sand noodles

hw~174lbs || cw~133.4|| ugw~120lbs

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Unpinning at 130lbs

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69 followers. Noice

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Gotta lose 4lbs in 2 weeks and I'm scared I can't do this. I'm terrified

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I've consumed maybe 400 cals the last 4 days and I'm not moving on the scale. Does anyone have any idea whats happening? I'm going insane

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Stuck at 136 and on the verge of a mental break down

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Unpinning at 135 lbs

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Just lost 17lbs in 20 days? How? Well I'm not sure. I can tell you though that I am terribly terribly ill

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Mouth feels like I ate glass after last night's accidental purge

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Mouth feels like I ate glass after last night's accidental purge

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Girls that get it, get it. Girls that don't, don't

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Drank two cans of monster and I can feel the colours

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Just lost 17lbs in 20 days? How? Well I'm not sure. I can tell you though that I am terribly terribly ill

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Unpinning at 140lbs

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Don't get me wrong, I hate bulimia BUT last night I ate 3 cheese sandwiches, two chocolate bars and left over desserts from the night before, AND I LOST WEIGHT

Mentally declining

Physically declining

Emotionally declining

But I'm thriving in my own sick and twisted way.

I want to die but I also want to see how far I can go

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Jesus fucking Christ it's been awhile but guess who relapsed, lost 7 pounds and still hates themselves???

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Days one complete

Breakfast- 149

3 rice cakes 102

Cheese spread 47

Lunch- 130

Cream of mushroom soup 130

Snack- 86

Energy drink 86

Dinner- 243

Salad with dressing 33

4 rice cakes 136

Cheese spread 74

Total cals for the day- 608

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Not me starting abc again because I went on a bender for four days 😔