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Interestingly boring, eats alot..sleeps alot! Spy by day, Ninja by night!

[reanfreaksyouout]

I'll never get why this is always happening to me. Years ago, i was told that it would be better to get an open relationship. That hurt so much, ego damaged, confidence gone. I might as well die. I'm constantly being compared to random person I don't see, being told I don't have a dream, i lack motivation, I'm just stupidly content with whatever, i have no goals to move up. Constantly given with cold shoulder, silent tratment and passive aggressive approach. Maybe I'm just that evil, maybe I'm the devil himself that's why all of this keeps on happening to me. I'm worthless, I'm not worth it. I'm nothing. I'm worthless. I might as well just die. I'm afraid of the process but not the outcome, If i die peacefully, please let them instantly forget me. I don't wanna cause any harm or emotional pain to everyone. I'm not worth it. Take me lord.

[reanfreaksyouout]

I'm essentially a piece of shit trying to live but don't deserve this life, I might as well die for the hell of it. I deserve a death so peaceful nobody would miss me as it should.

[reanfreaksyouout]

If I die, peace!

[reanfreaksyouout]

I want the year to be ok. I want to want to take care of my mental health. I want to do it. I don't need material things, i just need help. I need my confidence back. I'm happy with my marriage, I'm not happy with myself. I need help. I'm depressed all the time, my wife don't even know that she constantly disrespect me because I gave up on me. I gave up on myself. I don't wanna live my life, i hope I die to end this misery. I just can't do it. I need help.

[reanfreaksyouout]

I can't kill myself today, just not today.

[reanfreaksyouout]

Nobody will understand the trauma, nobody would care to understand what this trauma is. I should just die.

[reanfreaksyouout]

I always intend to kill myself, but unfortunately i never had the courage and will to do it. I just want to die. I never get respect, i always get blamed. I am good for nothing. I am constantly being disrespected and I can't stand up for myself because if I do, I again will be blamed and will be wrong. Bu i really want to die now, just to end this trauma, just to end my life. I want to end my life. It is how I made to be, to feel useless and to be disrespected. But unfortunately killing myself stops my pain and the world needs me to be tortured with this trauma.

[reanfreaksyouout]

I am begging for death, please God. Fast death, quick! I don't care if it's painful, just kill me please.

[reanfreaksyouout]

I'm afraid to gain the strength to kill myself, end myself and just be free. I'm afraid to gain the strength. I'm so miserable please help me not feel this way. Help me get the respect for myself. I don't wanna end myself but it is the only way out. I want to end myself. End my life. Kill myself, just kill myself.

[reanfreaksyouout]

At this point, I should just really kill myself. Or I hope, I wish..I beg that God kills me in my sleep. Please!

[reanfreaksyouout]

i'm hanging by a thread

[reanfreaksyouout]

I'll say yes to anything that keeps the fire burning

[reanfreaksyouout]

Instead of begging for respect, why don't I just kill myself..

[reanfreaksyouout]

It's just a feeling, what's shame anyway, right?

[reanfreaksyouout]

I'd rather die, now.

[reanfreaksyouout]

My head can only contain a finite number of trauma and self disappointment it is asking for it to KMS immediately. Please just let it be fast and painless

[reanfreaksyouout]

See, I don't get any fucking respect, i told the world about it and it told me that yeah, i will not get any respect and I might as well turn into dust