Significant things I have done, can do, or doing currently
I'm posting this, not to brag about myself, but to try to lift myself and hopefully others out of this fog of depression I've been lost in for I don't remember how long. Please feel free to share your thoughts and experiences in the comments or by reblogging.
Trigger warning: talk of depression and suicidal thoughts, low self esteem, profanity
Drive like a professional boss ass bitch 😏
Drive my husband crazy by my driving like a professional boss ass bitch 🤣
Prevented someone from committing suicide
Fluent in Bengali and English, understand verbal Hindi, understand some words in French, Spanish, Arabic, Japanese, and Punjabi, know how to sign thank you and I love you in American Sign Language
Scored second place in my elementary school IEC on a schoolwide English exam held by the British Council in Bangladesh
Help lost children to find their family
Attended psychotherapy regularly to deal with depression
Donated blood two times
Protect friends from harassment
Cook like a professional boss ass chef
Pray
Swim at intermediate level
Set up WiFi modem and connection by myself
Assemble furniture by myself
Photoshop, Indesign, Graphic design, Website design, Photography
Make delicious pancakes from scratch (no box mix needed)
Cook better than restaurant quality pan seared salmon in brown lemon butter sauce
Abandoning the feeling of needing to commit suicide because I thought I don't make a difference
Finally realizing that people genuinely like me for who I am to them, a friend and a person to rely on
Starting to believe I am worth something, and as scary as it is to admit, that I want to LIVE
Make people smile and feel comfortable
Teach and train people with clear instructions and examples
Donate money to those in need and charities
Found my soulmate
Give people unexpected gifts for showing me kindness
Dispensed 4 more orders than my soulmate in one day
Picked up 200lbs of my best friend Tasin
Sketch, paint, and apply makeup
Read books and write poetry
Beat a Canadian in Scrabble boardgame by 21 points (175 points), English is my second language
Taught someone to read and write Bengali
Made a 2 year old laugh so much that his mom became concerned about his breathing 😅
Understood, accepted, and chose the man I need as a life partner, not the man I want as a dream partner, because it's true, we don't always get what we want, but we do get what we need
Continuing to live despite everything
Ridden 2 horses
Admit when I make mistakes, apologize, and try to reconcile
