regret fallin gin love with me, then you have no right to care about what i'm doing. i thought maybe we could be friends but obviously i was wrong.

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@quinngraces: raymond reddington is #daddy

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“Just try, at least.” Naomi knew that whatever Quinn told her wouldn’t change the way she felt about her now but still. She wanted to try. How could Quinn feel no obligation to justify herself? it was as if she didn’t care. Naomi was known for not caring about other people, being aloof and apathetic and still, she wouldn’t do that to anyone. She wouldn’t go out of her way to ruin other people’s life to that extend and she truly didn’t understand why Quinn had put herself in a situation like this. “But, wasn’t that the reason we broke up? You felt like you weren’t a priority so you broke up with me. And now, what? You purposely put yourself in a situation where you are second. How does that make sense?”

Quinn rubbed at her eyes and sighed. “Naomi .... fuck sake, why do you need an explanation if you regret falling in love with me? Why does the pain of my explanation matter to you if you have regrets about even caring about me.” Brad scoffed. She crossed her arms over her chest and pursed her lips. “You never tried. Did you know that? I told you how I felt, about being second and I literally had to beg you to take a few days off work to spend some time with me. I don’t need to beg Jack to spend time with me because I know he can’t. I don’t have to beg him to make me feel like he actually wants to be with me because there’s no chance that he wants to be. I know it sounds fucked up, but you know what? I don’t care.”

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My pals!!! My loves!!! I'm doing sort of okay. Kinda depressed. There's a category four hurricane heading my way again so I'll still be mia for longer. Hope you guys are all right. Love you.

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I don't know when I'll be on again my loves. There's a category five hurricane heading my way. I love you guys very much.

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“Stop calling me that.” Naomi moved slightly away from Quinn. She wouldn’t be able to be around her. She was so mad she wanted to cry. And crying didn’t come easily when it came to Naomi. “Yeah, I’m glad to hear the truth about you too. The amount of pain you might be feeling right now doesn’t amount to anything when I’m going to tell one of my closest friends that her fiancé is cheating on her.” She took a last look at Quinn before rolling her eyes. “Was it crazy for me to think that you were better than this?“ As she spoke, she could hear the sudden crack in her voice. Her vision was getting blurrier and that only meant one thing: She was probably about to cry. Naomi tried her hardest to not let that first tear drop as she proceeded with her questions. "You know, I heard rumours about this. I thought it was impossible. You told me about your new job, you seemed happy. Why would you do something like that? Why don’t you want to be someone’s first priority?”

Quinn frowned, Naomi was asking so many questions that she couldn’t even answer. “ I --” She didn’t know how to explain it. She didn’t know what to say. Would it even matter? Did Naomi even care? After all, she did tell her that she didn’t know how she could have fallen in love with her. “I don’t know what to tell you, Naomi and whatever I tell you won’t change anything. I don’t know........”