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Hopefully I can send this time and create something. I’ve been working on my clothing for over two years and maybe now I can finally get something rolling. Of course my parents want me to work on my college scholarships, which will get done but you know.

#dontgetaspeedingticketandnotpay #oryouwillhaveawarrentoutforyourarrest

Locked up for the whole weekend which really sucks. I look forward to the weekends so much because their a huge relief. I get to just chill with people who i love chilling with. So it sucks but I have next weekend. Ill be on here the next two days though. So hopefully I can get out some thoughts.

#freerivers

Back in Georgia State, waiting to get into the classes I want. They’re all full. On the bright side I have a couple classes with the squad so thats lit. Now I don't have to be at North Atlanta as often either!

California dreaming

Turned in my essays, back into Georgia State, My party is tomorrow, and I will be surrounded by my homies. Everyday gets a little better!

Who in any world can write a five page essay? Like you are basically just telling me to bullshit four pages. I can explain anything in one page so what the fuck am I supposed to do for the next four. Shit is ass backwards dumb

College thoughts

California is the main goal. But why? I feel like i belong there, its a calling that i can't really explain. At this point I would even consider choosing san diego state over boulder. I mean sure its a commuter school, but it has a decent business program. Im just anxious for march. Never in my life have i really been rejected by something i truly and deeply wanted. I really want to go to Santa Barbara but the business school is kind of non existent. I want to figure out what I want to do, i honestly don't want to work for anyone or any company that requires me to do the same thing over and over. Especially if i have to wear a suit. I’d love to create a business that meant something and changed the world for the better. But thats what half of kids in business college wants. I know I'm different, Ive never really met anyone that looks, sees, and thinks about stuff in the way I do. Lmao besides Duvan but we don't think the same way business wise. Im gonna miss that man, but he’ll be there for me no matter where I am. Now that my parents are not really moving, I’ll see him more. I just hope I meet the people I feel I deserve, if that happens then I probably won't come back for a whole year, id rather go explore and travel during my breaks then come back here. I can just Skype everyone I miss and love, family is family. Lmao its funny because I haven't been happy with the people Ive been around for years now, its kind of crazy. I say this because carter just hit me up talking about our party. Like I always knew the people I wanted to be with but never really made it fully happen. I smile every-time I think about the squad, i fuck with them and its crazy how they accepted me and fuck with me on such a high level so fast. They the homies and their family. Ive had some of the best times and the worst times in the last 3 months. Ive been lower than I've ever been and I've also been higher than I've ever been. The difference now is that when i get low, I have the squad and all the other homies, even Joe, I fuck with that man heavy too. This party tomorrow will be crazy. On a whole other level than Duvan and I’s new years party. One of the best nights of my life by far, I think I don't remember it much because I was so happy that the adrenaline kicked in and I just off the charts excited. I hope its the same tomorrow night. I need to write these essays first but instead Im just writing down whats in my mind. Ive never done this before but it kind of helps.

Up at 2 am

Up at 2 am,

working on essays that should've been done,

all because my ass went phantom,

and georgia state kicked me out, pretended like it was random,

mom gets on me, “Whats wrong son”,

“How long have you been smoking pot for”,

“If you get caught how long are you gonna get locked up for”,

California will get shot out the sky like a condor,

I like to believe everyday is a little better,

that one day ill look back and laugh at this letter,

reality is, I don't know whats going to happen,