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I’m so sorry for not updating until now! The most important update: we’ve raised the money, from insurance, to public organizations, to my contribution and all you’re donations. Megan is doing great, a lot better the last couple days and she’s now settled in for an extended stay at this facility. 

I’ve gotten emails that express confusion over the situation and honesty, I was just as confused. I kept hearing what she needs to get better from doctors and nurses and hospital administrators and I kept hearing this amount and that. 

I don’t know anything about hospital policy or organization. I’m 19 and haven’t been in serious illness or injury bad enough to warrant more than a few hours, so I haven’t had much experience in the matter, so I’m hoping I did everything right. 

Megan says she’s going to be filming a little video to thank you guys for your help and support and wants me to post it. 

I’ve refunded several people their donations because we went over what we needed to raise, I hope all of them went through without a problem. 

Megan’s dogs are doing great at the new place, they seem happy to roam around on a farm. There was an incident with chicken chasing but Megan’s trained them well so it was easy for the owner to set boundaries for them. 

I’m still not getting private messages here so if you want to get in touch for any reason, the paypal email that I’ve given is a good way to contact me. 

I’ll update with that video as soon as I can. 

Thank you guys. 

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3 very quick updates before I crash for the night. First, we’re down to 225! Fingers crossed we can do it!  Second, I keep getting the little numbers over the inbox symbol but when I click on it, there’s nothing there. Not even the old messages that she had there before. Does anyone know if this is something I did wrong or a glitch that I can fix? I really hope I’m not missing any messages because I’m writing down all the kind and generous and supportive thoughts everyone is sending so that Megan can read them. 

And the last bit of news, very, very good news actually. A lady named Robyn contacted me through the kennel where Megan’s dogs are. She offered to move the dogs to her property, a farm not too far from where Megan lives, so that the recurring kennel fees won’t go up anymore (even though they’d agreed to payment plans, it’ll add up). 

She explained it be like a foster situation, where all we’d need to pay for is the dog food and anything like that they’d need, which I can definitely do! Isn’t that great? I’m meeting her tomorrow to go and see her place and sign an agreement between me and her. This is so there won’t be any dispute about money or the dog’s ownership, since we don’t know each other well. 

And as I’m typing this, another donation came in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We only need $175 now! I’m crying, I really need to get some sleep. This is amazing. We may actually do it! The sun is peeking through the rain clouds! 

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I’m not getting my hopes up but some kind soul, who wants to remain anonymous, donated a lot of money and it’s brought it down considerably to $430! 

I’m not gonna get my hopes up too high, that’s a lot of money to raise in 5 days but I’m praying, you guys. 

I’m still trying to decide what to do in the likelihood the hospital is forced to release her. There’s no way to watch her 24/7 and the doctor confirmed she will need to be watched. Without the suicide watch in place right now, she would have self-harmed and he’s sure if she were alone, would find a way to do worse. 

I’m terribly sad and anxious. 

Please keep reposting and sharing! The recent donor saw the posts randomly on Tumblr, so its working! 

A reminder that the paypal address is [email protected]

And I was clued in to the tag system thingy, I’m such a dolt, I’m not good on these sites. It took me an embarrassingly amount of time to figure out how to repost a post! 

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Megan had a major setback last night. The way the doctor described it, it seems a nurse mentioned to Megan that she was most likely going to have to leave soon and they needed to prepare her for that eventuality. Megan did not take it well. She became agitated, physical, and needed to be restrained as the nurse got hurt while attempting to calm her. She had to be restrained and is currently restrained and sedated. I know I’m not a professional but to see her go from the woman she was to now, in such a short horrific and violent time scares me. 

This whole situation is shit and I can’t see it getting better anytime soon. I’m grappling with what to do, what I’ve done so far. I shouldn’t have let Megan be admitted without knowing I could raise the last bit of money for her stay. I’ve made it ten times worse. She got stability, security, help, and it’s gonna get yanked out from under her because of money. 

Here’s the progress as of right now. Here are two links detailing the situation for those who don’t know:

One: https://rawandmessyandbeautiful.tumblr.com/post/187683452080 Two: https://rawandmessyandbeautiful.tumblr.com/post/187719567560/

Current status: $635 to go

I’m not too optimistic, six days to go with that amount to raise. I’m think I’m gonna see how much I can get for my computer, TV, furniture. I have family jewelry I can sell as well. I’d hate to do it but I think my gran would understand if she were here. I also think she’d have this whole situation fixed within a day. 

Please repost, donate if you can, send prayers and positive vibes. I’m planning on visiting Megan’s dogs today, check in and see how they’re doing. 

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Megan update. 

Her progress is slow going but I anticipated that. It’s hard to see, though. She’s still on a suicide watch and I can only visit with her for half an hour a day. At least the doctors let her keep the webcam that’s videoing her dogs. They say it calms her when she gets agitated or low. 

I don’t know what I’m going to do if I can’t get the money for her to stay. I should prepare for that likelihood but how? I would not be able to monitor her 24/7 which is what she needs. I could do or say something that would hurt her. 

I have 7 days to figure it out. 

I have a question for you guys. Do you want me to do a quick update every evening or when there’s a change - either with donations or Megan? 

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We’re down a bit! To $635. Please keep sharing, donate it you can, don’t stop praying. 

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can we get an update on the money raising? wishing megan and you the best.

Nothing new. We’re at $735 still needed and 8 days until its needed. Trying to keep hope up but it’s hard, especially since I have an abscessed tooth that I won’t be getting fixed until I know for sure Megan will be taken care of while I’m recovering. 

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Update.

Megan’s been officially admitted and placed on suicide watch after her initial assessment. I’m assured this is a good thing but her caregivers also confirmed that if she has to leave past the 25th than whatever progress she makes will most likely fall apart. 

An anonymous person asked how Megan’s dogs are faring and they’re doing good. They all got manicures courtesy of the kennel free of charge and they plan on continuing Megan’s flea prevention treatment she’s had them on. They’re impressed with how Megan has taken care of nine dogs by herself. 

We’re needing $745 right now. I’m just really worried I can’t make this money in time. 

Please help if you can, repost and share, etc. Info here https://rawandmessyandbeautiful.tumblr.com/post/187719567560

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We’re still needing $750 and have 10 days left to raise the money. 

A quick recap for those who see this and don’t know the details. Megan (rawandmessyandbeautiful) was recently the victim of a horrific crime. No details because of triggers but if you want to know, the last several posts have been dedicated to the issues. 

Physically, she has has all she needs to make a recovery. Emotionally and psychologically, she’s in crisis. Depression, ptsd, and suicidal ideation are a huge concern for both me and her doctors. 

Fans of the show she’s into (Roswell NM) have helped raise money to save her dogs from having to be rehomed/surrender while she’s in treatment and now I’m asking for their/your help again. 

After qualifying for several public and community assistant programs and all that I can put into it, she needs $750 by September 25th or they’ll be forced to release her before her treatment is completed/she’s ready to go home. 

Here is the Paypal email receiving donations, [email protected]. I will update if we reach our goal so we don’t end up with more money than needed and if we do, refunds will go through like last time. 

Please share, donate if you can, and pray for Megan. She could definitely use your positive vibes right now. 

Thank you

Maddi

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We’re still needing $750 and have 10 days left to raise the money. 

A quick recap for those who see this and don’t know the details. Megan (rawandmessyandbeautiful) was recently the victim of a horrific crime. No details because of triggers but if you want to know, the last several posts have been dedicated to the issues. 

Physically, she has has all she needs to make a recovery. Emotionally and psychologically, she’s in crisis. Depression, ptsd, and suicidal ideation are a huge concern for both me and her doctors. 

Fans of the show she’s into (Roswell NM) have helped raise money to save her dogs from having to be rehomed/surrender while she’s in treatment and now I’m asking for their/your help again. 

After qualifying for several public and community assistant programs and all that I can put into it, she needs $750 by September 25th or they’ll be forced to release her before her treatment is completed/she’s ready to go home. 

Here is the Paypal email receiving donations, [email protected]. I will update if we reach our goal so we don’t end up with more money than needed and if we do, refunds will go through like last time. 

Please share, donate if you can, and pray for Megan. She could definitely use your positive vibes right now. 

Thank you

Maddi

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Okay, I’ve had several people send messages and even added messages to their Paypal donations to post again if Megan needed any more funds. 

I’d first like to say, if this were about me, there’s no way I’d be asking for anything but I’m pushing my pride aside for Megan. I’d do anything for her. 

I’ve gone over the why of it in the last message I posted, so you probably don’t want to hear it again. Check that out for a breakdown of funds, etc. 

The good news is, with what I’ve gathered so far, Megan will be admitted to a mental health facility to get the help she needs. Where she’s going to be receiving treatment, I’ve researched and know that they specialize and are really informed in rape recovery, post-traumatic stress disorder, and the depression  and anxiety that comes with it. 

The condition of her admittance is that we’d have the rest of the funds midway through her time of stay. I’ve look and that would be the 25th. Now I’ll be getting pay checks before that time and can put away roughly $680 (along with the $$ for her dogs I’ve already earmarked). 

With what’s needed now, that’s $750 I need to raise. I’ve exhausted community services in the area, all the help available that she qualified for is already being utilized. It’s up to me. I do not want Megan’s treatment to be cut short, I’m not an expert but I feel that would do more harm than good? I’m not sure, but I can’t see how it’d do anything but harm her.  

So this is me, asking please, help me help my best friend, someone I’ve come to realize during this time that I simply can’t see my life without. 

To donate, please use this Paypal email [email protected]

It seems the only pictures I have of her on my phone are selfies with her dogs! She’s adorable! 

I hope you guys are doing great! If you have any more messages to send Megan’s way, don’t hesitate to send them.

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Have you gotten any donations yet?? I really wish I could help :( I've chatted with Megan several times now and even through messages, she brightens the world. She's been amazing to me, I hope she gets the money she needs!!

Thank you for your kind words, and no, no one has donated yet. I’m trying to keep the faith - we have eleven days left, so plenty of time to spread the word. 

Please do, if you can! 

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Okay, I’ve had several people send messages and even added messages to their Paypal donations to post again if Megan needed any more funds. 

I’d first like to say, if this were about me, there’s no way I’d be asking for anything but I’m pushing my pride aside for Megan. I’d do anything for her. 

I’ve gone over the why of it in the last message I posted, so you probably don’t want to hear it again. Check that out for a breakdown of funds, etc. 

The good news is, with what I’ve gathered so far, Megan will be admitted to a mental health facility to get the help she needs. Where she’s going to be receiving treatment, I’ve researched and know that they specialize and are really informed in rape recovery, post-traumatic stress disorder, and the depression  and anxiety that comes with it. 

The condition of her admittance is that we’d have the rest of the funds midway through her time of stay. I’ve look and that would be the 25th. Now I’ll be getting pay checks before that time and can put away roughly $680 (along with the $$ for her dogs I’ve already earmarked). 

With what’s needed now, that’s $750 I need to raise. I’ve exhausted community services in the area, all the help available that she qualified for is already being utilized. It’s up to me. I do not want Megan’s treatment to be cut short, I’m not an expert but I feel that would do more harm than good? I’m not sure, but I can’t see how it’d do anything but harm her.  

So this is me, asking please, help me help my best friend, someone I’ve come to realize during this time that I simply can’t see my life without. 

To donate, please use this Paypal email [email protected]

It seems the only pictures I have of her on my phone are selfies with her dogs! She’s adorable! 

I hope you guys are doing great! If you have any more messages to send Megan’s way, don’t hesitate to send them.

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Okay, I’ve had several people send messages and even added messages to their Paypal donations to post again if Megan needed any more funds. 

I’d first like to say, if this were about me, there’s no way I’d be asking for anything but I’m pushing my pride aside for Megan. I’d do anything for her. 

I’ve gone over the why of it in the last message I posted, so you probably don’t want to hear it again. Check that out for a breakdown of funds, etc. 

The good news is, with what I’ve gathered so far, Megan will be admitted to a mental health facility to get the help she needs. Where she’s going to be receiving treatment, I’ve researched and know that they specialize and are really informed in rape recovery, post-traumatic stress disorder, and the depression  and anxiety that comes with it. 

The condition of her admittance is that we’d have the rest of the funds midway through her time of stay. I’ve look and that would be the 25th. Now I’ll be getting pay checks before that time and can put away roughly $680 (along with the $$ for her dogs I’ve already earmarked). 

With what’s needed now, that’s $750 I need to raise. I’ve exhausted community services in the area, all the help available that she qualified for is already being utilized. It’s up to me. I do not want Megan’s treatment to be cut short, I’m not an expert but I feel that would do more harm than good? I’m not sure, but I can’t see how it’d do anything but harm her.  

So this is me, asking please, help me help my best friend, someone I’ve come to realize during this time that I simply can’t see my life without. 

To donate, please use this Paypal email [email protected]

It seems the only pictures I have of her on my phone are selfies with her dogs! She’s adorable! 

I hope you guys are doing great! If you have any more messages to send Megan’s way, don’t hesitate to send them.

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Update.

It’s really early and I’ve been talking to so many people already so if I’m a bit jumbled I apologize. 

I’ve spoken to the hospital which Megan would be going into for care, her insurance, and a number of help groups, including a rape support center in the area. I’m gonna break down as clear as possible. 

I’m actually surprised a lot of this has come about in only a few days.

Megan’s doctor have submitted paperwork to appeal to the insurance company’s decision and the ruling has been brought down for partial payment. It sucks but it’s better than nothing, right? 

So after this I spoke to the mental health facility to get an estimate on cost of care for the length of stay that Megan’s doctors determined will be needed. 

After getting a price, I researched and called about half a dozen groups, medical cost supplement insurance, etc. She qualifies for two. They bring the cost down a good chunk but not all of it. 

Then, I actually got a call from a local rape and sexual assault group. They offered to help with the cost. It seems one of Megan’s nurses put them in touch with me. 

My mind is so jumbled and sleeve deprived and worried, scared, anxious that it took me a while to calculate everything up to see what was left that was needed. 

In order for Megan to stay the recommended time in the mental health facility to get proper care for depression, ptsd, and self-harming tendencies, I need to come up with $1,455. 

That’s where we’re at right now. 

Please let me know if you guys don’t want these updates any more. There’s been a few messages. So please let me know if this is hurting anyone or bothering or something. 

Maddi

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Megan cannot catch a break and I’m seriously worried. 

Her insurance are fighting her need for aftercare treatment at a mental health facility. They feel she would do just as well at home, so they’re only willing to pay for a 72 hour stay. 

No matter what her doctor says - both medical and mental health doctors of hers stated she needed to be in there at least double that in order to get proper help, especially since she’s had a history of difficulties in the past - the insurance company doesn’t agree. 

It’s bullshit and I’m so mad and worried right now. I’ve looked into supplement insurance and everything and it would have helped if she’d had it before her attack, there’s no retroactive insurance, even if she qualifies. 

And her father isn’t helping. He’s not concerned, he says he’ll take her home with him which is the last thing she needs. I know he’s trying to help but she needs to focus on her and not her relationship with him and that’s exactly what will happen if she goes home with him. 

I’m at the end of my endurance, I haven’t been sleeping, thank God I can work from anywhere there’s internet because I’d have surely lost my job by now because there’s no way I’m leaving this up to anyone else. 

I’m sorry. I needed to vent because there’s no one else to talk. I’d usually talk to Megan. I didn’t realize how important she was in my life and I feel incredibly guilty for not seeing it before this. Maybe it would have been different, maybe this wouldn’t even have happened. 

I don’t know. I just don’t know what to do. 

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Update on Megan. Trigger warnings: rape, self harm, night terrors.

The prognoses of her eye isn’t good. They don’t know the extend or if it’s only temporary but total vision impairment is likely. Please send out all your positive thoughts and vibes. The doctors will know more in a week or so. 

Dogs are doing great. The kennel people are taking good care of them and they’ve set up a webcam for Megan to check in on them. It’s helped considerably and they’re able to reduce the sedatives to only at night. 

She gets night terrors every night so they’re keeping her on them during that time. She’s withdrawn, not really talking much about anything important and the doctors have placed her on 24hr watch. Once her physical treatment is determined, she’s going into treatment at a mental health facility. 

I believe it was someone on here who asked about the person who did this and what the police are doing. They’ve got a few leads but nothing concrete, evidence is sparse and they’re were no witnesses due to the time of night and location. They believe this wasn’t the first time this person did this, due to the success at covering their tracks. 

I’m thinking of making an Amazon wish list with some things that she’d like that could cheer her up. Books and movies and stuff like that. Should I post the link here? 

I’ll update again next week. Megan says she misses you guys. 

Maddi