apology + break
hi, sorry if this comes off as lazy. Iām just not the best at forming apologies without beating myself up too much or not apologising enough and making excuses. Please bear with me.
Iāve only realised today, but I feel like Iāve been acting really entitled lately. Iāve always been complaining about everything without trying to face the problems head-on. Along with that, Iāve been vagueposting a lot, whether it be about real-life or online things and whether it be about things or people. Iāve realised thatās really hypocritical of me, considering I dislike when people do that. Iāve always been terrible with direct conflict, not even that, Iāve just always been terrible with discussing how I feel about things, and I shouldnāt just give up on them because itās too tiring or boring for me, it needs to happen. Conflict is a part of life, but it doesnāt always have to be so aggressive.
So from now on, Iāll try to be less vague about things, Iāll try to truly say how I feel about something, and even then Iāll still take advice from people and not just dismiss it, as Iāve done multiple times in my life, only to get consequences for being too cocky to listen to it.
Iām also sorry about always complaining about when people post about media literacy and nuance and whatnot, because itās really true. people often dismiss nuance nowadays, and people often have a lack of media literacy and just decide to believe anything, and I would hate to become that. Iām worried that I might have already become that. Whether I have or havenāt, Iāll be more open-minded to these kind of things instead of just being arrogant about it.
Iām sorry if Iāve ever hurt you. Youāre wonderful people, deep down, even if you donāt think so, and Iām glad to have met you. Please, look after yourself, and love yourself. You shouldnāt have to have some arrogant person complaining in your ear all the time. For now, I think Iāll try stay off tumblr, Iāll stay off this account at least, for a while. farewell for now. ā¤ļø
