Endless Melancholy

TW: ED // Vent Blog ⚘ PRO Recovery ⚘ 22 ⚘ She/Her ⚘ INFP-T 4w3 ⚘ Will mostly reblog ED related posts. ⚘ PORN BLOGS DNI. I don't want to see your genitals, thank you.

[redbeandoughnut]

Hey, everyone.

I know this is so sudden but,

I just wanted so say that I'm leaving this blog for good.. For real this time.

I know I'm capable of so much more, and I'm tired of letting my stupid ED constantly dragging me down and getting in the way of achieving my goals and dreams.

And I'm NOT going to let it take over my life anymore.

To my mutuals and followers, thank you for the laughs. Thank you for being there for me when I was at my lowest point of my life.

I'm definitely going to miss talking to you guys. But I sincerely hope you guys will get out of this hellhole someday and say "fuck this, I'm going to recover."

Thank you for everything. :)

Azuki.

7/12/2021.

[krisises-deactivated20230314]

just had to block a mutual for being anti sex work 😍

reminder that sex work is real work and should be respected

sex workers are not destroying their future. they are doing their job.

i plan on working in a strip club because dancing and being flirtatious are things i like and do well.

sex work is real work

respect sex workers

if you disagree then unfollow me 😍😍😍 also fuck you 😍😍😍

[redbeandoughnut]

I need some distraction.

If you guys have an OC, send me a picture of them and I'll draw them in my art style.

[anon-imity]

Are you still a-looking?

[redbeandoughnut]

Yes!! :D

[wantedperfectlyy]

it’s almost time for ✨NEW MONTH, NEW ME✨

[oh-meni]

December will be our month guys

[poison-flower]

Narrator voice: it was not their month

[baugloophows]

It flops every time because someone

(👈👆👉👇👋)

...did not believe it.

Teamwork, guys - December will be our month.

[ghost-of-sorrows-deactivated202]

december lets goooo

[flowerkcal]

december 💪💪

[0-cal-frog-did-the-anorexia]

December 🦴👀

[peachy-bonee]

December will reap the skinni !!!! 🤞🏼

[puddingandmacadamia]

[redbeandoughnut]

I need some distraction.

If you guys have an OC, send me a picture of them and I'll draw them in my art style.

[inconclusionkillme]

Me eating my 20th pancake at 4am while looking at thinspo: *eating noises* ohh fuck yea imma totally go on a 24 hour fast tomorrow its gonna be amazing. I can’t wait to be skinny! *eating noises*

[fit-skinny-goals]

[sadfatgoddess]

I got bingo 🙃

[whit3monst3r]

[redbeandoughnut]

[veggiekcals]

raise your hand if you have ever been personally victimized by calories

[chthonic-hell]

*overestimates calories in order to eat less*

*goes over calorie limit*

*goes back and edits with more accurate counts to not go over the number*

[littyle]

Relatable

[redbeandoughnut]

Again.

If she slams the door one more time, I'm going to fucking lose it.

[redbeandoughnut]

My parents fight so much that the only possible solution to their problems is to get a divorce. But no, they don't want to do it for the sake of "us kids". (Fyi I'm 22, and my little brother is turning 18 next year).

I'm so sick and tired of my mom constantly yelling and throwing things around. It's making anxious.

If I could just get out of here right now, I would. Trust me.

[f0restgh0ul]

stay safe out there guys!

[redbeandoughnut]

Again with the yelling and the door slamming. DOES. SHE. EVER. SHUT. UP..?

[redbeandoughnut]

Now she's turning up the TV volume downstairs to piss me off.

[redbeandoughnut]

Again with the yelling and the door slamming. DOES. SHE. EVER. SHUT. UP..?

[cold7am]

[butterflysk1n]

december will definitely be our month right guys??? right?? right???

[a-nghell]

this is a cry for help