It’s been about 2-ish years since I figured out/came out as a lesbian so let’s look over all the signs from my teen years to early 20s in no particular order:
Every “crush” I had on a guy always felt really really forced like I was just kinda doing it to fit in and most of the guys I had a “crush” on were fictional.
One guy I had a crush on I only said I had a crush on so I could spend more time with his twin sister.
I came out as bisexual 14 but heavily insisted I would only marry/spend my life with another girl. OR I would marry a gay man who couldn’t come out to his family
I had a total of 2 boyfriends (boyfriend 1 was actually terrible more lore on that later) boyfriend 2 was very sweet
sometimes at night i would wish that boyfriend 2 would come out as tans fem so I could spend the rest of my life with a woman
when i was 17 my mom let boyfriend 2 spend the night in our house in my room but i made him sleep in the guest room because i “couldn’t have a boy in my room” (a rule I made up for myself, my mom was fine with him in there)
every-time one of the boyfriends would try to initiate physical contact I would fell so so uncomfortable like I was trapped, i only allowed pecks on the forehead, hand holding, and sitting next to each other with an arm around my shoulders
On the flip side every time I got contact with my fem friends I was so so so happy when we hugged, held hands, kissed (yeah we kissed each other a few times💀) or shared beds at camp/our Jewish youth club retreats
I literally was always so much happier around girls than around boys
boyfriend 2 and I had to be in a long distance relationship for a long time and I was SO happy that we barely saw each other and only texted most of the time
my favorite movie when I was in high school was ‘but I’m a cheerleader
i watched series finale of Legend of Korra specifically the scene where Korra and Asami look into each others eyes and hold hands on repeat
when I was like 12 my babysitter told me about her friend who dated a girl for a long time but then they broke up and she started dating a boy and I said “that’s sad” because the idea of dating a girl was so much better to me
my roommate told me I talked about my cats & dogs with more affection than I talked about my boyfriend
I found ‘good luck babe’ a little TOO relatable when I was still with bf 2 but buried it down deep
every oc I wrote was usually bi and only ever paired with another girl
I’m sure that there are more but this is all I can think of at the moment i will add to this