Anti-Everything

Lesbian. Gemini. 27.

[radical-rosebud]

[radical-rosebud]

Childhood home

Childhood trauma

Can’t escape

it’s brought me back

This home will be where I die

[radical-rosebud]

So tired of life …

A partner who hurts me …

Parents that don’t care…

Friends that are only around when they need something…

A job I don’t care for…

I miss my friends, my therapist. I miss talking to literally anyone. She’s right I’m only a fraction of who I was 7 years ago. Will I ever get myself back ? Am I too weak to help myself ?

I’ve turned into my mother… and she never got away.

[radical-rosebud]

First pair of girl jeans in literally years ! 185lbs down and a size 10.

[radical-rosebud]

I don’t NEED anyone. I let you into my life and you let me down.

[weltenwellen]

Warsan Shire, from "For Women Who Are Difficult to Love"

[quotefeeling]

“They start missing you when they fail to replace you.”

— Unknown

[perfectfeelings]

“I owe myself the biggest apology for putting up with what I didn’t deserve.”

— Unknown

[deviika]

—Fyodor Dostoevsky

[thoughtkick]

“The deeper the wound, the more private the pain.”

— Isabel Allende, Paula

[fatimazainab]

Margaret Atwood, The Blind Assassin

[4evereterniti]

people always prove to me why i’m better off alone.

[radical-rosebud]

I won’t be a second choice. I’m a first choice. I’m an only choice. Someone will love me like that and if no one does I’ll love myself like that.

[radical-rosebud]

Fading away

[radical-rosebud]

So happy everyone I hate is having major life milestones and great happiness while I sit here crying at work wondering if tonight’s the night I’ll finally kill myself !!!

[zawzana1]

"Showing your emotions to people is like bleeding next to a shark."

And I felt that.

[vexheart]

[undisclosed-desire]

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