Breakeven

Welp.

….What is it you’re going over to do with that guy you’re talking to, Rhea..? I know that’s not the Switzerland guy because I’ve seen Ryder around and that would make no sense… w-what… are you going to do with your feelings about this other guy?

Ezra... Ryder is just a friend, he is not the guy I was talking about. Ry will just cook me dinner and listen me whine for a couple of hours. We are not even remotely interested on each other. And I won't do anything. There is nothing I can do. I will just hope that time will turn it from romantic to fraternal...

I... have to leave. I have to wake up early... I love you.

#chat #c: ezra

Welp.

You… have feelings for someone else…. someone I… don’t even know….

I do. I tried to hide and lied along the way to myself, but I can't lie to you.

No matter what you think, you suppose, or do, Ezra, that doesn't change my love for you.

#chat #c: ezra

Where is my best friend?!

Oh, sounds like we may need some wine too? I’ll put a bottle in the freezer, to chill. I’ll pick you up, in about ten to fifteen minutes?

#chat #c: ryder #alright #I will sleep soon #but I will try to reply soon

Jesus, Ryder, this way you will seduce me. All these promises. Alright. Enough to put some decent clothes.

Welp.

Yes… a real date… just you and me and romance, and me trying to make up for the absence…

Things.. that happened? Uhh… what kind of things? You didn’t.. treat this like a break, did you…?

Tabula rasa? I clean and fresh starter for us? We could use one I think.

I- no. I didn't hook up with anyone. It was someone from my... Past... Present. It is a bit complicated. He is someone from Switzerland. He has been living here for a while, but we didn't have any contact until a week ago. He was here and he was promising me much more that I could think at the moment. And I was so lost, I felt like you were gone. And the things I felt for him, the ones I buried deep down on me... They surfaced. I will always feel this, those things for him, and remember him, us, but that chapter is over and I did not act on it, because I love you... I... Can tell you everything about it if you would like to know.

#chat #c: ezra

Where is my best friend?!

Yes, I am. Hm, How about I pick you up and we run to the grocery store and then I teach you how to make chicken alfredo? We’ll eat good food and talk about boys and whatever else. yeah?