i havent been on here in a long time i just need to write this down very badly because i am alone and canāt shut the fuck up about anything and iām just sad
i fucked up today and cut after like almost a year and iāām gonna have even more disgusting red sluggy scars on my wrist for months and months and months again and itās embarrassing because iām 20 years old
i havenāt been keeping up with friends and i am going nowhere
iām scared of my relationship ending even though there is no justification for it and i am still in love. iām scared of being ugly. iām scared of not losing weight and not being pretty enough to be lovable.
i wish i had parents that didnāt make me feel alone because then i wouldnt have to put all this shit on the people i love. iām not blaming my parents though. i was a mistake anyway
iām so sorry
