lottie

where i scream into the void abt my problems

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i hope yk how much i fucking hate you

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i hate humanity everyone is so dumb and annoying i hate it

i hate everyone

i hate everything

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you’ll never apologize will you?

you expect so much from me and it is so wrong of me to expect things back?

you are such an asshole

i did nothing to you

i did nothing to deserve this

[ratventaccnt]

we had a plan

there was plans

and they change it immediately

without me even knowing

they never care about what i think

they never care about what i want

why doesn’t anyone care?

why cant anyone care?

am i that difficult to love?

am i that hard to care for?

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they dont even care about me

i just know it

the second they leave they’re going to

forget about me and never remember me again

this always happens

i hate this

all i want is them

they’re all i could ever ask for

[ratventaccnt]

im so lost without them

im hurt and i dont know what to do

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it feels like they dont even love me

they got back with me because they pity me

there is no way that isnt it

at this point please just break up with me

get it over with

obviously there is only enough room in their worlds for the other

there is never enough room in anyones heart for me

no one will ever love me

[ratventaccnt]

they finna find my ass dead in the bathroom

literally the only place i can imagine myself dying tbh

wether is me self inflicted or if i die from a brain bleed or smth

its gonna be in the bathroom for sure

[ratventaccnt]

everything is going to shit

everything sucks

i fear i might split in front of my partners

they don’t deserve to see me like that

[ratventaccnt]

“wanna date?”

sorry man im keeping myself available for boys who dont love me. i got my own shit to deal with rn.

[ratventaccnt]

wanna know a secret?? NOT EVERYTHING IS ABOUT YOU YOU SELF CENTERED WHORE.

[lithium-poet]

built me up three hundred feet tall just to tear me down

[ratventaccnt]

so much love how come im not allowed any? i want someone to love me.

[ratventaccnt]

“in every trio theres a duo”

that shits the same even in my relationship.

my bfs love eachother so much more then they love me.

ive always been left out in any trio why did i think a relationship would be any different?

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and i was RIGHT.

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i dont want them to be in my heart anymore i want them to leave

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the heartache is actually insane makes me wanna kill myself

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i genuinely hate everything about myself