Your Dyesebel.

[luniapoetry]

“I can’t sleep right now, so instead I’ll lie here and imagine better days. Days where I’ll wake up to your arms around me and not your name on my phone. Days where I’ll fall back asleep to the sound of your heartbeat and not the lonely silence of this room. Days where we’ll be together and nothing else will really matter anymore. But should I manage to slip off into a new night of dreams, I hope you know you were the last thing on my mind. You always are.”

—dreaming of you and me and better days

[reyselbel]

Kuntento naman ako bago ka dumating pero nung umalis ka bakit parang malaki ang nawala sa akin.

[reyselbel]

Reasons why I cannot be in a serious relationship

I’m not ready - I dont want to be in a relationship because i want to have experience. I dont want to be in a relationship para lang may tumatawag sa aking babe or may iloveyou akong na rerecieve everyday. I want to be in a relationship because I’m capable na at kaya ko nang ibigay ang lahat lahat. Oras, sarili ko, buong pakatao ko. I dont want to be unfair and ayaw kong maging selfish. I dont want to be unfair kasi hindi ko kayang maging priority ang partner.

It’s not my priority - Yes! Hindi ako relationship goalssxz, mas prefer ko ang life goals. Yung may diploma ka, yung stable ka, yung kaya mong iprovide ang lahat sa family ko. Yun ang priority ko at hindi ang makita ang true love or forever ko. I need to be practical, Hugs and Kisses are not enough to pay your bills someday. Besides, true love can wait and naniniwala din ako sa destiny. If kayo, kayo talaga. IF hindi kayo, kahit anong pilit mo paghihiwalayin din kayo.

Parents would not allow me- Maybe papayag din sila pero what i think is that, at my age, kung papasok ako sa relationship, it might be hard to the both parties kasi nga bata pa then daming bawal so magiging mahirap yun. You cannot express yourself enough due to limitation na din. And malaki ang chance na maghihiwalay (hindi naman sa bitter) kasi naman madaming factors that could affect the relationship. There is time, school, family and people around. At this point of my life, mas alam ng parents ko ang tama kesa sa akin at parents ko sila. Family over love always!

[reyselbel]

College friends!

[reyselbel]

[reyselbel]

Know your priorities

Importante na alam mo ang mga prioridad mo. Mahirap kasing gumawa ng mga desisiyon kung hindi mo naman alam ang gusto mo at kung ano ang dahilan bakit ka nagpapakahirap sa pag-aaral. If alam mo kasi ang prioridad mo mas may direksyon ang buhay mo. Mas madali ang pag set ng goals at mas alam mo ang path na gusto mong tahakin. May dumating mang pagsubok hindi ka mahihirapang lampasan ito dahil alam mo ang gusto mo. Habang maaga pa alamin mo na ang priorities mo, para malaman mo ang goals mo at alam mo na din ang mga limitasyon mo. Stick to sa goals mo at dont let others ruin it or change it. Yes! Plans may change pero still stick to your goals.

[reyselbel]

This is so far the most challenging year para sa akin. Medyo na culture shock ako sa college. 1st year and 2nd year ko kasi sobrang chill chill lang, i dont care sa grades as long as pasado. Hindi nga ako nag-aaral eh pero iba tong 3rd year na to. Pinagsanib pwersa lahat ng major major subjects at sobrang daming requirements na dapat tapusin. Isang malaking adjustment talaga to para sa katulad kong hindi nag-aaral. Kahit na minsan nagtataka ako, bakit ang bait bait ni Lord sa akin? Im super thankful talaga. God is good all the time nga. So ayun, im thankful pa din kahit na medyo epic yung research grades ko

[reyselbel]

Finally Back!

[reyselbel]

Kilig Klig Where Are you?

Its been months since naramdaman ko yun. Hindi ko naman namimiss magka boyfriend but i miss the feeling of being inlove and having butterflies in your stomach. Yung pag gising mo may Good morning , i love you babe ka sa inbox mo. Its makes a girl feel so extra special. That feeling of may nagseselos. May inaalagaan ka, may kasangga ka sa problema mo. Yung alam mong kahit anong mangyari may kakampi ka. Not just may boyfriend ka na may bibigyay sa yo ng rose, flowers, gifts or chocolates pero may emotional partner ka. Te one na mag momotivate sayo at hindi lang pang display ang mukha kundi may plano talaga s abuhay niya. Yung alam niya ang direksyon na gusto niya.

[reyselbel]

Ways to move on

Well, there's no proper way of moving on. I mean bawat isa sa atin ay may kanya kanyang paraan para makalimot pero here are some tips to move on from your past relationship.

ACCEPTANCE Once its over. Its already over. Wag mong bigyan ng hope ang puso mo. I know its not easy pero need mong tanggapin na wala na siya. OO WALA NA SYA and he is not part of your life anymore. No more iloveyou baby. No more Goodmorning Beautiful, you make me so happy. No more hugs and kisses. No more late conversations and phone calls. ITS OVER. Accept mo na lang lalo na kung alam mo naman na you did everything para maayos kaso ayaw na niya. Just continue your life. Wag mong paasahin ang sarili mo s aisang bagay na wala na.

FORGIVENESS Naging masaya ka naman sa piling niya. Naging makulay ang buhay mo dahil naging part siya nito at naskatan ka ng nawala siya s abuhay mo pero kailan mong tanggapin na wala na at kailan mo na siyang palayain diyan sa puso mo. Patawarin mo ang sarili mo s apag kukulang mo. Patawarin mo ang sarili mo kung may nagawa kang maling desisyon sa relasyon nio at mag silbing leksyon lahat ng napag daanan mo at magsilbi siyang inspirasyon para hindi mo na magawa ang pagkakamaling iyon at patawarin mo din siya sa lahat ng pagkukulang niya. Tao lang siya at tao ka din at kung nagkamali siya. Alam kong natuto din siya.

DONT COMMUNICATE Its not a sign of bitterness. Sign lang yan na tinatapos niyo na ang ugnayan niyo at kailangan niyo ng space at time para maghilom ang sugat sa puso niyong dalawa. Pero dont block him sa facebook. If online siya at nangangati kang ichat siya. Log out ka na lang or better maghanap ng ibang pagkakaabalahan. MAsasanay ka din na wala na siya. Just look for something para maging busy ka. Like focus sa studies mo or better have fun with your family or friends.

IMPROVE YOURSELF Hindi para s akanya kundi para sa sarili mo. Wag kang magbago para maghiganti kundi para maging better as individual. Learn from the past. and better to change yoursefl. Wala namang masama kung magpaganda ka. MAhalin mo muna ang sarili mo para kung magmahal ka ulit. Buong buo na ulit ang puso mo.

BE HAPPY FOR YOUR EX Wag kang magisip na may mangyayari s akanya or sana madapa siya or sana magdusa siya or sana magsisi siya. Let karma do his job. Be happy for him. Ipag pray mo na sana sa next relationship niya mag work na at sana masaya siya kung ano man siya ngayon at sana okay ang kalagyan niya.

PRAY most important. Talk to God. Tell him everything you felt. Kung iiyak ka, umiyak ka. umiyak ka ng umiyak. hanggang sa wala na. So what kung umiiyak ka? Youre not weak if youre crying. Patunay lang yan na tao ka, nagmamahal at nasasaktan. Humiling ka sa kanya na sana tulungan ka niyang lampasan lahat ng ito at makaya mo ang pinagdadaanan mo. Na bigyan niya ka ng sapat na lakas ng loob to face evrything. Just talk to him . He is always there for you.

Its not yet the end of the world. Temporary pain lang yan. Wag sususko. Always remember na madaming tao ang napagdaanan iyan at nalagpasan nila yun. IKAW PA BA? Mas madami diyan ang mas may malalang problema at karamdaman. Sususko ka pa ba? Just continue your life. Darating din yung para sa yo. Naging part lang siya ng life mo para maging leksyon. Gamitin mo siyang inspirasyon ppara mabuhay ng tama at gamitin mo yun para mag work ang next relationship mo. Hanggat hindi pa buo ang puso mo at hindi mo pa kilala ang sarili mo ulit. Wag ka munang magmahal. Magmahal ka kung hanada ka na at ang puso mo. At kung handa ka ng masaktan ulit.

[reyselbel]

Never beg for love because real love never asked it is freely given. If youre asking for love it is not love anymore it is called charity. 

[reyselbel]

Our First Monthsary

Actually, medyo na disappoint ako sa first monthsary namin. Im expecting something special sa araw na yun. Siguro kasi first time kong mag celebrate ng monthsary and I dunno kung anong nangyayari dun. Gusto ko sana ng something to remember. or something to cherish. Im not expeting for a gift or any material things. BAsta gusto ko lang ng special sa araw na yun. I cannot request naman na yun ang gusto ko or ganyan kasi ayaw ko namang maging demanding. Kasi diba kapag sinabi ko hindi na sweet yun. Marami kasi akong relationship goals. I gave him shirt and letter nung monthsary namin pero wala akong natanggap in return. Im not saying that gusto ko ng regalo na mamahalin kahit letter na lang or a flower okay na ako. Nag expect ako ng surprise pero wala eh. Ang stupid ko. Masaya naman ako s afirst monthsary namin pero hindi ako kuntento.

[reyselbel]

I still dont know how to handle relationship

Hindi talaga ako marunong how to handle fights, pano maging sweet or pano maging isang good girlfriend. Im insecure sa mga ex niya kahit hindi niya naman pinapramdam sa akin na dapat akong ma insecure or magselos pero yun ang nararamdaman ko. They are prettier than me, mas maputi sila at mas mayaman. Im trying naman to hide all of my insecurities. Everytime na nag aaway kmi natatkot ako na iwan niya ako or bitawan niya ako. Ayaw kong masaktan pero hinahanda ko naman ang sarili ko s asakit. Diba mali yun? na iniisip ko na mag brebreak kami. Gusto kong maging best girlfriend sa kanya pero ayaw ko ng masyadong OA. Minsan inaaway ko siya sa napaka babaw na rason. Minsan napaka walang kwenta ng pinag aawayan namin. Minsan nagsisinuplada ako kasi nagseselos ako or na iinsecure sa mga ex niya after kong i stalk ang facebook nila. What should I do? Could someone advice me?

[reyselbel]

My first kiss

HAHAHAA. NAKAKA BALIW PALA NOH? Nagka tinginan lang kami hangag sa nagka dampi ang aming mga labi. Smack lang siya at first pero nung nag lights off na ayun na he kissed me more passionately. I dunno how to react or do basta kusa lang nag move ang lips ko like his lips were mine. hahahaha. NAkakakilig na ewanna gustong sumabog ang puso ko.

[reyselbel]

My lovestory

Last July 19,2014 i officially quit from being single. Hindi ko talaga inimagine na mgiging boyfriend ko siya. He's one of the most amazing person I've ever met. He's a little bit younger than me. Im 9 months a head when it comes to age but 2 years gap in a year level of education. He's a fourth year high school student and im already 2nd year college well it doesnt matter. We've became friends. We share experiences and he used to call me BOSS. He's a good friend of mine. We're always texting and i really enjoy talking to him. We have the same attitue of being immature. Lagi naming pinag aawayan ang mga bagay na walang kwenta. Pareho kaming ayaw magpatalo. He's my consistent textmate. He always listen to my stories, to my problems and everything I want to tell. I never get tired of listening to every word I say. I just go with the flow. We already texting like there's already something between two of us. He's always saying take care, goodmorning, i miss you but not that direct words. Nagpapaalam siya kahit hindi naman kailangan coz were not together until one day i asked him if why he's acting like that? Why he's so sweet and he said that " IM ALREADY COURTING YOU. ISN'T IT OBVIOUS? REYSEL NAMAN EH, GAGAWIN KO PA BA ANG MGA BAGAY NA YUN KUNG HINDI KITA GUSTO? Kung wala ka lang sa akin tapos ganun ang ginagawa ko edi MALANDI AKO." Im so speechless by those words. Im not informed eh. I dont want to assume coz i thought from the very beggining that he's just flirting with me that he's just like other boys that will just fade or gone or get tired. But he did not. Yung iba lumalabo pero siya lumiliwanag at nagbibigay ng liwanag sa buhay ko. He's a very sweet boyfriend. He holds my hand in public places, he plays with my hair and he loves telling stories. Lahat ginagawa niya just to show his love. Hindi niya ako kayang tiisin and mahilig siyang makipag kulitan sa akin. If im with him parang we have our own galaxy. I love him soooo much. I really do.  And I do my part as his girlfriend. Were not yet legal but my friends know about him. Im sooo blessed to have him.

[reyselbel]

Im sooo hot. ( im actually reffering to my body temperature )

[reyselbel]

Im sooo Hot. Well, im actually referring to my body temperature.