Weirdness and Everything else.

this is basically a diary. I just throw in some random thoughts that come to me everyday. or on a really bad day, what I feel. I can get downright weird. oh.. also a bit about weight loss here and there. because du-uh, I'm a media brainwashed young lady.

[rayahm]

I know what you are thinking

Have you ever sat there looking at someone and thought “ I know exactly what they are thinking”. I believe this is as close to being telepathic as we’ll ever be. Discrediting people who actually claim to be telepathic, but I won’t get into detail.

It’s really interesting this ability we have, it’s like for just a few seconds we went inside that person’s brain and it’s clear what they are thinking or what they mean by the words they say even when they claim to be misinterpreted.

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Tomorrow

Tomorrow is a land of promise. In our minds, tomorrow is when everything is possible, when everything can be achieved. Tomorrow seduces you with it's charms of the unknown, it gives you the promise of endless possibilities and you blindlessly hold on to its promise, for without it, there is no hope. Without it, you are screwed. Tomorrow has more than 24hours, it is after all the superhero of all days. Tomorrow is the land of great things. It is the place where assignments are finished. Deadlines are met just in the nick of time. Tommorow is where New healthy lifestyles commence and Bad habits are kicked to the curb. But a wise man (or a woman. Who knows for sure) once said, "Tomorrow never comes". I guess this is because tomorrow is a fairy tale. It is beautiful and we like the idea of it. It gets our hopes up and guarantees us unrealistic expectations. Just like fairy tales. No girl, you shall not break and enter into a house of seven strange men and make yourself at home without there being consequences. It just doesn't work that way. Anyway, where was I... Ah, yes. Tomorrow. It knows just the right things to say to you. It knows your soft spot. And as I write this, it whispers sweet nothings to me. Go to sleep child. You can finish revising the rest of the 100 chapters in two hours before the exam tomorrow. You got this. The bed awaits. Oh well.. You don't have to tell me twice. Tomorrow knows best.

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Time

"Time is but an illusion" .. This quote can be so relatable when thought of at the right moment. Like when you look at your watch during a boring class at 8:40 am and half an hour later, you give it another hopeful glance and it is 8:42 am. Darn. Or when you're trying to get those abs by planking for what feels like 5 minutes only to look at the time and realize it's only been 20 seconds. How the hell? But then it's 7:00 am, the alarm goes off, so you snooze it. Juuust five more minutes. And so you wake up five minutes later and you've missed your 8am lecture, Leonardo DiCaprio winning an Oscar, and the birth of your third grandchild. Oh well, what can you do. It is a curious thing this concept of time. Infinite, but never enough. We always want more of it, but when we do have it, we either want it gone because of the overwhelming events that are occurring or we waste it on pointless things. Every now and then we come across a deep meaningful article that urges us to live our life to the fullest and appreciate the limited time we have. So we keep a promise to ourselves that from now on, we will go out there and seize the world. A promise that lasts until you find that series with 4 seasons that you haven't watched yet. Then forget seizing the day. I'm seizing this bowl of popcorn and getting busy. Oh well. There's always next Monday to start seizing the day :) But one thing is for certain. You can only have so many Mondays before time ceases.

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Superstition

I'll just go ahead and say this.. I am a superstitious mess. Not the voodoo kind of superstition, but the other not-so-morally-questionable-but-equally-disturbing-kinda-superstition. I never like to talk about things that I'm doing that are important to me in fear of 'jinxing' them. But sometimes I can't help it and I blabber.. And somehow.. Just somehow they end up not as perfect as I'd wanted them to be.. And so I find myself thinking.. "Mhmm.. Maybe I shouldn't have mentioned it to anyone this early on". Like I would be so pumped working out and eating right for a couple of weeks, so then I feel the "need" to mention it to someone, God knows why.. And the next thing I know, I'm three weeks off my routine and stuffing my face with God knows what. At this point my voice of reason is justifying this by whispering "you could die a skinny bitch tomorrow, then what? Just eat child :)". And the circle goes on.. An infinity loop of superstitious thoughts. I guess everyone has these strong "I don't want to jinx this" thoughts every now and then.. They are quite normal. But when I searched the endless pits of my wits and wisdom I came to one observation that applies particularly to me.. I don't know if others feel the same way but for me, a "jinx" is more of the fear of disappointing more than anything. The moment I blabber something out, I feel like I have publicly declared the need to prove myself. And the pressure of not being able to live up to what I said is what eats away at my morale. Like I would tell someone I'm learning a new language and they'd be impressed, and I'd get that few minutes of satisfaction of being complimented. But soon after.. Bam! What have I done? So am I supposed to learn to speak the whole language fluently now? What if I can't manage? The thing about not sharing what you're doing or what you are striving to achieve is, you can decide to give up and no one will know a thing. And when you do continue to pursue it, you can do it at your own pace without any pressure or the need to prove yourself to anyone :) So yeah.. That's my new thing, hold off on blabbing about things that haven't happened yet. Because... Jinx!!! :D

[rayahm]

I can be weird here. . I like it :)

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So I have some pretty ridiculous fears. Last night I saw a spider that kept going back and forth on my wall then under my bed. So my crazy imagination had me thinking what if it got into my ear while I slept. And laid some eggs.. and ate my brain causing me to.. I don’t know. . Die. Also, anything with an insane amount of bumps FREAKS ME OUT!! I can’t explain it.. I just feel absolutely horrible looking at stuff like that. Stuff like ricecakes. Yes ricecakes

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Has anyone ever had birds? Have them as in.. eat them. Yo, that stuff is amazing. Better than chicken. my First time eating a bird (birds. Had quite a number) and a pegion. But I prefer just plain birds. The guilt of eating such a chirpy little thing is what makes it even tastier :D eating its fragile little fried heart was as sad as it was delicious :)

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So halfway through our road trip we come across this goat crossing the road without a single care in the world. It just strutted its stuff while the driver tried to slow down and not kill the goat's vibe. Or kill it. That stupid goat was stupid. But a real diva :)

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Sitting here while my parents and some relatives are having grown up talk. I thought this sort of stuff gets more interesting the older you get.. I am bored out of my mind.

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Sometimes it is just nice to do what you want and not what is right... What's a few more calories and a few more rolls on your stomach ey :D But really. . Feels good :)

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Young ladies as well. But you Can't help it.. sometimes you look in the mirror and feel like a sexy beast and sometimes... well... you breakdown.

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Emotional wreck

Have you ever had one of those days when you felt absolutely miserable for no reason at all? It's not even PMS. Tried sleeping it off.. didn't work. Only woke up feeling even more ready to go to war and murder people :/

[rayahm]

Work out Things

That amazing pain after you work out a muscle you haven't worked in a while. I can't walk properly!!! :D

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Perfection :)

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Cheeseburger with Grilled Pineapple, Avocado and Jalapenos

with recipe (link)

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I wanna whisper sweet things to that burger

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Somewhere in the woods :)

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It's time

I'm thinking of changing my Facebook user name. Back in high school I was a... nerd. Not in a bad way. You know, the sort who would tell you they didn't study for the exam ( most of the time, I was being truthful) but end up getting a really good grade (not to brag. But yeah...) . Anyway, being a self proclaimed nerd I changed my fb id to something long and, and now that I'm 21, painfully embarrassing to tell someone. So now I've decided to end all this nerd nonsense. It's about time