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Jonah Ellis || 20 || Dominant “In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.” ― Robert Frost

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FTF || Elilah

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Jonah stood around, holding two coffee cups and feeling like an idiot standing out there. His logic was that the weather was finally getting better and it might be nice to talk and walk around. Actually, that was a bold faced lie even to himself. In truth he just didn’t trust himself alone with Elliot right now. He didn’t know if he’d be angry or sad or just jump his bones from being so happy to see him. But he needed a clear head if they were going to figure this out together, yet mostly he still felt like he just needed Elliot. Maybe that feeling never really went away after he left.

#p:er #peglegelliot

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..Sorry. Uh, do you want to meet up and.. talk about this?

Yeah, I really do. Courtyard tomorrow, we can have coffee and talk or something.

Text: I saw who came back. You okay?

[text] I’m still trying to figure that one out.

Text: It’s okay not to trust him. He needs to earn that again, I think. And I think when it’s not such a shock that he’s back you should hear him out. And after he’s done saying whatever he needs to say, you can lay everything you’ve needed to say on him too. And maybe from there you guys can work on it. Either way, I think it’d be good for you.

Text: I would absolutely love to join you.

[text] You’re always so smart and brilliant. This is why I can never lose you as a friend, I need you to be my voice of reason.

[text] I’ll try with him. I want to, and I know I need to. I probably I owe it to myself as much as him. I just wish I didn’t feel all these crazy things inside me.

[text] Perfect. Tomorrow after class I’ll meet you at the gym?

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[text] Word on the street is that some super awesome lady landed a lead role.

Text: Hi, handsome! And that…might very well be true.

[text] CONGRATS AERO!!!!!!

[text] Phew, been waiting for an occasion to whip out that many exclamation points.

Text: I saw who came back. You okay?

[text] I’m still trying to figure that one out.

Text: It’s hard to get over that anger. Like harder than anything. But I guess one way of looking at it is that he came back. He left, which is very important, but he also came back.

Text: You know, there was a guy here once who was real into boxing and he let me beat the shit out of a punching bag and maybe you could do that because it really did help with the anger.

[text] Yeah, he did. He says he came back for me, and I want to believe him. It’s just hard to trust him. We made plans, we promised to be there for each other, I thought we wanted the same things. I get the turnover rate here, and I prepared for people to leave, I guess I just never prepared for one of those people to be him.

[text] Yeah, beating the shit out of something sounds like a good idea. I’ll think I’ll try it. Care to join me?

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janellesubellis

[text] Hey sis, how’s it going? I’ve been missing you again.

restlessheartsxx

Text: That sounds like exactly what I need.

[text] Yeah, me too. Come on over.

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janellesubellis

[text] Hey sis, how’s it going? I’ve been missing you again.

restlessheartsxx

Text: I don’t know…I kind of just want to hang out with you.

[text] Then how about you, me, some homemade popcorn and a movie?

Text: I saw who came back. You okay?

[text] I’m still trying to figure that one out.

Text: Would you like to talk it out?

[text] I wouldn’t even know where to start. I mean, on one hand I’m so happy that he’s back, that I get another chance to see him and hold him. And for a second that’s enough for me to just want to go back to how everything was before. Then I remember that he left me, and it all comes crashing down again. Only instead of loneliness all I feel is anger. And I get it, I swear I do, I know why he left. But all I can feel whenever I try to talk to him is this anger and I don’t know what to do with it.

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I’m not gonna lie, a little bit.. But, fuck, I know I hurt you so much, Jo. It’s been eating me up. I don’t expect you take me back.

You can’t just say shit like that. Shit that actually makes me want to take you back.

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janellesubellis

[text] Hey sis, how’s it going? I’ve been missing you again.

restlessheartsxx

Text: I’d really like that.

[text] Anything you want, it’s your choice.

Text: I saw who came back. You okay?

[text] I’m still trying to figure that one out.

#t:dd #danidelaney

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janellesubellis

[text] Hey sis, how’s it going? I’ve been missing you again.

restlessheartsxx

Text: Okie.

Text: Thanks!

[text] I’m seriously proud of you though. We should do something to celebrate, you and me.

Private

You’re here.

So what, you want me to pretend you never left and everything goes back to normal?

Private

Yeah, well.. I’m sorry, Jo. I couldn’t handle this place any more.

Then why come back?

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janellesubellis

[text] Hey sis, how’s it going? I’ve been missing you again.

restlessheartsxx

Text: Yeah, Jon. Of course I would.

Text: How are you?

[text] Oh you know me, sis. I’m always grand.

[text] Congrats on the exam by the way, you kicked serious ass.

You’re an old face.

And yours is one I didn’t think I’d see here again.

#c:er #I'm just not gonna change your tag

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janellesubellis

[text] Hey sis, how’s it going? I’ve been missing you again.

restlessheartsxx

Text: Sorry. I just don’t really know what to say about it.

Text: That’s what you said when you came here. I know.

[text] Alright, I wont press you on it. You’ll let me know if you’re not okay, right?

[text] Okay, good. I just need you to know that.

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