Just a Recovering Butterfly

I'm still healing... I've suffered from atypical anorexia for about 7 years now. This blog is to help me on my recovery. I focus on health and wellness to try and combat disordered eating cognitions and behaviors. I follow the ketogenic lifestyle.

[recovering--butterfly]

Before and after keto. 48 pounds down and counting!

[yesfreebookforall-blog]

great job   

[recovering--butterfly]

@yesfreebookforall thank you!

[princess-of-positivity]

reminders

[alexrecovers]

[alienform]

Weight goes up by 0.2lbs

My brain:

[genericdietcola]

ED brain: I’m gonna go weigh myself

Logical brain: you haven’t weighed yourself in 4 days

Logical brain: you’ve already had 2 meals and a lot of water

Logical brain: your at your parents house and their scale is broken

Logical brain: you’re going to be so depressed when looking at the scale is this 200% not a good idea

ED brain: ok, I’m gonna go weigh myself

[thiin001]

I need to be more disciplined to reach my goal.

[thinspirationed-teen]

Dont ever romanticize eating disorders, because its hell.

After starving myself for days, id just binge at 2 in the fucking morning, stuffing my face with tears and snot dripping down my cheeks before i purge for an hour straight until i cant even stand anymore. My cheeks would be puffed and stained with tears and ill have drools on my chin and after that i’d just take too much lax, knowing fully well it wont help me at all but i just feel the need to get rid of everything in my stomach.

It was like someone was disentangling my intestines and ripping my stomach apart. My heart was in my throat, waiting to be vomited out. It was hell.

Dont ever romanticize eating disorders, or any disorders at all.

Its simply rude to perceive other people’s misery as beautiful because holy fuck, we arent broken petals of roses; pretty to the sight.

We are suffering. We are destroying ourselves and theres nothing beautiful about it you dick.

[alienform]

Mood:

[a-tired-boi]

when i step on the scale and its says i’ve gained 0.1 lbs

[haleyincarnate]

Quote by unknown

[highway-to-hell-world]

[juansendizon]

[angelaeleni]

Just a reminder that you don’t need to explain yourself to people who disprove of your actions.

[kcborder-addict-deactivated2025]

This really hit home for me earlier.

[haleyincarnate]

Quote by Morgan Harper Nichols

[positive-mh-recovery]

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