Rant: 104
I don't care what anybody says. Have a pity party. Cry all day. Stay in bed all day. Be emo and mope around. Just as long TWO things occur. Ready? 1. You do at least ONE self care task. I think it should be 3, but if it's really a bad day, then 1. I tend to do more than 1 because I'm a bit of an over achiever. As well, meds help! Without meds I'm in bed all day. With meds, in bed half the day. Let me remind you, that's on my day off on a REALLY bad day. Anyway, back to self care. Whether it's taking meds, shower, eating, or whatever. Do at least 1 thing. Fuck everybody else that gets on your case. At least you did something. And that's better than nothing. No offense to them because they're loved one and support system, but those people don't have mental illness so they can suck it! You did 1 good thing. They may not see it as a big deal, but you and I both know that's a high achievement. Pat yourself on the back my friend! Please keep that achievement in the back of your mind as the voices in your head bashes you. At least you have one thing you can toss at them. 2. It's okay to fall off the deep end. Just as long you get back up. Now I'm not saying be depressed for 2 hours then you should go out and conquer the world. Take a day, a weekend, a week, or 2 weeks. You're only human. You're allowed to feel depressed. You're allowed to drown in your sorrow. Just don't try not to let the emotions over power. Meditate, reevaluate your emotions, investigate your triggers, and question your inner demons. So while you're wallowing, might as well explore all these emotions. Yes, be your own therapist. Helps the healing process. Anyway, back to what I was saying, you're allowed to feel depressed. People are gonna take you out for drinks, parties, try to make you laugh, or make you see the bright side of things. Then they're gonna get upset at you when you're still feeling down, making you feel like more shit because you never meant to be the "Negative Nancy" or "Debbie Downer". No, don't let them do that to you! Again, they're intentions are good and they mean well, but they don't know what's it like so they are handicap in these situations. Again, you are allowed to feel depressed. Don't be ashamed or bad about it. You are human. Just make sure you say, "okay, I had a moment. Now, I'm feeling a little better what is the next step or course of action for me to do" That's all ya gotta remember. Self care and to eventually climb out of your rocky hole. No matter what mental illness you have and if you're taking meds or not taking meds, it's difficult. Some days are **sings** "I'm walking on sunshine" and some days you wish you were never born and you're a spec in this huge universe that doesn't matter. But just like my friends keep reminding me, take it one day at a time and do the best you can.