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you were the only

ray of sun that could touch me

but clouds smothered you

#haiku

it me

dreams seldom

touch me more than

when they’re of you

a sleepless

anxious night; dreams are forced.

dreams of being more

than an after thought

found something i wrote in march when i was experiencing some pretty dark thoughts and a lot of it still resonates with me

“you have overcome so fucking much, imagine you gave up now and all your pain had been for nothing? feeling every second of recovery like needles in your skin, coming out the other end hopeful and ready to try again is HARD. you are not worthless, you have so much ahead of you, so many ways to turn. just choose wisely. remember how we wait for the sun to return, but admire the moon in the mean time, remember how you miss the love not the person. remember things will never come easily for you and fighting is worth it. never take walking or breathing for granted because there have been times you’ve been unable to do both, you’ll have your time but it won’t come on its own. make this your fucking time. ignore the shit that hurts. you have the makings of great things. you can’t let mental health stand in your way of sunny days. clouds are only made of water, water goes away. you still aren’t who you are at your worst.”

#dunno where i think water goes #shut up bridie

you look at me like

you’re learning something, your

eyes hold mine like they’re tethered

tangled, i trace your smile

you trace my spine

your lips tell me you’re mine while

the sunlight kisses you

more softly than i ever could.

#JD

solstice

you are the breeze on my skin

when the heat weighs down like

the same grey clouds

you parted with your shine. your smile

could take the war away

and stop the leaves falling in my mind.

i want to tell you

when our arms and legs tangle,

entwine;

i want you to be nothing but you

and mine

#JD

a look from pointy

brown, experienced eyes devoured purity,

a corruption of chaste.

you told me

with my body captive beneath yours

that all of me was yours to take.

#tw #poetry #unfinished

angry because i misread a situation and have now come out of it sad and disheartened but ultimately i’m angry at myself for allowing myself to rely on someone else for happiness (even if it was only briefly) when i told myself i wouldn’t get my hopes up about anything because i should have spent that time and energy focusing on myself

but i slipped on daydreams and now i’m lying facing the ever changing but perpetually grey sky. goodnight x

#shut up bridie

just answered the door to the pizza delivery guy in my pyjamas with mascara tears down my face and a joint in my hand and if that whole image isn’t a fucking mood i dunno what is